eerica's Journal

just keep telling yourself, 'it's gonna be okay'.
Dec 12 2009 09:36

ugh. i've decided i hate my mom not being home and i hate living alone. i live in canada, so it's super snowy and super FREEZING out, and i find it nearly impossible to force myself to go to the gym (15-minute walk to the bus stop, gotta wait for the bus, 15-minute bus ride, and then a 10-minute walk to get to my gym). like, i haven't been in a week :|

i'm up to 138 (i'll say 140 to avoid later dissapointment), from 132.. damn. my mom comes home today though, so no more of this crap.

i'm going to the gym every other day/everyday again, and i'm gonna start eating healthy again. i've been eating, well.. like a teenager.

i refuse to ever go above 140 lbs again, for the rest of my life. i figure that's a good life goal, that way if i mess up and gain weight, i'll grab control and take positive action again as soon as i hit 140 (only 4 lbs overweight).

i want to be 120 lbs by the time i go to college in september.. so i have a little less than 9 months to lose 20 lbs. gotta get moving!

enough of this crap.
Nov 10 2009 22:46

i've been binging for like a straight week now, i'm up to 136 from 132.. laaaame. gotta stop this.

my main problem is that my mom has been away for a month, so i've been eating not-so-healthy, and it eats up all my calories, so i'll have hit my 1500 quota by 3 pm and will be starving by 10 pm and binge.. so i need to eat healthier stuff, and space it out more.

k trueee, that's the plan.. starting now.

i never realized until now..
Nov 04 2009 06:57

..how much i HATE plateaus. i've weighed like 132 for sooo long now and i'm tired of it. my eating disorder is still in my head a little, and i feel horrible about myself for not losing weight everyday, and i feel like i can see my body becoming fatter every day. i'm down 1 pant size, and i'm in the healthy weight range, but i still see myself as a fat whale. my head keeps telling me to just not eat for a day or two to break the plateau, ugh.

let's start over.
Oct 23 2009 16:47

i weigh around 134-137 right now, so i'm a healthy weight (barely), which is still good.. but due to bad money prioritizing (i keep spending all my allowance on movies and recreation stuff, instead of food), mostly living on my own, and pure laziness.. i've been eating so poorly. i've basically lived off of coffee, water with crystal light, peanut butter sandwiches, and candy for the last 2 months.. NOT GOOD. although, i've been great with going to the gym as planned.

i feel so tired and run-down all the time; i have no energy; i'm irritable; and i keep getting sick, which i never used to.

so, starting now (even though i've eaten almost all of my daily calories in starbursts and peanut butter sandwiches..), i'm getting back on the healthy eating track.

only 14-17 lbs to lose :)

let's do ittt!

helllo 200 lbs -_-
Oct 11 2009 12:16

no, i'm not actually 200 lbs. but thanksgiving weekend = not good calorie-wise.

i left for the cottage friday morning weighing like 136 lbs, and i'm coming home tomorrow afternoon/evening, but i'm probably gonna weigh like 140 lbs -_-

oh well, how many times have i worked it off before? 293993 times? about that.. so i'm not worried, it'll come off in a few days.

oh well, i've done worse.. and my goal date isn't until september 2010, and i'm only trying to get to 120 lbs, so i've got tons of time. happy canadian thanksgiving everyone!

woo?
Sep 15 2009 16:12

i haven't binged in almost a month. i haven't been able to go binge-free for a month in almost 3 years.. so i guess that's a good sign. things life-wise haven't been the best lately (they never are), and i've had strong urges to stuff myself to the brim with food, but i've beaten the urge everytime.

a few days ago i weighed 137 lbs, and despite working out and eating right/not too much, i've still managed to get back up to 139-140 this morning. wtf?  i HATE gaining weight for no reason!

ugh, i just want to steadily and quickly lose weight. wouldn't that be nice?