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126.4.  Off to New Orleans through Saturday night.

Haven't weighed in yet.  DH is taking the computer today, all day and I'll have no outside contact. AGGGGGHHHHHH!  Frustrating.  Today is also not a running day, so I really hope I can eat well and don't binge.  Can't do Jillian without the computer either...  Dang it!

Good news is that Isaac slept 9 hours last night, straight, and I got 8 hours of that.  He woke up at 6:45 and I was so disorriented.

Goals

Don't binge

Drink enough

Arms and Abs

Walk3-4

So my two-week experiment has come to an end.  Basically I decided to guess at what I burned and then follow through logging calories for the next two weeks to see where things ended up.  I’m not on CC enough to log activity so I did a super basic estimate, 1700 for the day plus 400 for nursing.  If I did the Jillian DVD I gave myself 200 more calories.  Running earned me 100 calories per mile.  At the end of the day I’d add up my burn and my calories eaten.  I weighed in every morning.  Here are the results.  This is probably the first time I’ve ever had input/output actually make sense with my weightloss!

Weight – Calories eaten/burned (deficit)

130.6 – 1950/2900 (950)

131.4 – 2000/3100 (1100)

128.8 – 2165/2300 (135)

129.0 – 2000/2700 (700)

129.6 – 1875/2800 (925)

127.4 – 2250 plus binge/2100 (+1000+)

?        - 1550/2800 (1250)

128.2 – 1600/2100 (500)

127.4 – 2100/2800 (700)

127.6 – 2500/2100 (+400)

127.0 – 1850/2600 (750)

127.4 – 1985/2700 (715)

127.6 – 1535/2300 (765)

127.2 – 1900/3100 (1200)

126.6 – 1940/2600 (650)

I ended up with about a 9000 calorie deficit for the two weeks and have obviously seen some results!  I’m curious what it will look like if I continue this for another 2 weeks.  I've never been this consistent so I love the fact that I have something to analize!  Yay for seeing some results!

Still hanging onto 127.  127.2 this morning.  I have to admit, I weighed in again after my run and was 126.  But then I started trying to subtract the weight of 2 ounces of coffee, tbsp of peanut butter pre-run, gu at mile 7, and an unknown quantity of gatorade when I got home.  Was I really 125.8 with all that thrown in?  This is why I weigh myself first thing in the morning.  I play too many mind games.  Greta, I don't know how you do it!  It was a reminder though, that 126 comes next.  I think I hit 126.8 on two separate days last year.  That's the closest I've ever come as an adult.  It's neat to think that I can be there sometime soon.

So I got up at a decent time and decided to do my long run because who knows when it's going to happen these days.  Did 10 miles and it wasn't great because of still being sick (I tend to feel lethargic and like I'm plodding along when I'm still recovering from an illness).  At the end when I felt like I was crawling along I looked at my Garmin and was at a 8:45 pace, so what I was feeling obviously didn't match up with reality.  I'm glad I got the run in.  I'm so tired of screwing up my running schedule each week.

I feel discouraged this morning.  DH left for work after saying that the other evening when I didn't want to spend our evening together working on a work related project with him, he felt unsupported.  That left me feeling like I can't do anything right.  I take care of the baby, make dinner, clean the house, etc., but because I don't want to help him with his work during the only time I get to see him that's not enough.

I also had a meeting with the nursing admissions counselor at our local community college yesterday afternoon.  I haven't been that discouraged in a long time.  I had 11 units of pre-reqs in california.  Here I have 25 units.  Then the program itself is 2 years, full time.  All this taking place during the time we want to pop out another 3 kids.  I don't know what I'm doing.  I feel like I'm a waste of space.  Like my life has no purpose.  Blech.

Goals

Run 10 miles (1:28.30)

Walk 0.25 miles

Drink 10-12 cups of water

2000-2500 calories

Don't binge!

I just checked and I was 127.4 last Wednesday and 127.6 today.  My trend and my daily weight have finally merged, which feels good, like 127 isn't just a fluctuation.  Of course, I really wanted to see 126.8 this morning because, let's face it, we always want what we don't have.

Got to talk with DH tonight.  I have an appointment at the local community college to see what I'd need to do to go back to school for nursing (a lot, I'm afraid).  Unfortunately, my transcripts didn't arrive, so now I have to figure something else out.  That's annoying.

No run this morning because I started feeling sick again last night (sore throat and cough) and slept in.  I keep screwing up my running schedule which is annoying me to no end.

Goals

Jillian

Walk 3 miles

Eat 1800-2000 calories

8-10 cups water

Don't binge!

Not that I was looking for that, really.  I would have just settled for some jeans that fit!  I was kind of hoping though, that since my pants (3-4, 5, and 6 respectively) are all too big on me, I could pick up some jeans for $13.99.  After all, I'm 8 pounds down from where I was at the beginning of September and that should make a difference, right?  Wrong.  The 5's and 7's were both too long and too tight.  They looked horrible.  I know that they are junior sizes, but that's what was on sale and the 2's in the misses section were huge.  There's just something about not being able to find clothes that fit well that makes me feel ugly and fat.  I'm not fat, I know that, but geez!  Are jeans that fit well too much to ask for?

I'm a little grumpy today.  Haven't seen much of DH at all for the last week and a half because work has had him so busy.  I get more irritated with him when that happens.  Why is it that when I'm running a fever I have to keep going but when he "feels like he might be starting to get a fever" he gets a light day?  I feel like whenever I get sick (which isn't often) he immediately gets sick or feels sick or something.  Sorry... just very annoyed and tired of feeling like I'm taking care of a baby all by myself.

I also am jealous because I can't get anything done and there are so many things piling up (including things that I think he should take care of).  But work never slows down enough for him to do any of that stuff and supposedly I'm supposed to have all this time on my hands.  I want to accomplish things again and cross them off my list.  I'm tired of feeling constantly overwhelmed, rushing around, and still getting nothing done.

At least I got my run in today.  127.4 this morning when I woke up.  I can't really believe I'm 127.  Weird.

Goals

Run 6 miles (52)

Jillian (DH is coming home early so probably not)

1800-2000 calories

Don't binge because I feel frustrated.

8-10 cups water