christina_burke's Journal
Working at SubwayNov 09 2009 20:50
I work every Monday and the occasional 8 hour shift on a weekend or holiday. I have such a hard time controlling my cravings to eat while i'm at work. I had a cookie and a foot long subway melt today. I try to make it a little better by scooping out the extra doughy bread from the bun and only add one piece of meat instead of 2, a little bit of sauce and some pepper and lots of lettuce. So it's not SO bad. But the cookies are HORRIBLE for you, and I know that but I always crave one when I work and I feel so guilty today about eating one. One cookie from subway is about 210 calories!!! UGH.
Every time I eat something that I know I shouldn't I feel like I'm failing. I need to learn how to better control my cravings when I'm at work. It's SO hard. I wish I didn't work in a food place, but for part time only working 4 hours a week they pay me 11 an hour because I've been there for so long. I don't want to work somewhere else for minimum wage which is 9.25. Plus I get the hours that I want that work around school.
I really need to control cravings at work.
Anyways. This morning I weighed in at 194.4. That's 5.6 lbs down in three weeks. Most would say "hooray look at your progress" and I'm thinking, "my god why won't it get off my butt faster!" All I can think about are those fudgescicles that I ate on the weekend and that cookie that I ate today at work. BAD. But with still sticking to about my calorie intake today, I only went 80 calories over. So, I had 1380 today. 1300 is my limit for the day. I feel comftorble eating that amount as long as I eat more calories in the morning. I feel like if I eat too lilttle in the morning I crave more and more food throughout the day. It is my goal to wake up and prepare a nice sized calorie filled, healthy well balanced breakfast for myself every morning and see how much it helps me during the day.
I want to lose weight! I want it to come off! I want to keep reminding myself of my goals.
My goal by the end of the month is to see 189 lbs!
My overall is to weight 145lbs by this time next year!
I want to succeed. I want to do well. I don't want to give in to my cravings. I want to be healthier. I want to look better. I want to feel better. I want to BE better. I want to live the way I want to live. I want to wear amazing clothes that look amazing on me. I want other people to think I look amazing. I want to feel amazing.
-Christina B
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