gypy04's Journal

For some reason i "pigged out" yesterday.  And by "pigged out" I mean, I ate healthy half the day... then I went to my mom's house for dinner and I ate some spaghetti, meatballs, roast beef, and mashed potatoes... then I had a few cookies... It's not that I deprive myself of this stuff... cause i do eat cookies and muffins sometimes... Not the whole thing or whatever... usually just a quarter of a big cookie, then give it to my daughter or half a muffin, share it with my daughter and dog, or i'll just half a sugar free fat free muffin with only 35 calories.. My point is...  I don't like eating like that... It's like an unstructured meal... I like to know exactly what I am going to eat, and what it consists of.  I don't like having things where i have no idea how many calories are in it or whatever... It's not that I'm going nuts about calorie counting cause I'm really not, but it's just such a backtracking, unproductive feeling.  I'm still gaining and loosing the same amount of weight...  I really need to just start loosing weight again... I still think it may have alot to do with the stress factors in my life right now, and sleep deprivation.  I took a stress test on monday, and it revealed that I am seriously vulnerable right now.  I feel like once my midterms and final exams are finished i won't be so stressed, but then it'll start all over again next semester... Errrggghhh I don't know what to do. 

Maybe I need to go talk to a nutritionist...  Get a plan of action specifically geared towards me.  And, if I go to the doctor, I will feel better.  Don't know.. Gotta do something.