coolvending5's Journal

3 workouts in 4 days, Cheeseburgers & Chocolate
Dec 01 2009 21:28

Now if I only I start staying away from Steak N' Shake I'd be in even better shape! 

Mid-morning weigh in:  184.4  <--- Needs to get closer to 175 for me to reach my goal of 175 by this Christmas. I've had cravings for cheeseburgers and chocolate the last few days.

Any suggestions for lower calorie substitutes?

One more thing:  Had a FULL-TIME job interview today.  Round 2 of 3.  I did awesome and they'd be fools not to hire me.  More info. to come...

Worked out again!
Nov 20 2009 18:27

Morning weigh in - 182 

Workout:  46 mins (23 min Treadmill incline walk/jog & 23 min Elliptical)

Tonight - Enjoying some Italian food with my Ma & Dad.  Splurging on some dark chocolate cake.

I worked out!
Nov 19 2009 22:26

Today started off rough.  I overslept, kinda on purpose because I didn't feel like driving the 40 minutes it takes for me to get to my part-time job.   So not only did I wake up at 10 a.m., the time I'm supposed to be at work, but I also moved like a turtle.  I didn't leave my house until 10:45.  No one at the firm said anything, which kinda pissed me off a little more and made me feel like I'm not valued there.

I met up with my fiance on my lunch break and I was in such a bad mood that I was mute our entire lunch.  He asked me what was wrong and I told him "None of his business".  I was a hot mess.  We didn't talk and then he dropped me back off at the office and called me once he made it home

I was being ungrateful and taking my frustration out on him.  He called and told me all he wanted to do was make me happy and that he was upset because he came all the way to see me and treat me to lunch and I just gave him the cold shoulder.  He said I was treating him like the enemy.

I apologized and realized that things could be worst.

Yes, I'm upset about a lot of things (mostly financial things).

-Credit card debt

-Student loan debt

-Lack of full-time job

-Being overweight

-Barely paying my bills each month

-Bills

-Living at home

But I also have a lot to be grateful for:

-A place to live

-Food to eat

-Friends

-Family

-My fiance

-A gym membership

-2 part-time jobs

-A car

And you know what...money will always take wings.  Character is way more important than financial stability.  I'm working on that...

Highlight of my day:  I worked out! (Treadmill, Bike, Weight training)

Still hoping to see 175 by Christmas.  The morning's weight:  184

Screw this bad economy
Nov 13 2009 17:36

My health is #1. 

Even though I'm barely keeping up with car payments, credit card bills, weekly expenses, etc., my health is #1.

Today, for the first time since September, I had a good workout in a GYM.  Yes, I renewed my gym membership at Women's Workout World.  There was only a $1 activation fee and then only $21/month.  Where there's a will, there's a way.  :0  I over two years, I'll be paying about $500 total.  Not too shabby!

I'm confident this membership will get my butt back to moving and give me an alternative to sitting in my house feeling miserable and sorry for myself.

I may be broke, but I can still get my body looking hot.

Saved a bunch of money today by renting FREE DVDs from my public library.  I got Gilmore Girls on DVD, That Girl on DVD and the movie Friends With Money (feat. Jen Aniston), which I will watch tonight.

Staying positive.  Good things are just around the corner.  

Gradually...then suddenly.

175 by Christmas. 184 today.
Nov 12 2009 03:49

175 by Christmas.

I put my goal as my cell phone memo/screen saver!

I have been so inactive lately.  I really really really want to re-join my gym but my budget's not looking so great now.  I could really use monthly gym fees for car payments, student loans, gas, car insurance, etc.-- but I really do work out better/more frequently when I have a gym!  Home fitness is nice but it's so much easier to just watch regular tv or eat or surf the internet.  Ah.

My fiance lost ten pounds since the end of October.  He's earned it too!  He's been walking to his gym, working out, then walking home. 

FOCUS, Cindy, FOCUS!  I need to get back to daily exercise.  Snap out of this lazy zone.  I want to join the 10 pound club.  I need to start scheduling my home workout DVD collection.

I just started seasonal retail work this week, which honestly I don't mind but I'm ready for a FULL TIME job already.  The pay is better than nothing though.

It's 4 a.m. and I have a bad case of insomnia.  My eyes won't stay closed.  Too many thoughts on my brain.  How am I going to pay my credit card bills down?  When will I get a full-time job?  Will I be tired at work all day?  Will I ever lose all these extra pounds?  When will I be able to move out of my parents' house?  Did I pass my bar exam?  Results in ONE WEEK.  Yikes.  Don't want to think about it.

  I have to get ready for half-day at the law firm in 5 hours.  I'm thinking of pulling an all-nighter.  Watching Roseanne on Nick at Night.  Still not tired!

Congrats to everyone on their awesome weight loss/maintanence!  I've been reading some awesome journal entries about ladies completing daily workouts and calorie counts. 

I'm watching that weight loss wagon parading on by and I'm looking for the courage to jump back on.

Bored again, not in wedding mood
Nov 07 2009 18:53

I've been at home all day today.  Slept until 10:30 a.m. and then took a nap from 3 to 5.   I woke up this morning feeling less than 100%.   Lots of body aches and pains so took some Sinus Meds.  I hope I haven't caught a flu virus.  Pumping myself with fluids and vitamins.

I was supposed to get a lot of errands done today:  Oil change, bridal shower gift, kitchen stuff for mom.  Didn't do much beside read CC journals, log my food, watch tv, eat.  Maybe I'll find a little motivation to do a mini workout tonight.

Getting nervous about bar exam results which will be available in only 12 days.  I don't want to be a failure. I'm very nervous and think a fail may send me into a deeper depression. One of my friends get her state results a month ago and the whole day she was a nervous wreck -- throwing up, not able to eat, etc. -- and then that evening she got her results:  PASS!  I'd like the same thing to happen to me, without the whole throwing up episode.  :)

I haven't been able to talk to my fiance all day today because he's at work.  I hate living apart from him and it may be another 6 months to a year (or longer) before we actually move in together.  We only see each other once a week and starting next week we'll be lucky to see each other twice a month since I'll start working nights/weekends. 

It makes me sad to be apart from him.  :( I really really want to get married and move in together ASAP but we're both still in transition working on getting full-time jobs & figuring out where we need to move.  He's applying to grad schools right now so wherever he decides to go will determine where we move.

lus, I have  NO interest in wedding planning.  I'm the least girly girl that exists.  I bought a bridal magazine a month ago and I've barely managed to force my way through half of it.  Right now a wedding seems like a huge waste of money and unfun planning.  My ma says I'm just saying that now because I'm broke and quite stressed and if I don't have my "dream wedding" I'll regret it later.  I disagree.  

First of all I don't have a "dream" about a wedding, except to spend as little money as possible.  I don't care about wedding colors or decorations.  I don't need to spend thousands on a dress.  Call me the bah humbug of weddings.  All I care about is the marriage.   I feel like a lot of girls focus so much on a perfect wedding that they don't think about the actual marriage. I want to start my marriage financially stable.  I know wedding gifts will help, but it's very hard for me to imagine putting china on a registry now when I don't even have a place of my own yet.

We're hoping to set a date sometime soon but honestly I think I'd be fine with a courthouse wedding. 

Everything's so frustrating now.  I gained about 2 pounds this week.  :(  Stupid kitchen remodeling and expired gym membership and getting the best of me!  I really took a kitchen and a gym membership for granted.

I'm not giving up on ANYTHING.  I'm looking forward to the future....working on my 2010 goals now.

True Life: I've been eating crap
Nov 04 2009 14:03

My parents are having their kitchen remodeled so ALL of October we ate take-out because we don't have a stove/oven...just a microwave and fridge/freezer.  And we eat in our family room.  Right in front of the tv. 

Unfortunately, those bad habits have trailed over into Nov., along with our remodeling project which was supposed to be complete cerca Oct. 25th.

Since we don't have a real kitchen I also eat a lot of fast food during the day.  SO BAD.  But even when I pack a lunch it's just Easy Mac...not much healthier.

BAD Eating Example (based on a true story):

Breakfast:  McDonald's EggMcMuffin Meal with Orange Juice (hashbrown, eggmcmuffin, orange juice)  <-- before work

Lunch:  Potbelly's Chicken Salad Salad with Full-fat Potbelly Vinagrete and Provelone Cheese, Water  <-- during lunch break

Snack:  1-3 Diet Sodas, Water, Snack Crackers & Cheeze Its  <-- at work

Dinner:  Olive Garden Chicken Scampi & Olive Garden Salad (TO GO) <-- at home

Snack: 6 fun-size gummi lifesaves, 6 tootsie rolls, 2 Hershey's Milk Chocolate Fun Size candies, water <--- at home

The only fruit I've been eating are the dried cranberries in my Potbelly salads and the gummi lifesavers...which don't count.

Hmm.  Not so good.  Only good thing is I've been maintaining my weight and my alcohol consumption is under control (finally!).  Being broke means I don't go out to bars more than once a month and since I'm no longer in college land I don't really drink that much when I'm out and have to drive -- i.e. One beer and I'm done for the night.  It sure is a nice change of pace from college binge drinking, i.e. 3 beers was a pregame before going out.  Come to think of it, the last two times I drank, it wasn't even beer.  It was wine.   I'm classy now, I guess.

Anyways, maintanence or not, I'm still over weight and need to lose weight to reach a healthy BMI.  My friend says she tends to pack on pounds during the winter months and suggested I try a Carb Blocker (which I did).  That might explain why I haven't been gaining despite my crap diet.

My friends and I are also trying a 30-day trim diet.  Something's gotta give.

Bored
Oct 26 2009 22:52

I had a fabulous weekend visiting a friend an hour from my parents house but since I've returned home I've been BORED.  I remember reading this quote years ago that said something to the effect of "If you're bored, it means you're boring."  Sigh.  Not motivated to work out tonight. 

I was so bored tonight that I started watching the Home Shopping Network and found a super cuter nightgown that allegedly is more comfy than a T-shirt.  When I reach 170 lbs I will treat myself to this:   

It's a Rhonda Shear Soft Cup Lace Butterknit Gown and it costs around $41 with shipping and all.  I guess there's no need for me to wear it when I'm still living with my parents.  Lol.  I'm expecting to hear from that FULL TIME position I interviewed with a few weeks ago real SOON.  Working part time, sucks, but not as much as not working at all.

http://fashion.hsn.com/rhonda-shear-soft-cup-lace-butterknit -gown_p-5589554_xp.aspx?webm_id=0&web_id=5589554&sf= fa&attr=104&ocm=fa|104&prev=hp!104&ccm=fa|104

Engaged & Underage
Oct 15 2009 14:19

Engaged.  YES!

Underage.  Not quite.

Yes, my former bf, now fiance, proposed!  I am very excited and have some financial worries but I am super happy and have a new motivation to lose some more fat!  We both still live at home.  I want to move out so bad but it's quite difficult when we both have part-time jobs. I had a great full-time job interview last week that I'm supposed to hear back from either today or tomorrow so please pray for me!

Still down 10ish pounds since May graduation.  Rejoining my gym this weekend.  :)  My jeans (size 12) are fitting lose around my butt and my thighs, even with a belt.   I'm in-between a size 10 & 12 now!  Neither one fits.

This morning my ma took me to breakfast.  I'm perpetually on some made up diet.  Now it's the NO COW diet which means no cream for my coffee, no cheese, no beef chorizo omeletes and no whip cream on my pancakes.   Well...I cheated and got some whip cream on my pumpkin pancackes this morning but at least I asked for them to put the whip cream "on the side".

Progress?  I think yes.

I'm looking forward to a very bright future, one step at a time.

Now, time to do Julian's 30-day shred.  (thanks for that tip many months ago, Nicole)