fattestchick's Journal

Day 93
Nov 10 2009 09:16

This is hard... staying motivated.  I found myself staring at my homepage that says I've lost 25 pounds, YEAH!  and that I have 81.9 to go... ouch.

I'm aware that I'm going to be counting calories for the rest of my life... but I really look forward to the day that it's only to maintain my weight... not a battle with the number on the scale.

I know that the number doesn't matter, but I want to get to a healthy weight and feel good about the example I'm setting for my children.  Not just in terms of eating and staying active (which I am trying to do now), but also in terms of what a healthy body should look like... something that my body does not show them.

I don't hate my body by any means, but a BMI of 34.7 is not what my kids should consider the norm...

So, it's not that I don't have the motivators, but rather that the end goal (weight) seems so far away.  I guess I just concentrate on the good things that have already changed.