firedoor78's Journal

It's tough being a girl
Dec 02 2009 13:59

I'm talking about that time of the month, which buggers my weight loss... almost 8 months into this I should be used to it. But no. If I look at my weight log, there is a pattern emerging... usually on the weeks that I PMS, I either drop only 1 lb or none at all.  Then I exercise furiously, thinking maybe my workout isn't intense enough and BOOM! I lose 3-4 lbs the following week after my period's over. 

Granted I'm at 136lbs and maybe my body likes it here? I'm in a normal weight range and I am comfortable with the size (6) I'm in... but then the vain person inside wants to drop 8-10 more lbs. I've stuck to my diet and exercise though, and trying to intensify my arm toning by adding more reps.  I feel like my stomach is still flabby and want to improve that... genetically my problem areas are arms, hips, thighs and tummy... lucky me. I mean I can literally see the outline of bone everywhere... on my collarbones and chest, my ribs, I can feel my hip bones more, my knuckles, even my feet bones. 20% body fat and it's all on my inner upper thighs, hips and arms... gggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I find that during the cold weather, my hunger craving intensifies. And we have been having rain, rain, rain the last few weeks. It's not nice summer rain either. It's cold, cold drizzle. And it's misty. And just really too damn cold!  I bought a few pairs of cycling shorts and cute tank tops the other week and I can't even wear them to work out in yet. It's supposed to be summer. :o(

We are having Christmas guests this year... a newly married couple is spending five days with us.  For the Christmas menu, I am making: beef tongue (it's taditional so sue me :p), sweet ham, roast leg of lamb, a green salad, cold chicken and macaroni salad and chicken turnovers and for dessert am making a carrot cake, appple crumble, chocolate crinkle cookies and triple fudge brownies. Yes, yes I know right? :D Buuuut I find I can eat nice things as long as I don't go over my cals. Which means I don't deprive myself of anything. Plus since it's Christmas, Ima eat til I can't move. :p That will be my cheat day LOL!

Hello 130s...
Nov 22 2009 08:19

Right, the reason why I initially aimed for 150lbs at the start of it all was because I never dreamed I'd get this close to my high school weight.... I'm at 136lbs now. Whoa. And it's gotten easier actually!  I still get food cravings but that's just it... and when I usually take a bite of something I am craving that fixes it.  Hopefully I have finally conquered this food addiction thing.

My workout is still on track. Seven months later... solid hour of cardio 6 days a week, free weights 3 times a week. And I look forward to them.  Even when I crank up the elliptical to the highest resistance, I am still enjoying the workout.... granted I want to die while I lift the 7lb dumbells usually around the third set.  But when I see how nicely my arm muscles are coming out I can't complain. :D

I am SO glad I did this.

Update
Nov 13 2009 23:21

OK so I hit my super secret goal weight two weeks ago, which was 143lbs... so I decided I am going to go down to 130lbs. At the moment I am at 140lbs and wearing a size 6 LOL. Now people are telling me I should stop losing weight.

I'm 5'6 I have a large frame, and I know my body. Plus it's not about losing weight anymore, it's about toning.  And maybe I am too scared to start maintaining. That's a whole other ball game. I hope I can find the balance between my exercise and food when I maintain.

I have not had sleep for so long, work is horrendous. Blah. My eye bags are now a set of luggage.

Languishing happily in the 140s
Oct 14 2009 15:59

When I started watching what I ate and exercising, I actually treated it as half a joke, figuring what the heck I had nothing to lose (but weight lol) so...

Last time I wrote here, I was in complete shock to have weighed in at 149.7 or something like that. Well it wasn't a fluke and the scale wasn't broken cause I ran next door and I was 500 grams lighter on that one. I think my neighbour thinks I'm a health nut at this point...

Anyway, I am now at 147.4 lbs and I think 7 more pounds and I shall start maintaining. My arms are really shaping up with the dumbells and my batwings are shrinking to nothing and I still can't stop staring at my collarbones in the mirror, despite those having made their appearance a few weeks ago. This is totally nuts. The weird part is I'm now addicted to endorphins and feel crappy if I haven't done any exercise. I actually have to argue with myself not to work out on Sundays, my one rest day.

The new challenge now is toning. My thighs are still my worst area, I just don't know what to do with the flab there. More cardio I guess til I'm happy!

So. Latest stats: weight: 67Ks or 147.4lbs; BMI = 23.4; body fat percentage: 20.5%; pants size: 8US/10UK top size: 8US/10UK. 

This HAD to be journalled....
Oct 02 2009 11:37

I weighed in at 149.6lbs today.

I have lost 62.3 pounds in total

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*blink*

*speechless*

Will have to get back to you guys on this one.

I hit my goal weight!
Sep 18 2009 23:23

Today isn't really officially weigh in day, that's in two days... but I weigh myself every day anyway I just don't log it until Sunday... WHOA. I did it. I lost 26Kgs... I'm now 70KGS... I can't believe it. I can't believe I did it. I can't wrap my head around it...

That initial goal weight was to just get within 23% body fat which I am now. And a BMI of 24. Which I am now. And in the 'ideal weight range' for my height and frame, which I am now. HOLY SHIT I WANT TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD!!!

So I have decided to lose 5 more Kgs because I want to. And I believe I can.

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sick, sick, sick
Sep 13 2009 11:28

I haven't been sick since January this year... and I am kicking myself for standing in freezing drizzle, talking to a couple of people outside the Health Talk thingy I attended ...

Speaking of that health talk, I wasn't impressed. Look I understand the need for organic/raw/fresh veggie and fruit eating, I do, I've incorporated a lot of it into my daily diet... but to deprive myself forever of processed/junk food?  That will never work. I'll be over 200 lbs again in no time if I deprived myself. Plus she totally lost me after she said caffeine was bad for you. Pffttt. You can take your organic crap and shove it, srsly... .

It's OK to have a hamburger or pizza or shawarma or takeaway sometimes.  Nothing wrong with it. Especially because I heart Tiago's no end.

So right I have been sick since Friday. Got worse cause I went to work on Friday, sneezing and spreading love and disease in the office. My allergic rhinitis went haywire. Chicki bought me some meds, a ickle pink teddy bear and fruit.  I had to call in for emergency fruit because last Friday, for no sensible reason at all, I started shoving all the food I could find down my throat.

The day started innocently enough, had a bowl of wholewheat bran and honey flakes with 2% milk (pat pat on the back). Then I had a 63 calorie non-fat nutriday yoghurt (pin medal on self)... then lunchtime comes and Dave aka evil demon tempting me with Tiago's takeaways says... 'Let's order lunch! On me!'  So I had a Tiago's (mild) chicken shawarma with the works.  Fine. That was fine. Grilled chicken... okokok so the sauce was prolly fattening but the pita pocket was tiny... all the while I am sneezing and feeling sorry for myself, churning out copy for next week's feature... fielding calls, etc etc... THEN I go home. THEN I see the leftover Woolies chicken schnitzel from the night before. I eat that. Then I see some macaroni and chicken and vegetable soup Chik made the other night. I have that.

My eyes are darting about madly looking for something else to eat while my inner, thin Krissi kept yelling NO NO NOOOOO STOOOP!!!! Luckily my mad eyes rest on the fruit bowl and I see a grapefruit. I cut it open and wildly hack at it with my teaspoon. And finish it in three minutes flat.

I am freaking out at this stage. So I phone in my partner and declare an emergency and she should intervene with fruit. She comes home with a bag of oranges, bananas and (OH JOY BLISS BLISS JOY) 2 punets of 800 gram strawberries from Woolies.  Whoopee!!!! 4-calorie strawberries! Mana!!!!

So I've spent the entire weekend scarfing down fruit. Which I am enjoying. OK I snuck in a peanut butter sandwhich on Albany low gi brown seeded OKOKOK, but it's only 91 cals per slice so I am still within my eating plan.  Oh yeah managed to sneak in a tuna on rye with 4 french fries but I somehow still lost half a kilo.... all this while missing two days of working out because I am sick.

Catholic guilt is kicking in over those two days of missing a workout. I should get on the elliptical for half an hour but it's Sunday. And my religion forbids working out on Sundays. It's the religion of Not Working Out On Sundays btw... you should join it. :D Cheat day Sundays! Wheeee!!!

I bought two size 10UK/8US pants yesterday. Three cute tops and 4 plain coloured Ts. I look pasty pale because I am sick atm but I am sure that when my complexion comes back to a healthy, ruddy, pink/slightly tanned and rockin' I'll be rockin' those new clothes.

I am 2 kilos from a healthy BMI. Bliss Bliss.

Just *BARELY* breaking the 160 barrier
Sep 06 2009 08:28

OK last Sunday, when I weighed in, I was at 159.9 (!!!) lbs....  thought it would be smooth sailing from there but apparently not!

Today I weighed in at the same weight... hopefully it's just water retention from my period.  I hope that's it!  Otherwise I'll be freaking out the whole week.  Here's the kicker though, I've dropped another top size O.o which is weird.  I still lost cm's from the tape measure, so that's really awesome.

I truly have come a long way since I started because now everyone I know or even just vaguely know has noticed and stopped to ask me what I've been doing (or taking HAR HAR HAR) to lose the weight. Some of them don't believe me when it's old school cutting portions and exercise. From 212 lbs to 160 lbs in 5 months. From a 40" waistline to 28"... hips went from 46" to 37"... come on ONE MORE INCH!!!! Not bad. Although I've always had a tiny waist... it's my hips I wanna improve!

I didn't set out to do this to prove anything to anyone. I did this because I was tired of being fat. Tired of being ugly. Tired of being tired all the time and most of all, tired of not being able to indulge in my favourite hobby (shopping) because NOTHING fit... nothing in the normal size section anyway.. and I was too embarassed/horrified/aghast/mortified to go into the larger size clothing boutiques.  Yes it's still about vanity, the health benefits are great but you know if I am going to be honest, I want to be hot.

So now that I'm really close... maybe I'll drop a few pounds more and try for 140lbs... why not right? :D

Broke the 170 barrier! :o)
Aug 06 2009 20:26

*sigh* My new jeans are already loose again. This is getting ridiculous.

I weigh in every day, although official weigh ins are Sundays... and I'm already at 169.4... which is just nuts. NUTS. I haven't even been trying with the diet anymore, I mean my stomach and brains are, for the first time, in agreement.

I am constantly surrounded by food at work, at home... and it doesn't bother me anymore. I automatically stay away from too much grease and baked products, although I have it once in a while, but never going overboard. Even on cheat days, I don't cheat at all because I don't feel like it.  It's been great! The last month has been pretty smooth sailing... and throughout all of this madness, my partner has been supportive and positive.

As for the workouts, I find myself pushing just for the hell of it, just to see how much I can take before I break. I usually workout a solid hour every day except Sundays, and I've been adding more resistance and putting more effort in it because it's FUN.

Joined a girls' rugby league although we haven't officially started yet. Should be a fun way to work out on Saturdays.

Less than 20lbs to go. I can see the end in sight... and it involves a LOT of clothes shopping. :p

And I'm turning heads again. Which is really flattering. There's a huge senior citizen population down here and I'm responsible for giving them cricks in the neck half the time. I see the vanity is back too. :p

YAY! I have cheekbones! LOL!

35lbs down, 22 to go
Jul 19 2009 09:19

This is truly exciting, I haven't been at this weight (176lbs) in years and I am starting to feel a whole lot better and healthier.... it's already the middle of winter here in South Africa and I haven't gotten sick once, since I started trying to lose weight.

Food's starting to become a struggle... although since I can eat 450 calories more than when I started, it's still under control.

This is awesome, I look better, weighing so much less AND I can eat more. LOL!