hharris9's Journal

Home for the holidays.. :/
Dec 22 2008 03:43

Like any good college student, I bounded home for the holidays this year after several weeks of classes, exams, and copious amounts of stress over final grades... I had been totally resolved to get back into working out now that I'd FINALLY have time. Right?? Right???

Wrong.

/sigh... I got home and was good the first few days. Unfortunately, my digital scale got soaked in the bathroom and no longer works, so I have no idea what damage I've done since. (Which is bad, since I don't want to turn a blind eye.) The baking began. Fudge and cookies and chocolate turtles and sweets like you wouldn't believe! A taste here and there, a dinner out with an attempted healthy choice... but no. I've deeefinitely been having too much. I'd say I've already gained at least 1-2lbs and I've only been home a week! As for the exercise, I've been so busy trying to get my shopping done, baking, and... well, just being unmotivated, that I haven't gone once. I look back at my pictures from when I was 126.5 and going EVERY day and wishing I could have that again.

In May, I'm going to France for 3 weeks to fulfill my study abroad requirement (I have a concentration in International Business) and I'll be working during the spring semester to help pay for it. I guess I just know that when I get back to school, I won't have time to keep up the exercise, so I'm reluctant to start... :( Still, I don't want to lose my progress.

I'm thinking of CC'ing again, starting as soon as I get back to school (but still watching the healthiness of my foods now). I've been maintaining at 123, but gaining in inches, due to the lack of exercise. If I'm going to continue not to exercise, I really think I should be maintaining closer to 120. (Bear in mind I'm 125 now, probably.)

Even though I see the change from last year, I guess I'm just a little down on myself lately. This was hard work, and I won't let myself backslide. No food tastes good enough to make me feel ok with being unhealthy.