gorgeousgrandma's Journal

back in the saddle
Nov 30 2009 08:10

Dear Journal,

Boy, when I get off track it takes me a long time to get back into it if at all!  Gained 10 lbs of the 20 I lost and feeling the effects.  I really don't want to be backsliding, but it happens and I am here to fight on.

I must focus on myself, making myself a priority.  When I get off track it's usually because I let something or someone change my schedule and I have not been flexible enough to keep myself as #1 on my to-do list.  I have to remember that if I am to be 100% there for others, I have to be 100% there for myself!

I will weigh in on Friday, again.  I will count my calories and be more organized.  I am going to have my cheesecake at the Christmas Party, just keeping it to 1 small piece and added into my calorie count.

Thank you for being here.

Gorgeous Grandma (not Gorged Grandma)

Couple of bad days
Aug 18 2009 09:53

It's been a few days of emotional turmoil and I really looked for comfort in food. I forced myself to weigh in and have gained 3 pounds, but am ready to move forward.

crisis intervention
Aug 11 2009 08:07

Well, the weekend is over and I am still carrying fear about my husband's health.  He told me last night that today I need to go back to focusing on myself and continuing on my wt loss as well as other personal journies because he is fine and aware of his limitations.  Wise man.

I took my 2 mile walk this morning, read an interesting article on women and wt loss and am slowly releasing my fear of losing my husband.

realization and perspective
Aug 10 2009 08:23

Friday night my husband went into an analphelactic shock after getting stung by a wasp.  It is so surreal because we were very close to losing him.  The paramedics were so fast and were hoping he would make it to the hospital because he skipped all the preliminary swelling and went into his body literally shutting down.  Thank you God for these wonderful men who reacted quickly and saved his life.  He says he saw a beautiful light that was gold and white with a moon crescent blue underneath.  Even though his eyes were closed and he seemed unconscious, he "saw" me in his mind rubbing his feet (which I was since his feet were ice cold).  He spoke of the light while in this state and while he was in the ambulance.  He came home late Saturday morning and back to normal by Sunday, amazing.

We feel blessed and humbled by this experience.

I was extrememly tired Saturday and Sunday and gave into my emotional "hunger".  I gained 3 lbs and realize how sometimes you need to have comfort.  I am back on my calorie counting, not feeling guilty but know that I need to find another way to comfort stress and lack of sleep when circumstances don't allow leaving a situation.  I will pursue.

Hit 2 mini goals
Aug 06 2009 13:53

I have hit my first 2 mini goals.....Broke the 200 and am breaking the 190 mark by the weekend!  I know I can't get complacent, so I am going to bring out my next size smaller clothes and get them ready for my next mini goals to break.   I am succeeding because I am consistant and not depriving myself of the foods I love, just how much I eat!

Back to losing
Jul 04 2009 08:46

I plateaued for a few weeks and lost some motivation, but I am back to counting and have lost weight, down a total of 11 lbs in 8 wks.  My sister-in-law is visiting and has been an inspiration.  She has lost 60 lbs in 8 months by eating healthy and working out.  She looks wonderful and it was soooo much fun watching her shop and really enjoy it.  Thank, Heidi!  I have become a lot more aware of foods that are more effective in decreasing belly fat, one of my problems.  They are: grapefruit, avacado, eggs, green tea, quinoa and kefir.  It was on my msn opening page.  Since I am more aware of gaining knowledge in the foods I am eating, I think these articles are just "popping" out and getting my attention.  Thank you, My Angels!

1 Week and counting
Jun 02 2009 07:51

It's been almost 1 week and I am feeling pretty good about this site.  Lots of great advice from questions I have asked.  I never thought I would need anyone else to achieve my goal, but it's nice to know there are so many others out there that are willing to support and share with everyone.

This is the beginning of a "beautiful friendship"!

eating out of emotion
May 28 2009 13:57

So far, keeping my food log is very helpful and reading all the success stories is great.  I have had one experience today that really was so upsetting, I just wanted to go to McDonald's and get some french fries, but I didn't.  Probably because I am in my second day of this online program and am still motivated by the newness of it.  My frustrating experience will happen again as it involves a family member and I can't get away from it.  It involves my mom who is too set in her ways to change.  Any hints on what to do as a diversion instead of food?

My first day
May 27 2009 12:55

I have finally taken the initiative to address my weight and health.  My health is on the verge of some serious problems and I want to get my weight under control to avoid what I can as I get older.

I want to enjoy and participate in my grandchildrens' lives