crazydiamondchrysalis's Journal

2010
Dec 14 2009 16:51

We have some $ in savings, finally. More importantly, we both have jobs, and we have health insurance.

the time is right. (in my mind, it has been right since the wedding but w/e)

January 1. I'm quitting drinking, quitting caffiene again, and starting to chart.

Charting my BBT, finding out when I ovulate, and gettin me some.

Hubby is going to take his vitamins if I have to throw them down his throat and hold his mouth shut til he swallows, ha.

He is cutting back on caffiene and liquor. He is not going to make any more drain babies for a while. He is gonna keep his hands off himself!

This is the year, I claim it, I stake it. We aren't just not using birth control. We aren't half-assed just "doing it more often".  He isn't trying just to make me happy, he really wants it too (last time we try-tried, he didn't keep his hands off even though he told me he would, and I have 80% forgiven him. How do I 100% forgive that? Especially if.. ).. NO. No if. No especially ifs.

This is the time.

I have my doctor's check up appointment next week. I'll find out then if I still have an option. My fear is that I don't but my fears have rarely been well-founded. Seven years of half-assed trying and simply not using BC isn't really trying, is it?? A lot of that time has been spent trying to get a job, trying to get health insurance, trying not to lose the house. But it does make the mind create things. Things to make it all make sense. How 2 weeks off BC worked the first time, and 10 years off still hasn't worked the second time.

But combined, it will. It all comes together this year. Circumstance, effort, cooperation.

so it is written, so shall it be. In accordance with the prophecy.

*shakes fists at stephen king*
Dec 03 2009 14:12

You made me cry. Two days in a row! In front of my fellow jurors, and again in front of my coworkers.

I know, people have to die to make a good story. But.. but... ! Okay, the first one, okay. But the second one! And I was afraid to read this book (that's why it's been published for 5 years and I bought it the second it hit the shelf, but only just now read it) and now I'm afraid to finish it, do ya kennit?!

(I'm just over halfway through the last Tower book)

Running
Nov 24 2009 10:41

I'm doing it!

I can run on 6 for FOUR WHOLE MINUTES!

I can do HIIT running at 9 for the 30 second sprint!

I'll do HIIT 1x per week, and walk/run thing (increasing running time each time) 2x a week.

Then when it starts to warm up I'll start training outside.

I'm going to do a half-marathon with my sister next fall!!