eerica's Journal
i never realized until now..Nov 04 2009 06:57
..how much i HATE plateaus. i've weighed like 132 for sooo long now and i'm tired of it. my eating disorder is still in my head a little, and i feel horrible about myself for not losing weight everyday, and i feel like i can see my body becoming fatter every day. i'm down 1 pant size, and i'm in the healthy weight range, but i still see myself as a fat whale. my head keeps telling me to just not eat for a day or two to break the plateau, ugh.
i have TOTALLY been there. i was down to 123 a couple months ago when i got to college and hit 130 last week. EEEKKK! So now I'm stuck on 130 but I'm getting my ass back in shape because i dont want to end up spending the whole summer making up for the weight i gained freshman year of college. i want to have a fun summer that isnt full of weight problems... not only do i FEEL myself gaining, my pants literally dont fit... ive been wearing sweats pretty much everyday. i want to fit in my clothes again! ahh! how tall are you? i'm 5'3"-5'4" and i know im technically at a healthy weight but i dont feel healthy and this is the biggest ive been in a while. want to keep in touch and motivate each other? :) |
No!! Don't feel that way! You've already come so far! It's been only a few months and you've already almost lost 10 lbs! Keep it up, girl!! =] |
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