ily2tori's Journal
Having A ChildOct 14 2009 11:00
I had a child on September 18th this year. It really messed up my dieting and everything because a lot of my dieting foods either made me sick, or I couldn't eat them. Not to mention my horrible cravings for sweets and fatty foods. I was 118 lbs before I had gotten pregnant, and before I had my son I was 151. I couldn't believe how horribly I had let myself go. I had horrible thunderthighs, my butt was huge and speaking that I went from a 36 C to a 34 DD didn't help. After I had him I looked in the hospital mirror and felt sick. I didn't excercise a lot throughout the pregnancy and I didn't walk even when I knew I should have. I was a working out feind but I didn't understand why I had let all of my hard work go. About one year ago I was 136 lbs and I hated it, and going from that to 118 lbs I felt great. The doctors all told me that I would go right back down but the way that I looked just hurt me. Two weeks ago I had to be weighed and I dreaded what it would be. I stepped onto the scale and it came out in kilo's. I asked the nurse how much it was and she said 131 lbs. I don't know why when I look in the mirror I feel so much bigger than what the scale says and I was happy to hear that only one and a half weeks after having a baby I was lighter than when I was my heaviest not pregnant. It's a great feeling and I can't wait until after the 6 weeks to get back into shape. I just want my abs back.
Having a baby changes your body drastically. I know, I've had two with the most recent 1 year ago. I did things all wrong the first pregnancy and gained well over 70 pounds. It took me 2.5 years to lose that weight and I didn't make it back down to my prepregnancy weight (which was almost underweight anyway). I, too, was down to 118 between my pregnancies and felt healthy and slim. I crept back up to 128 before becoming pregnant again, gaining 40 pounds this time. Less than 4 months postpartum, I was back down to my prepregnancy weight without working out or watching my calorie intake (I breastfed). I almost cried when I saw myself in the mirror at the hospital. The immediate post-pregnancy body is not pretty and it does take even longer than a month for the swelling and fluid retention to go down, especially if you had a c-section. I'm glad that most of the weight melted off in the first few weeks for you. Even though we get to a low number on the scale, our bodies aren't nearly as perky and firm as they used to be. I hope you can take that positive feeling and keep yourself motivated. Just keep in mind that you probably won't really be back to "normal" for quite some time (and don't let that discourage you!). Sorry for the novel of a comment! I can easily relate! |
