hamburger28's Journal

update
Jun 13 2009 09:02

So I reached my goal weight a couple months ago and it has been soooooooo nice to be able to go shopping and pick out clothes again! I don't have to worry about picking up a shirt and trying it on, only to need a larger size. In fact, I end up taking two sizes in the fitting room and end up needing the smaller one. I am able to wear size 4 jeans comfortably and I tried on a pair of Silvers the other day that were a 27. YAY! Big accomplishment for me.

Anyway, finals came and went and I have been pretty busy this Summer working about 40 hours a week and taking classes, so I haven't really had any interest in watching what I ate or exercising. Luckily a friend of mine is pretty good about asking me to go run with him and that has gotten a couple other people interested too. It a lot easier for me to walk or run a couple of miles when it's a social thing rather than an exercise thing.

I broke up with my boyfriend of 3.5 years because I felt like we were moving in different directions, and to be honest we really had no similar interests anymore. I think the only real thing we had in common was our relationship, which was good for the most part, but I don't think that's enough to make something work. Anyway, it was a little harder for him than for me, and he is still kinda clingy, but I think this will be motivation for him to get his butt in gear and do something with himself.

Basically, I have met this new guy already (oops) and he is pretty nice but he knows about my ex and we are taking everything super slow and just hanging out with a group of friends and trying to get to know each other before we really get into anything. I'm not ready for anything serious right now and he knows that, so that is good. I'm excited though :)

Anyway, the point of the update is that somehow, after breaking up with Devin, I lost like three pounds and that has motivated me to start again. I think it's mostly because I've been more active with my friends again, and I think part of it is that I moved into my own apartment off campus and far enough away from campus that food is a little harder to come by. :)

So here's to another 8 pounds and a new goal of 125. :)

exercise
Apr 06 2009 11:31

I know I need to start exercising/working out, but I just can't seem to find the motivation. I am super busy but I know that I could probably find thirty minutes to an hour most days a week to spend working out. Unfortunately it's one of those things that I can't seem to make myself do. :\ I would probably lose weight faster, but it's just so much easier to be lazy... I have lost almost 30 pounds just counting calories and am really excited about the way I look, but I know that I should exercise from a health standpoint, if not for a weight loss/vanity one. I keep telling myself that since I won't be as busy with school this Summer that I will find time between my jobs to work out.

I DID IT!
Mar 19 2009 08:08

I did it! I started out last Summer at 162(+) pounds and today I reached my goal of 135! I am really excited. I have never had to lose that much weight before and I am really proud of myself for having the willpower to do it. Now that I see my body at this weight again I can finally be happy with the way I look. Several years ago I saw myself at 135 and thought I was huge. Now I think I look great. However, I have decided to lose a couple more pounds and start working out. I think I will probably see my weight loss slow down but that's okay. Here's to 135, and looking at 125!

calories
Mar 02 2009 15:18

I know this is dumb. I have been on CC for 8 months now and have obviously been successful because I've lost 25 pounds, which is great. But I was always really frustrated because it seemed to go slowly. I figured I would eat around 1200 calories a day (up to 1400-1500) and lose around 2 pounds a week. I didn't realize until a day or two ago that I am only supposed to lose 1% of my total weight per week, which means that I am supposed to lose around a pound a week. Kind of funny because that's almost exactly what has happened. If I start eating 1500 calories per day not only will I have more freedom to eat what I want, but I will also lose about the same amount of weight. I am now 2.5 pounds from my first goal of 135. I'm looking at 125 next. :)

shopping
Feb 23 2009 07:29

This weekend my best friend and I went shopping for the first time in a long time. She still lives in Springfield and since I am living outside of St. Louis we don't get to see each other as often as we'd like to. Anyway, I spent way too much money but it was a great feeling to buy some of the things I bought because I never really thought they would fit. I kept taking two sizes into the dressing rooms...and coming out with the smaller size, which I had only taken in because she told me the ones I had picked out would be too big. I am currently wearing S/M shirts and size 6 jeans and 7s where they don't sell even numbers. I have always been afraid of trying on odd-numbered jeans because I'm usually not built like the people the jeans are designed for, so it was awesome to walk into my favorite store, actually try on the jeans, and walk out with a pair of 7s. What an awesome feeling. I am also now 2.5 pounds away from my goal weight, which means I've lost 25 pounds. I am so excited! And I am trying to decide whether I should lose more or not.

pants!
Feb 09 2009 08:57

So, pants have been my enemy since before I hit puberty. I was always really picky with how things fit but then I sprouted hips overnight and finding pants became even more terrible. Being pear shaped, it's really hard to find pants that will fit my hips and butt but won't be too big around my stomach. Luckily low-rise pants came along at the right time or I don't know what I would do. Anyway, I have started loving my pants again because it is becoming easier to find ones that fit. I went to visit my parents the other day and went through the clothes I didn't bring here with me and found four or five pairs of pants that I had put away in hopes of someday losing weight. You know, the kinds that you always plan to fit in but never actually do? Somehow I have done it. I can pretty much wear a size 6 without question and I think I have a (super vanity-sized?) pair of 4s(?) that I am wearing later tonight. And today I went to my new job (my ABA job isn't cutting it money-wise) and had to try on pants for a uniform and was petrified because I knew I would end up needing like an 8 or a 10. But the 6s were perfect and I was really excited! So yay for pants, for the first time in my life.

20 pounds and a great day
Jan 28 2009 22:32

Today my boyfriend and I celebrated our third year together! I can't believe it has been that long...and I couldn't be happier with him!

My school has had snow days the past two days, so that was pretty exciting too. Not only did I get to miss some classes without skipping, but Devin and I got to spend all day together today. :) We ended up going to Olive Garden and to a movie. Yes...I did eat popcorn at the movie, but I was good at Olive Garden because I looked up the nutrition information before we left. So overall I did pretty well with eating today.

I also stepped on the scale this morning with some great results. The last couple of days I had been up kinda high (145-146) for no real reason. I have been eating pretty well and have started exercising too. I think part of the problem was that I was retaining some water from exercising but I don't know for sure. Anyway, I weighed 142.5 this morning, which was really exciting because it is the lowest number I have seen in over a year, maybe even two. So it was a pretty big deal for me! It is also where I mark twenty pounds of loss (mostly since I don't know how much I weighed before I started losing, so I just picked 162.5 because that's when I got brave enough to weigh myself). I would like to get down to around 130 before school gets out and then I think I will see how I feel, but at this point my goal is still 135 simply because that's the most attainable thing right now and it keeps my boyfriend from worrying too much. He doesn't think I can lose ten more pounds, although I was around 128 my freshman year of college. I keep trying to tell him that at 5'5", I am barely in the healthy limit at 142, but he thinks I look fine and need to stop losing weight. It definitely makes me feel awesome that he thinks I look good, but I feel like this is something I need to do for myself.

I will see how it goes. It has taken me like 8 months to lose this first 20 pounds, mostly because I haven't really been pushing myself, but that's okay and I am willing to keep going slowly because it helps me from freaking out and gaining a ton from ice cream. :)

So that's it for now. I am feeling pretty good and hope that I can keep it up!

23.8! I'll take it!
Jan 06 2009 10:28

Okay so I went to bed last night feeling verrry bloated (I ate a LOT of salty foods yesterday) and wasn't looking forward to getting on the scale this morning. I drank about half a glass of water before I went to bed, and woke up and felt AMAZING. So I stepped on the scale...

AND I'D LOST A POUND!

I weigh myself every day because 1.) I'm slightly obsessed, haha, but mostly because 2.) I like to see variations based on what/when I eat.

Anyway, YAYYYYYY. I am so excited! Yesterday I weighed myself and was sooo excited to see it at 144.8 because it was the lowest I had seen in over a year and today I weighed in at 143.5! So it definitely wasn't a huge loss or anything, but since I am 5'5", that meant that instead of having a BMI of 24 (unhealthy when you type it into CC), my BMI is 23.9 (healthy!). Technically, since I am 20 I'm not old enough to use the BMI calculator here, but honestly, what does a couple months mean? I will be 21 in August and although that's not exactly around the corner, I don't see the harm in using the "adult" calculators (although I was fine using the children's when I was about 10 pounds heavier, hahaha).

So that's my exciting news for the day. I have lost 19 pounds since the beginning of the summer. Not exactly quick loss, but I also had maintained and gained about four pounds for four months. Overall I am really excited with my progress.

Around 8 pounds until my goal weight!

Plus I have old jeans that fit again. :) 

update...go colts!
Jan 03 2009 19:49

So I haven't updated the journal in a couple of months. I don't really have anything exciting to say. I have lost several pounds and am now at 145, which is the lowest I've been in a couple of years. Yay me! I got to school last Fall and gained and lost and ended up around 154 after Thanksgiving, and then I somehow lost 9 pounds. I wasn't really trying to but I did occasionally try to keep it around 1400 calories, and then once I realized I had lost 4 or 5 pounds I started keeping it around 1200 calories. But then there are days where I could have 1600, 1900, even 2200. I kinda gave up on obsessing about it. I try to make every day as good as possible but I am losing weight without being crazy like I have been in the past. I don't know what happened but I lost the first 4 eating ice cream every day. It was kinda weird but after it happened it motivated me to do better. I guess part of it too is that I am active at my job, but I've been doing that since September, so I really don't know. I gained about a pound over Christmas but have lost it again so that's relieving too. I have ten pounds until I reach my first goal weight of 135. It wouldn't surprise me if I try to lose more once I reach that point but I don't want to shoot too far ahead because that's when I give up. So for now I want to lose 10 pounds. But yay! I've lost almost 18 pounds!

healthy weight...???
Aug 12 2008 14:07

So apparently I have been mistakenly using CC's BMI calculators and analysis for the past several months. Since I am pretty much 20, I am still considered a child and need to be using a children's BMI calculator. When I used one from About.com, it said that at my weight I am still considered to be at a healthy weight, whereas if I was a year older I would be "slightly overweight" according to CC. Weird.