gymcoach79's Journal

1 more important pound.....
May 04 2009 12:41

I lost one more pound this week.  Normally, I would probably be frustrated with only 1lbs in the week, but this week I am over the moon.  That 1lb represents the 30th pound I've lost......30 pounds!!!

I started this journey in the beginning of Jan at 212lbs, out of shape and unhappy with myself.  Today I stand proud at 182lbs.  Did I have off days? Of course! I hardly found the treadmill in the month of March.  Did I eat the best? Absolutely not! My addiction to Buffalo Wild Wings (and a few other restaraunts) was hard to break and I did eat there.....however I have learned to modify my orders.  Instead of an order of 18 wings, I have a side salad and order 6 wings....that I still take home 2 and use on a salad the next day.  Instead of always asking for fries for my sides, I ask for steamed vegetables.  No more eating the endless bread they bring to your table.  I always order water to drink (cheaper bills too!!) I ask for a "to go" box before I start eating if I know that I'm hungry and box up the excess portion so I'm not tempted by whats sitting on the plate in front of me.

Could I have lost more weight by this point? Of course. Do I care? Absolutely not.  I have done this slowly and I have done this RIGHT....which is most important.  I've learned to get on the treadmill a couple times a week. I've learned to eat out, which in reality is something I'm going to do in life, I've learned to estimate calories and track for the day, I've learned what a true portion is and, most importantly, I've learned to say NO to food...especially when I'm bored. I have truly made this a change, not a diet, and that's why I know its going to work and going to last.

I'm not done losing. I still would like to be at 175lbs by the end of next month, which may be pushing it, and 160lbs by my birthday in a couple of months, but we will see from there.  I need to find what is attainable and comfortable for me. 

A real eye opener happened for me yesterday. A family member made a comment to get out of their way and I mentioned I had 30lbs less in their way.  The response back was that I still was "no twig".  I'm not sure how that made me feel.  At first I was mad. I felt unsupported and like they didn't care, which they may not.  Then I let it go.  I'm 60lbs lighter then his wife, who is constantly "dieting", so maybe it was a little bit of jealousy on their part too. I don't know.  But I do know it took me about 3 minutes to get over it, not take it to heart and, most importantly, not let it deter me, which is something that would have easily happened before.  Eyes on the prize, you know? I can do this!!

Treadmill is going well. I managed to get another 4 mile night in and dropped a little more time (another minute or 2) and am anxious about running tonight...LOL Can you believe it? I'm excited! It's gonna suck, I'm gonna sweat like a pig, I'm gonna go slow and I'm gonna feel so great when I'm done.  :)  Definitely a twisted feeling that I would have never believed I would feel just a couple months ago.

I'm happy.  I'm happy I stuck this out, I'm happy that I'm not a quitter, I'm happy that I'm having success and I'm happy I feel good.  Watch out size 14 jeans, I'm coming for you next!