devilish_patsy's Journal

Another Wednesday

Nov 04 2009 07:52

The days pass by quickly and I am still searching for balance in my life. The commute has to go, the challenges have to lessen. I am working on it.

Hit the gym at 5.20 this morning and lifted. Start the day out great. Hanging in there.

Personal life fabulous, professional life leaves much to be desired.....a work in progress.

Wednesday ~ Damp Spirits

Oct 28 2009 07:33

Spirit is dampened a tad by administration but I will persevere. Something will happen that is positive for my lifestyle. I must say that in meetings yesterday reinforced that I cannot work for administration like that. It is not like me to stab someone in the back...if I have something to say, I say it to the person's face. It somewhat annoys me that someone can be nice to my face and then in the next breath I find out that they are bashing me.

That said, I have reached out to a few resources again. I will shake out opportunities in my region.

On a personal level, things are progressing quite nicely on the homefront. When one door is closed another wonderful door does open. Despite the work challenges, I am blessed and continue to thank the universe for that.

Heading to the gym after work and looking forward to it as usual.

Obstacles

Oct 27 2009 03:08

A wonderful perfect birthday surrounded by friends and family...I am blessed.

Work continues to be a challenge met with resistance by administration. What is the universe trying to teach me? Something to learn or something to teach, in every problem/challenge those are the questions. Am I being taught patience? Am I being taught that every book with a pretty cover is really an ugly Dorian Gray underneath?

I am once again looking at other opportunities. It is not like me to jump ship but then again, it is not like me to be ordered to shut my mouth. Not a pleasant situation.

Friday Before Birthday

Oct 23 2009 02:07

Fat - 21.8% (31 grams)
Protein - 22.9% (74 grams)
Carbohydrates - 55.3% (179 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Calories 1212

My days progress...12-14 hrs days are the norm. I am not making it to the gym, I am not eating and I am not drinking water. My stress level is off the charts. My sleeping pattern...well what a joke. It is 2am and I am about to get ready to go into the office.

Let's just say that it is not ideal.

Personal level, day before my birthday and looking forward to another year. Proud of my accomplishments in the past year. Need to regroup and see what my accomplishments will be for the upcoming year.

Monday

Oct 19 2009 07:53

Overwhelmed still at work. Pulling 50-65 hr days and still not getting enough time in....so much to do, so much to learn. I am trying to be patient andtell myself that the reports and processes are new to me...but some days that just doesnt work.

Food has suffered, not getting proper meals thruout the day. Not getting proper hydration. Making two days of lifting but need mjore. Cardio is suffering. I guess its my turn to complain. The two hr daily commute is eating up my gym time. For instance today, I left house at 6.30am...will work all day, drive home and straight to the gym for 7pm lifting....will get home at 8.15pm tonight. Long ass day. And then cook supper. I think not...i'll have peanut butter for supper.

I have to get a handle on these things. Did manage to lose one pound from last week.

Tuesday

Oct 13 2009 06:21

Fat - 14.8% (17 grams)
Protein - 36.5% (92 grams)
Carbohydrates - 48.7% (123 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Calories 1018, deficit 600

Long day but made it to gym and worked out. NOticing some tendonitis in the right forearm. Getting out the tiger balm to cure that right away. Already hit the gym this morning and got in a good run for half hour. Feeling stronger and ready to take on the day. Things will work out as they are supposed to.....I just need to fiddle with the hours in the day to get everything accomplished.

Loads of events (six in all) coming up at work I am responsible for. Found a wine steward finally for the wine and cheese event. Other events will happen I just hope someone shows up to them.

Weather getting crisper. I may actually wear a winter coat soon. I thought about turning on the heater last night, but chickened out. I threw a down comforter on the bed instead.

Life goes on....

Monday Columbus Day

Oct 12 2009 07:10

Fat - 17.6% (31 grams)
Protein - 54.1% (212 grams)
Carbohydrates - 24.7% (97 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 3.6%

Calories 1570 Deficit 200

Good hard workouts over the weekend...proud of myself. Aching and loving it. Found myself thinking about the office over the weekend....so many things to do, so many thoughts. Patience is not one of my strong suits when I have to get things done. Will do my best this week to not let it get a hold of me...to refrain from wanting to get it all done all at once.

Friday ~ Exhausted

Oct 09 2009 05:54

Fat - 15.7% (22 grams)
Protein - 38.9% (124 grams)
Carbohydrates - 45.4% (145 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Calories 1270 no deficit.

Am exhausted, everywhere I turn there is something eldse to do. Been heading to office in afternoons after classes...so many things not done, no one to do them and no money to do them with. I shouldnt be surprised, but yet part of me is. Am buggered that I am missing my workouts, was so exhausted last night that I never made it to gym. I must try for mornings to lift....but I have to be in bldg for 9am mtg eatch morning and with traffic it will be dodgy. I need to take a breath andrealize that I am one person and there is a slight learning curve....it will fall into p;lace. I need to keep myself a priority.

Wednesday ~ What a week so far!

Oct 07 2009 05:24

Fat - 22.5% (27 grams)
Protein - 38.8% (106 grams)
Carbohydrates - 38.7% (106 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%
Calories 1093 Deficit 600

Feeling less puffy and thats a good thing. Water does the trick for me. I wish everyone could discovre things about their bodies. Interesting encounter at lunch esterday. Am still in training this week. Yesterday we were served McDonalds for lunch. I was so disgusted. I asked the server if I could just have a green salad. Everyone around me asked why, was I a vegetarian? I said no, politely and explained that McD's just upsets my stomach. Did I really want to sit there and tell them what kind of draino they were pouring into their bodies? Unbelievable that people think that crap is food! Why not just drink a bottle of vegetable oil and be done with it. Phew....breathe....enough. Am always glad to have my emergency protein bar w/ me. They brought me a large salad and I had time to eat half before class started again.

Was not in the mood after a long day to hit the gym. Gave myself a stern talking to and told myself not to be such a baby. I went and did minimal cardio but worked up a sweat. Was happy as I walked out of there and glad I went.

With the hours I am going to put in with several events in the next 15 days....I know I am going to have to move my gym time to the AM. Am wondering how I can finagle coming into work at 10am? But then I would stay until evening. Traffic would be less....Id be worked out and focused....hmmm this is going to take some fancy footwork. If I could squeeze it in a minimum of 2 days a week and then hit it one day a week on my own for weights....then continue cardio on my own other days, it could be done.

We shall see.

Tuesday Topics

Oct 06 2009 06:11

Fat - 18% (23 grams)
Protein - 54.3% (153 grams)
Carbohydrates - 26.8% (76 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Calories 1128 Deficit 649

Good hard workout with kickboxing and dang my legs are killing me this morning. Probably not a smart thing to do as I had just worked legs on Sunday but oh well.

Sitting in training all week with plenty of water in front of me. Drinking like a fish and so are some other people there. Glad to see others drink and then have to visit the ladies room.

Did not sleep that great last night. Am attributing it to unsettled feelings still with new position and workout times etc. Will give it a little while to work itself out. I may learn patience one of these days, but it is truly not my strong suit. I am more of a see it and do it kind of person. I dont do well with loads of red tape bull****. See the hill, take the hill.