flightgirl's Journal

Up a little, but it's okay...

Nov 28 2009 08:42

Up a few lbs but well within control. It sucks, but we have another Thanksgiving to go to today, otherwise I would get another day head start. But, my plan to get through the holidays and still enjoy them is eating lean proteins and vegetables and no starches, and lots of vegetables and fruit. Of course, it will be all organic and no crap. I will eat whole grains on my trips and for breakfast as usual, but dinners will be stated above. And no heavy desserts, (tried to have a whole angel food cake around, and couldn't control myself, so it had to go in the garbage!) I love the holidays soooo much, but it's so tricky. My workouts are going to be brutal, it's the only thing I can count on to help balance it out. My plan is to do 2 workouts today.

Been doing great, except today, and yesterday!

Nov 22 2009 19:07

So, been doing great, finally had a 2lb loss on Thursday, and of course it happens to fall on a day my husband and I are going out. I did better than I've ever done in the past, but Friday I didn't tys were high, but I don't think they were beyond control, but my average daily intake for the month is higher than I would like. Plus, I thought I'd make a dessert , and I obviously can't handle portions, so I threw the rest away, so when i come back from my trip its not here. Today and yesterday I was going to redeem myself, and failed. I ate over 1500 yesterday when I wanted to eat 1400, and ate 1700 today when I wanted to eat 1300! Damn family get togethers! Anyway, my activity levels have been high, I figure I can make up for it, so my body doesn't keep on the lbs. But my discipline is a little weak. My period is coming too, I'm going to blame it on that. For now. I just dread that this week is T-day, and we are celebrating at both families on 2 different days! I wish it was one! I just have to be strong!

SLOOOWWWW Progress!

Nov 15 2009 06:34

So, I've finally been changing the way I eat. Totally! I have kind of eliminated my "cheat day" and replaced it with a high calorie maintenance day. I log the calories, and it keeps me responsible for it. It's not easy, but it puts everything into perspective. I don't have the desire to eat all day and load myself up on bloating beers. Instead, I drink much lighter when I do, I drink MORE water in between, and I don't gorge out on food from it either. I eat lighter, and slower, and don't feel the need to eat like it's my last day on earth. It has taken years to get to this point. I feel like I'm becoming a "natural eater" I've always wanted to be like this! The scale literally hasn't moved, but I am noticing it in my jeans! So, the progress that moves so slow, the hardest stuff, your body doesn't want to do, give up fat for its survival, is finally going away. It realizes I'm not starving it! Also, I am eating whole clean foods. I've cut out processed foods by 90-100% most days, and eating mostly organic by 75-90%. This has got to count for something! My mind and thinking has taken years to get to this point. I've always known what I needed to do. It's finally here.

My body is protesting against me...

Oct 24 2009 10:24

No response. Everything I do. Granted, when I was on vacation for a month, I wasn't expecting anything, in fact, I was expecting to gain. But I didn't eat NEARLY as bad as I could have. I was very aware. I still worked out and everything. The last 16 days I've zigzagged 1426 cals a day. I'm eating SUPER clean. No processed, no preservatives, organic, you name it. Every week, I pick up foods from the grocery store that can give me max benefits, not for weight loss, but for function. What my body needs. Power foods! I know it hasn't been long, I'm also doing 2 -a days about 2-3 days a week. I know I have to be patient. I told myself no full blown cheat days til I see some serious change. I allow myself 1-2 maintenance days. That's about 1800-2000 cals on those days. My average cheat day would be upwards of 4500 calories. And even with those days, the scale was fine. I'm also taking supplements, was hoping for some help, but of course, nothing. I think I take them to keep me in check. Plus, my period starts in a few days. We'll see what the scale says next week, but I'm running out of options!

Been awhile since I logged

Aug 24 2009 09:36

So, I seem to be stuck at 120, and back in the day, I was stuck at 115, and I wanted to weigh 113, then I stayed at 118 forever, and just wanted to be back at 118! Now, I've been at 120, and I just want to be 118. The weird thing is, is, everything still fits great, well for the most part. There are some things I truly had to get rid of, but I love the way my muscles look. I do have some fat to lose. I think it's skinny fat, but it looks like it's shrinking in certain areas. But the weight isn't changing. Also, almost 2 weeks now, I was at my mom's house all week, ate, pretty much whatever, (it's hard to be strict around her) and when I came home, I weighed 120. Week later, back at my eating clean and all, weighed this morning, 120. We will see what next week brings.

My Body Sabotoged ME!

Jul 12 2009 13:58

The week of the cruise. Of all weeks. 3 weeks prior, like I always do, I amp up my workouts, I eat SUPER clean, no salt, all fresh foods, and foods higher in potassium, tons of water, no gum, so diet sodas, nothing. But, it was also the week of my period, and while sometimes I don't have issues with water retention, or atleast not bad enough for me to hardly notice, this was the week it had to be the worst I've ever had! I couldn't effing believe it! I was bulging out of my swimsuits, I had cellulite that I haven't seen in years! My calves we're so tight, they felt like they were going to explode! My thighs couldn't not stay apart, my abs? NONEXISTENT! It looked like I was one of those people who don't workout, and their metabolism has slowed down. I looked like a person who just let themselves go. And that's not fair! Because I don't! I even had a crying episode over it. I NEVER do that! What was the point of working out so hard, if all I wanted to do was be covered up? I was just in Cancun like 2 months ago, and felt fabulous! And I was eating salty foods, drinking everyday, and my body was good to me the WHOLE TIME! THE WHOLE TIME!!!!! I don't get it. I just don't get it.

Of course, now that I'm home, my water retention levels are non existent, back to normal. I'm a few lbs heavier, but I was expecting that, since I was on a floating buffet. That's what the extra training is for, and I will be back to normal levels within another week, but still. It was awful. The one week I want my body to look good, what I WORK SO HARD FOR, backfired. I hope nobody ever experiences that because I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. Sometimes, I HATE being a woman. My man NEVER has these problems. NEVER!

Going on a cruise on Saturday!

Jul 02 2009 20:42

Here I am again.

Did almost 3 weeks of eating right and exercising. Not that I always don't, but no drinking and no cheat day. I zigzagged an average of 1450 a day. Weighed myself today - and....NOTHING. Yes, it's a few days before my period, and I feel like my body is holding onto some water, due to the increased workouts, but still. And I know it's just a number, but it's like, I just want to see some progress before me. You know? Now, I DO, like what I see. I'm seeing some extraordinary lines, and the way my body is changing before me. I've been noticing this just recently. I know I'm doing something right. I do believe, I should be eating more. I'm pretty sure of it. But I will be consuming lots of calories on the cruise. I don't diet on a vacation, I don't do traditional workouts. I dance and swim around and laugh. That's it. I don't binge either. I eat fairly well on the cruise, but if that baked Alaska comes around and I am HUNGRY for it. I will have it. I don't believe most of my calories come from the food. It's the alcohol. I enjoy it. I don't binge either, but you can always find me with a beer in my hand or a vodka something, casually enjoying myself. I probably won't gain but a few water pounds as my body will be in recovery. Too bad I won't see a scale cuz I really want to see my results in the end of this!

I'm Excited!

Jun 17 2009 11:00

Today, is day one of bootcamp, and eating clean. It's a great time of year too. Fresh veggies and fruits, in fact I'm going to go and cut up a watermelon right now. I enjoyed my cheat days, but I'm also disgusted too. I'm looking forward to this. Of course in 18 days, I will be ready for some fun again, but I'm gonna look good doing it!

Bootcamp coming soon...

Jun 15 2009 10:49

Well, once again me fiance and I are on the brink of another vacation. That means, today we're going to be good, but it's not going to be great either. Tomorrow is our last cheat day until our cruise, which will be 18 days. Tomorrow will literally be like Fat Tuesday. I'm going to enjoy it, because for 18 straight days it's nothing but workouts and lean proteins and veggies and complex carbs. And the last week for me is, high potassium foods, as well as diuretic friendly foods, and no salt, but I've been pretty good with that anyway. Usually, we don't see a lot of results until the middle of a vacation, when our bodies are in recovery, which is the best. Of course, after the cruise, I'll be a little bloated a few lbs heavier like where I started, so I skip a cheat day for a week after, but that's okay. I DON'T do vacations with counting calories, and standard exercise. That's not me. I try and make some conscious decisions, and I don't necessarily go overboard, but I'm not going to just drink vodka and soda, or a light beer. I drink what I want to drink, I will eat only when I'm hungry, and if I want cake and ice cream I will. And my choice of exercise is not sitting in the fitness center. I'll do the Cha Cha Slide, The Electric Slide, Cupid Shuffle, and maybe a little floating in the pool. I can't wait. And I love looking good doing it!

The parents are here!

May 23 2009 11:16

Last 4 days, I've been taking another vacation myself. Parents have been in town and we have really been enjoying ourselves. Had a few cheat days. (About 4 to be exact!) But, it's okay. Because it will be close to 2 weeks again before I have one official cheat day. I have been continuing my workouts, so that's good. Today, will be the first day back since Monday that, even though they're are still in town, and I'm not real strict, I will be counting today, and I am going to try and stay at 1800 or lower. That's the goal!