crissyboo's Journal
This makes me super madDec 11 2008 05:10
Well today at 5am I was on line checking my e-mail and I received an email from face book saying that my friend had tagged me in a picture.
Okay so now I'm thinking aww its probably a cute one and aww I love her.
Damn-it I was wrong!
It was a picture of me back in 7th grade my worstish years I really loved middle school towards the end. But any who Ew, Gross!
I was super fat huge and I couldn't dress to save my life.
Why does this make me mad?
Because, I WAS FUCKING FAT !!!!! and no one in my family had the decency to tell me to go on a diet and lose weight or help me. There way was by making fun of me. What the FUCK was they thinking and me Too. Did they not give an hell about it. I WAS HUge and only in 7th grade !!!!
GotDAMNIT!!!
I'm thinking back to those years where my life was hellish, I had low Very Low self esteem, I was ugly (To me and everyone else), I ate my life away, I had no self confidence, I stayed in the house all the time on the computer, I lost my best friends by doing so, I cried a lot, I envied other people a lot, I was a jealous person. Just some much more BS I don't even want to think or get into right now.
I can look back a say I accomplished something my not be a lot but it was something.
I don't want to go back to her, I want to move on from her I want to feed off her to inspire me to do better, Never again will I put myself through that much torture, That's what it was pure torture.
Damn that was a good wake up call.
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