devilish_patsy's Journal

Thursday ~ Last Day of Training

Dec 17 2009 06:53

Boy is it cold here in Northern NJ. Already took my bags out to my car and looking forward to a full day of training and then the drive home. I have an uncharacteristic scheduled three day weekend. Time to finalize Christmas shopping and start my cards (shame on me for being late) and get the house in shape for company. Three days of bliss, Im loving it!

Lots of reflective thoughts these days. Thoughts on exercises, thoughts on food intake, thoughts on health. Reining things in and building inner strength again. That's a good thing.

Gotta tell you that Maintenance is a tad tougher than I thought....HAVE to keep exercising no matter what the work schedule. Although the weight may not have gained, the cholesterol in my bloodwork has.....a huge amount. The only two differences have been lack of regular cardio exercise and an increase in alcohol. DATA, that's what it is....DATA, food for thought.....driving home the importance of regular cardio in addition to the strength training.

Go out there and have an off-the-wall day!!!!!

Wednesday ~ NYC

Dec 16 2009 06:19

Excellent training and am pleased I could come to it. Went with a few ladies into the city last night, shopped and got a Coach bag, ate dinner in Little Italy and managed to make it back to hotelk by just before midnight. A wee bit tired this morning but well worth it.

Eating going well this week. Going over notes this morning and will hit the gym this afternoon after class.

Special someone coming up to see me....thrilled life is going well in that area. What a difference from the last four years. Amazing what life brings you in time....the right time and the right attitude and the right place for both parties. Strangely enough, this Friday will be the fourth anniversary of my husband's death. I never thought I would live again, laugh again or even love again.

I am a very, very lucky woman.

Tuesday ~ Away on Business

Dec 15 2009 07:59

Tucked away in a hotel just outside of NYC at training this week. Nice to get away from the office and network with other employees. Feeling better about myself....hit the hotel gym this morning for a good hard treadmill workout. Now I feel as though I deserve to have a great day.

Saw an awesome advert on the news this morning....shows a can of soda and fat pouring out of it. It was gross. Love the concept though, because hopefully it will make people more aware of what they are putting in their mouths.

Hoping to make it into the city tonight for dinner w/ colleagues.

Going to make this a banner day.

Thursday ~ Bite my Tongue

Dec 10 2009 05:55

I need to tone down my anger, frustration etc. The commute is getting to me, the lack of professionalism is getting to me, the location is getting to me and I am losing it. Told the boss something in confidence concerning business and I get stopped in the parking lot by an employee who asks me if the rumor is true. Floored that the head of the place would tell someone else and now it is floating around the building. I should have known I couldnt trust her, but I had to deal w/ her concerning this piece of business....no other way to do it.

Now Im getting paranoid....I can see in other peoples eyes and actions that they are aware.

Yup Im paranoid.

I lost it when I found out she opened her mouth. Need to get a grip.

Hit the gym for spin last night and was proud of myself.

Cortisone working well on my elbow, no pain last night.

All for now....short, choppy, recognizing Im still pissed.

Friday ~ Stronger

Dec 04 2009 07:48

Getting stronger emotionally every day. Reminding myself not to deal w/ the bull****. Reminding myself that I can accomplish anything in the world I put my little heart and soul into.

Lifted last night and could feel the bruising on my back and sides. The butt, well, plenty of padding there, but bruising as well. Didnt lift as heavy, but got the job done. Came home and promptly fell into bed.

Tonight, more decorating for the HOlidays, work all day tomorrow and then Sunday getting the third tree for the house - a real one for the living room. Holidays are brighter this year and I am thankful for everyone who has touched my personal life. Friends and family are marvelous!

Thursday ~ Rainy and Windy

Dec 03 2009 03:28

High winds and rain has woken me at this early time....am somewhat happy for the peacefulness of the early morning hours. Time to think, time to ponder my life and what I need for me.

Very unusual day yesterday...came down w/ fever at the office and went home sick...took to bed asap. Had a bowl of soup mid afternoon and then was going downstairs and promptly fell down the entire flight of stairs. Bruised ego and remnants of soup all over my beautifully painted new walls....but no broken bones.

Body was just off kilter yesterday. For me, it is not good to lack balance. Am taking control again. Hitting the gym for a stress reliever tonight and enjoying the holiday season.

Wednesday ~ Balance?

Dec 02 2009 14:24

Here we are again. I wonderful friend from here emailed me and just their thoughts and sentiments reminded me of the balance that I seek in life.

I am looking at other options for my daily living.....more to follow soon.

Health-wise, I am tired, running a fever, overworked and overstressed but remembering that I have no control except over my attitude. I will regain balance in my life. I will not end up like the other newbie's in the company I see who are leaning on alcohol to soothe their nerves.

Went for a good high-incline treadmill workout last night. Overall, I have lost a little muscle mass not lifting three days a week....but the body is still good. I notice the difference, but it is the price I pay for travelling for work and the long hours. It will end soon.

Goal: to keep coming back to my CC friends.

Monday

Nov 16 2009 07:43

Consciously aware that I have been over-imbibing again....must leave the blueberry wine alone. Not worth the calories, not worth the bloat. Feeling puffy and will rehydrate properly today.

Getting ready for a business trip this week. Already know the hotel has a gym and Im packing my running shoes and lifting gloves. Preplanning.

Finishing up some chores today and gearing up for a huge week...must be kind to myself as well.

Friday

Nov 13 2009 05:20

Friday for many but I now work every Saturday so, my Friday is tomorrow. Balance not coming just yet.

Need to get back to journaling and writing down all my foods. I know I have to be undereating. Im missing my meals every three hours. Carrots remain a marvelous snack for me.

Hello to all and yes, I will be back!

Another Wednesday

Nov 04 2009 07:52

The days pass by quickly and I am still searching for balance in my life. The commute has to go, the challenges have to lessen. I am working on it.

Hit the gym at 5.20 this morning and lifted. Start the day out great. Hanging in there.

Personal life fabulous, professional life leaves much to be desired.....a work in progress.