etoille3091's Journal
Oct 11 2007 14:37I'm not weighing myself as often as i used to so I'm not 100 percent sure that i have lost that much weight but you know what? i don't care! i feel so much better even just two weeks in to cc! who new that my body feels better when I'm not gorging on everything i want. and the best thing for me is that i don't feel that i am missing out on much anymore. i know its not been very long but i really feel that i have FINALLY found what works for me. my husband notices how much better i look and feel and even if Ive not lost many lbs i am pretty damn sure Ive lost inches my waist feels tiny for the first time in forever and people are starting to repeat that blessed phrase "have you lost weight?" i haven't heard that in so long. another thing that i am so excited about is how interesting food really is. as much as i used to eat i don't think i gave even 2 seconds thought to what i was putting in to my mouth. now I'm like looking things up before i eat them really only to see what is in them :o) i know i still have a ways to go for my goal but man it feels good to know for the first time really know that i am doing the right thing the right way and i am so happy <3
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my fisrt journal entryOct 02 2007 16:20
i dont know if any one will read this and i guess i really dont care. me writing it out and seeing the words on the screen will cement the idea in my head that today right now this moment i have changed. no more hot pockets no more seconds no more takeaway. im not doing this for any one else any more wich is why it will work. by may of 2008 i will be 41 lbs smaller. i am 5'9 and 190 lbs. i have crossed in to 200 but quickly freaked out and my eating disorder kicked in. this is what im afraid of. i fear the scale so much i know that i must take control back and i can no longer sit idely by and watch myself balloon (seemingly overnight) to a weight that i have never been. i have never been small at my best i weighed 155 and that was 3 years ago.
hoping is gone for me i realize now i cant ever hope to be skinny.... i have to make it happen.
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