chugra's Journal

Recommitment and accountability
Nov 05 2008 11:12

So, I've never kept a journal - not here, nor in my teenage years. I don't know if I'll keep this one up but I think it is a good idea to state that I've recommitted myself to reaching my goals this time.

There are two things that I think are important. The first is that this time I've decided to commit myself for 8 weeks, or until Christmas because I've always tried to start a lifestyle change 'for good' and have always given up after some time, I think the pressure of forever is just too big for me to handle! 8 weeks seems manageable and I hope I can get some good results for that period. Maybe if I am doing well I will also stay on track afterwards, but I'll think about that when 'then' comes. I have 11 kilograms to lose, that's like 22 pounds! It sounds so much.. I know there are people who have a lot more to lose, but I've been at this weight for 8 years now and it's so depressing to know I haven't been able to do anything about it for so long.. I haven't been pregnant or given birth and I have no excuse, I just let myself go for a year and have not yet recovered.. 

The other important issue is that I hope that I can be held accountable by you guys, both for motivation and for a hard kick on the a**! I do need that sometimes and I have no one to get either from. I live in a foreign country with very few friends, work out alone and so on, so I could use some support. 

Well, I think I should stop now, before this gets too long. Any comments are welcome and thanks in advance!