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Weight loss seems to be going slow and steady...I average about a pound a week.  I've been finding it incredibly easy to stay within my caloric limit.  Now if only I could start exercising again.  I wish that money didn't have to be such a big issue in my life :(  Eh...I guess that's not a huge deal...I'm 2 months behind on my gym membership payment and I don't think I'll be able to catch it up in order to go.  I've been thinking about getting a jump rope and a few free weights.  Hmmmm....I don't know yet.

 

I have a 23 pound loss so far.  My next goal is 320.  Only 7 more pounds until I reach that goal.  And then my next goal will be 300 pounds.  Once I get under 300 I'm sure that my motivation to exercise is going to sky rocket.  I need to buy more vitamins :/...I think I have four days of those left...

 

I can do this.

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I met my first goal and then some.  22 pounds gone.  Everything is going pretty good.  No problems....no big problems anyway.  One night I had a binge but still stayed within my calorie requirements.  I ate an entire thing of Edys frozen yogurt blends.  It was pretty bad.  Either way I'm still losing weight.  I just need to find an exercise plan to stick with :/

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I'm on day 21 of my lifestyle change.  Counting calories has made me want to improve in other aspects of my life.  Like being organized and reading and learning more...I FLOSS NOW!!

 

I will admit I have slipped up a few times in the past 21 days.  1 day I had a slice of pizza and a cinnamon treat and then left over steak and fried foods from a restaurant.

Another time I ate 4 taco's from taco bell...I did get them fresca stlye so there was no cheese or sourcream but they still clocked in at 190 calories a piece.  

Another time my sister brought a pizza home and I had a piece and the other day I had some left over chinese.

 

Wow...it's good to admit when I messed up.  I still logged all my calories from those times that I messed up.  I would always put them in and cringe as I would scroll down to (see the damage)...Luckily only one of these ended in a day at 3000 calories....  This is my calorie count for the 21 days so far.

 2009-09-01 999 1,494 6 218 36 A

2009-09-02 1,682 1,599 40 241 104 A

2009-09-03 1,001 968 20 142 67 A

2009-09-04 1,339 1,133 33 161 98 A-

2009-09-05 1,098 1,124 25 150 80 A

2009-09-06 2,398 1,992 62 395 74 B-

2009-09-07 885 964 11 155 56 A

2009-09-08 1,352 1,423 12 249 71 A

2009-09-09 1,220 1,522 27 132 115 A

2009-09-10 1,218 954 41 160 59 A

2009-09-11 3,082 3,145 76 452 164 B-

2009-09-12 1,231 1,544 31 180 70 A

2009-09-13 1,709 1,428 51 227 98 A

2009-09-14 1,180 827 27 190 60 A

2009-09-15 1,281 1,218 27 191 80 B+

2009-09-16 1,266 1,073 25 187 70 A

2009-09-17 1,125 1,024 20 198 43 A-

2009-09-18 2,389 1,075 105 243 129 B

2009-09-19 2,338 2,831 55 331 151 A-

2009-09-20 1,634 1,007 33 292 54 B

2009-09-21 210 236 1 54 3 A

 

I went over my target 7 times.  But I was still eating less calories then I need to maintain for 6 of those days...so there was still a small deficit so I'm not going to beat myself up about it.  

 

I still keep my portions under control.  My biggest problem seems to be late night eating.  Everytime I indulged in the fatty foods was late at night.  I need to read or do something to take my mind off food before I fall asleep.  

 

I know I can beat this.

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I made it through the weekend! I was suppose to go to the gym for my first work out but they were closed...so tomorrow.

 

Yesterday was a high calorie day...I was out all day at the Aquarium and then hung out until the fireworks with friends....I started out good with a sandwich and some baked lays at around 11:30 am (in a rush, had to skip breakfast)...but then had a 32 oz minute maid Lemonade....way more calories then the sandwich and chips combined!  I have to stick to water!...I did notice that my tastebuds are adjusting though...the lemonade seemed super sweet.   .  While walking around the mall everyone wanted to go to cold stone creamery...it looked so good!!!....I went in and got the smallest and lightest thing I could find....sinless raspberry sorbet about a cup and 1/2 and only 200 calories (It was so good i thought it would be way higher) Later on I had a 100 calorie kudos bar and a strawberry bran muffin...(my healthy friend thought ahead and gave me her extra snack)about 3 hundred calories...not bad......I walked around all day and didn't get to eat again until around midnight at the afterparty....all they had was pizza...so I had one slice of papa johns pizza and 1 of the cinnamon treats...about 400 calories...eek!  I didn't drink any alcohol and ended up driving home around 2:30am...still really hungry...I wanted to go to white castle so bad....I didn't.  I got home and my parents had a box of leftovers from a steak house...i couldn't resist...i ate a 3 oz piece of steak and 5 breaded mushrooms and 2 large onion rings with bbq sauce...another 400 calories....i ended the day with about 2200 hundred calories...it's not as bad as I thought it was going to be...I need to make sure that I'm prepared if I'm going to be out all day where healthy food is not accesible.  

 

I'm feeling good about making it throught the first week.  I haven't gone crazy and binged on a bunch of bad things...sure yesterday i ate some not so healthy things but I did okay.  Today I was right back in line with Shredded wheat for breakfast and lean chicken and veggies for dinner...well within my calorie goal...I posted my future "before" pictures today...hopefully looking at them will help my motivation!

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Day 5 is here.

 

I was totally tempted last night to eat.  I went to Buffalo Wild Wings with my friend so we could watch the Reds game (his choice).  We were sitting at the bar and I know he wanted to eat but he's a real good friend and just drank a beer while I had water.  It was a good test to be around all kinds of good smelling unhealthy food and not order anything.  My mom bought salami and cream cheese to make salami rolls yesterday and that was in the fridge when I got home....it's an old time favourite...so i just took a few pieces of lean deli ham and some fat free cream cheese....just as good and it didn't mess up my calorie intake at all.

 

Monday I go back to the gym...i have to pay my dues late due to last weeks bills...so I can't go back until I pay them...blah...I got the gym membership in January when I had all that new years resolution hype...I've probably been less than 20 times....but starting Monday i'm gonna try to go everyday...last time i went I was doing squats and hurt my knee and it got me really discouraged....but I'm just going to start out doing exercises that won't put me in danger of hurting myself until i get a bit lighter.   I know I can do this and i know I'm not going to be REALLY happy until I do.  I'm 350 right now....the last time I started a serious diet my highest weight was 320...now I can't weight to get back to that....I really want to be under 300 lbs I've been there for the last 6 or 7 years now...When I got under 300 lbs with the first diet I vowed to never go over again...but here I am...with 30 extra lbs to claim...But I can do this...i don't want to ever make it to 400 lbs...which is extremely dangerous territory...I can do this...i know I can...

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This is my 3rd attempt at counting calories!  The last time though i was trying to go vegan...so I sort of sabotaged myself....

 

So far everything is good.  The first day I had 999 calories...the second day 1700 calories and today I've had 850 so far...I'm not trying to stagger my calories but it just sort of happened that way.

 

I needn't get down on myself if I mess up...I'd like to eat about 1400 calories a day.  I hope on Tuesday I can get my gym membership paid for and up to date...Ofcourse there I go finding an excuse not to exercise.  Hopefully I make it through the weekend without messing up...but even if I do...i won't do too much damage...all it takes is one more day to get back on the wagon.  I can do it this time...I have to.

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So I have thought nothing of weight loss for the last year and a half or so...and i've gained about a bazillion pounds...50 or so to be exact...I was in a horribe relationship and I've decided that from now on...I'm concentrating soley on myself...for atleast a year I'm not dating ANYONE!

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thank goodness....

 

for the past week i've been eating well over my calories and today i finally did good agian...i feel better...i am going to lose weight...

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sooo...the last few days ive been doing well...i started a 20 minute ab video today...its actually a set of 4 dvds called ENVY...abs, buns, legs and arms...i figured if i walk monday through friday an hour a day and do one of the envy things a day mon-thurs day that might be a good start out thing...i just have hardly exercised at all...i need to quit weighing myself everyday...so...starting now...i'm only gonna weigh myself on wednesday mornings....no more of this everyday crap....and its not just everyday its several times a day...and i don't like it....

i need to completley cut out diet soda...i quit buying crystal light so thats gone...but if i go to the store its so easy just to pick up a bottle diet dr. pepper...i need to go for WATER...because i have really noticed that if i drink diet stuff it STOPS my weight loss and i just fluctuate...but water seems to be bringing it off....

i've lost 19 lbs...so far....i can't weight until i can say 25 cuz that sounds like alot...lol....its all pyschological

i saw 300 and now all i can think about is being as fit as a spartan...lol craziness.

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Something is going on with the way i'm eating latlely....before i was doing well in that i'd eat smaller portions through out the day...now ....i've been eating just little bit through the day and saving all my calories for some big honkin' dinner...and it just doesnt' feel right....i also started eating red meat the other day...which i swore i wasn't gonna do...i'm still not going way over my calories...its been in between 1500 and 2000...on of the worse days going up to 2200...i need to be more strict i've been letting my self slip....i think that part of it could be my ex calling me...arg...after a month and 1/2 of being broke up he calls me and tells me how much i fucked his world up...i'm seeing someone else...and i've havn't been this happy in a long time.  My relationship with him was so horrible and i have to say...it's sparked some emotional eating...that has to be it...before he stumbled drunkly back into my life...i was fine...now i'm slightly overeating and eating things that i didn't normally eat...i have to purge him from my mind

In other news i'm going to a 48 hour film festival this weekend with my new dude...don't worry its not sitting and watching 48 hours of independant film...it where film makers come and have 48 hours to write produce and shoot a short film then the movies are shown at the end FUN FUN FUN~

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