drop40's Journal

The DREADMILL.
Dec 03 2008 20:33

I have to get on that machine in 10 minutes. What I would really rather do right now is eat a bag of dorritos the super cheesy kind and Hershey's sundae pie from Burger King. A few slices... washed down with onion rings and a whopper jr and regular coke. I would love that. mmm. But no. Today I didn't have that. I had a pretty large greek salad from a restaurant. I ordered dressing on the side and hope that helped but who really knows. When the breadsticks came all delicious and garlic-y I turned them away. I drank water and a diet pepsi, but only one diet because I'll just crave real pop if I don't stop. And then I ended up having a granola bar at 120 calories. The only problem is I have no clue how many cals there were in that stupid very large salad. Honestly it was the best thing on the menu. Everything else was fried or breaded or marinated in butter and lard I'm sure. But I'm still so hungry. I don't know what to think. Oh and I had a 1/2 cup of sugar free apple sauce... at 50 cals. I need to get on that torture device because the GOOD NEWS IS I WEIGHED IN AT 159 TODAY! Finally. I've been trying so hard and now I hope all of my hard work doesn't go up in flames over what was supposed to be a healthy meal... that I spread throughout the day. I also went shopping and tried on jeans to get an idea of where I am and where I can be by the month's end and I was happy to fit into an 8... they were se7ens and I was pretty happy to be out of a 10. I remember 3 years ago trying on the same brand in a plus size 16 and they wouldn't budge past my hips. These were fine from hip to zip! I did have a slight muffin top, but that can be lost in 2 weeks. I'd love to be a 6 when I go to Chicago. I don't know if I can make it but I'm sure going to try. I hope I didn't set myself back today. x my fingers! Anyhow I'm determined and now I'm going to do what I have to do today so I can be happier by tomorrow... or the next day.

That's all for now. Just wanted to fight what I have to do for a minute.

Love M