cruebug2002's Journal

TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY!
May 17 2008 07:12

An yeah my heart is in my throat as I am getting things packed and ready. I have worked all winter JUST FOR THIS MOMENT! And of course I am going through the.... what happens IF my tire bursts... or what if I don't cross the line, what happens if I choke on water? OH GOD, what if I mess up. I don't want all these people that are watching me to think I am a failure.

I know that no matter what I am a winner. I have lost 83 pounds. Who can argue with the fact that I have been gaining back my life a little piece at a time. My 4 year old asked me to slow down at the bus stop this week. WHO can say that they can out run their kids. Now, I can. But I couldn't 9 months ago. SO, I am the winner no matter how you look at it. And if I mes up or If I don't cross(Which I will by the way even if I have to crawl) the line......I will be back next year doing the same thing again. With a few more added on. I know that I will be JUST as nervous next year as I am this year.... But I will be prepared more in that I will know what to expect. And I will be amazing this year. I am a winner...

as I just reread that. I am not sure who I am trying to convince you.......OR ME! LOL

so my hubby finished my bike stand last night. He had to change a few things on it... and it looks AMAZING! It isn't painted yet. But it will be. Over the summer I will get that done as well. ;) I have been given a nice bike to keep. It isn't the one I will be racing with. And I will need to do some work on it. BUT I am excited about that. It is a nice trek. And we will need knew tires and inner tubes for that. Than we will need to get new handle bars over the time so that I will be able to stream line. But I am forever grateful to my hubbies best friend for that. What a wonderful gift to be able to continue this with a bike of my own. ;)

The kids are UBUR excited. They get to spend time with grandma and grandpa. That is time they always cherish. I do wish in one hand they were going to be with us. So they could see the finish to all the hard work. Than I remember there will be so many people there. And Hubby needs to be able not to worry about ME AND the Kids. So we will be kind to him and show them the pictures. I will also call them as soon as I am done. They are my first priority. I want them to be part of it!

They always see me walk back in the door AFTER my workout. But they don't see when I leave. I give them all a kiss as I walk out. Their sleepy little heads still on the pillow.... drool escaping their little mouths. Ahhhhhhhhh.......... so peaceful when they sleep. I do this for them. I change for them. I live because and for them.

Well my dears it is now 07:25 and I am needing to get my car loaded up with my bike and beautiful stand. As I do I am going to get pictures for you. ;) there will be more to come I promise. I am trying to make sure that I get as many of this amazing thing as I can. I will also be buying the pictures of the professionals they have on the trail taking pictures of us. ;) I think they are 5$ a shot. But I will find out latter. I am Thrilled to tell you..... this is one dream that is coming true. So me a favor, Make yours come true too.... the feeling is Euphoric.

JenBug