coolvending5's Journal
Bored again, not in wedding moodNov 07 2009 18:53
I've been at home all day today. Slept until 10:30 a.m. and then took a nap from 3 to 5. I woke up this morning feeling less than 100%. Lots of body aches and pains so took some Sinus Meds. I hope I haven't caught a flu virus. Pumping myself with fluids and vitamins.
I was supposed to get a lot of errands done today: Oil change, bridal shower gift, kitchen stuff for mom. Didn't do much beside read CC journals, log my food, watch tv, eat. Maybe I'll find a little motivation to do a mini workout tonight.
Getting nervous about bar exam results which will be available in only 12 days. I don't want to be a failure. I'm very nervous and think a fail may send me into a deeper depression. One of my friends get her state results a month ago and the whole day she was a nervous wreck -- throwing up, not able to eat, etc. -- and then that evening she got her results: PASS! I'd like the same thing to happen to me, without the whole throwing up episode. :)
I haven't been able to talk to my fiance all day today because he's at work. I hate living apart from him and it may be another 6 months to a year (or longer) before we actually move in together. We only see each other once a week and starting next week we'll be lucky to see each other twice a month since I'll start working nights/weekends.
It makes me sad to be apart from him. :( I really really want to get married and move in together ASAP but we're both still in transition working on getting full-time jobs & figuring out where we need to move. He's applying to grad schools right now so wherever he decides to go will determine where we move.
lus, I have NO interest in wedding planning. I'm the least girly girl that exists. I bought a bridal magazine a month ago and I've barely managed to force my way through half of it. Right now a wedding seems like a huge waste of money and unfun planning. My ma says I'm just saying that now because I'm broke and quite stressed and if I don't have my "dream wedding" I'll regret it later. I disagree.
First of all I don't have a "dream" about a wedding, except to spend as little money as possible. I don't care about wedding colors or decorations. I don't need to spend thousands on a dress. Call me the bah humbug of weddings. All I care about is the marriage. I feel like a lot of girls focus so much on a perfect wedding that they don't think about the actual marriage. I want to start my marriage financially stable. I know wedding gifts will help, but it's very hard for me to imagine putting china on a registry now when I don't even have a place of my own yet.
We're hoping to set a date sometime soon but honestly I think I'd be fine with a courthouse wedding.
Everything's so frustrating now. I gained about 2 pounds this week. :( Stupid kitchen remodeling and expired gym membership and getting the best of me! I really took a kitchen and a gym membership for granted.
I'm not giving up on ANYTHING. I'm looking forward to the future....working on my 2010 goals now.
my wedding was inexpensive and loosely planned and i dont regret it. big weddings are soooooo stressful, any that i have been involved in have stressed me to tears and drinking. haha im not the type of girl who ever even imagined what my dress would look like or any of that type BS. my mom was shocked when she asked me what dress i wud want and i had no idea. i went to the stores and just started looking till i found one i thought was pretty, had it sized, got married on the end of a public beach at sunset, only immediate family was there, reception at my house, few more ppl invited but nothing spectacular. i lived far away from most of my family at this time. people watching the sunset cheered when we kissed hahaha! the only thing better would have been maybe going to Vegas but my mom would have cried and never forgiven me lol. get married far away and nobody will be able to come hahaha isnt that horrible? i knew a couple who did that and then just had a reception at their house after the honeymoon and everybody just partied. that was cool too. do what u want, in the end your wedding day is up to you and him dont let everybody stress you out about it. enjoy it. |
Hi! I read your post and I am right there with ya, girl! I am the same way as you, and meredith above me. I have never pictured my wedding, cared at all about my perfect dress, and I view those elaborate weddings as a gigantic waste of time and money! Not to mention the stress of planning! Granted I'm not married yet, but am totally planning on a mellow wedding with perhaps just some good food and some kegs of beer and cases of wine- preferably in someone's backyard or something. The idea of choosing bridesmaids, colors, outfit, it makes me want to vomit! You're not alone. I say do what makes you comfortable and happy! |
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