fieldhockey89's Journal

i'm struggling so much with my eating disorder and i can't seem to get it under control anymore.  i know that when i restrict i'll end up binging later on during the week but i'm terrified that i will binge everyday if i don't restrict, all i think about is food.  i just want this under control.  i've binged so many times the last 2 weeks and i always tell myself i'll get back on track but i can't seem to.  i just want to eat normal and get my metabolism faster and not be terrified of eating.  i'm hoping that this web site will help me gain control over my eating habits and maybe it will help me recover.  i hope that putting on the computer will make me think twice before binging.