inikaliciousi's Journal

Better luck next month...
Oct 14 2009 16:34

No Baby =(

I Need Help BAD.
Oct 13 2009 19:22

So. I have been doing AWESOME on my diet. I have went from a size 24 to a 16 & a weight of 270 pounds to 197 pounds. However I see that all slipping away and FAST unless I get my addiction under control.

I have recently discovered that I crave Pumpkin ANYTHING. The flavor Pumpkin Pie in, on or around ANYTHING. I started out by making the pumpkin pie recipe & pumpkin fluff that CC posted. However this was not satisfying to me at all. I then discovered that most delicious thing in the world. A PUMPKIN PIE BLIZZARD.

I however can not stop eating them!! Since discovering them last week I've already consumed two & a third about 2 minutes ago! I get the small blizzard however it's still 500 calories! I am actually going over my calories some days by 500 just to have my pumpkin fixation!

I don't know what to do. This is serious & I'm not kidding! My husband and I are trying to get pregnant and I am actually due for my period either yesterday or tomorrow. I have been having such strong pumpkin pie cravings that it's making me wonder if I'm not pregnant? However I have been having all signs that my period is coming.

I just don't know what to do to get myself back on track & to start eating healthier again. I do great all through the day while I'm at work with logging my food and eating healthy. But I think about pumpkin pie ALL DAY LONG. And when I get home it's almost too overwhelming!

Back 0n Track
Sep 19 2009 16:00

Well I weighed in today & I am finally back down to the weight I was prior to my honeymoon. I have 13 pounds to lose before my next DR's appointment in November. I really think that I'll be successful in losing these pounds before then. I just found out that they have a free Zumba dance class in my local park every Sunday. It starts this weekend & I'm thinking about checking it out with a friend. That same friend is also looking into getting me a membership to LA FITNESS for $30 a month through her job. I'm excited about getting back into the gym! I may be losing weight & going down in clothes size but I am not toning my body at all. My stomach has gotten significantly smaller but I've noticed that it's now a lovely heap of loose skin. I'm getting up there in age (27) & I know that the older you get the harder it is for you're skin to stretch back.

Lets hope that it's smooth sailing from here until November!

Wedding Ph0t0s
Sep 14 2009 15:27

Here are a few photo's from my wedding on September 5th, 2009.

Enjoy them & if you want to see more you can visit my MySpace page.

The link is on the front of my Calorie Count profile =)

0ur cake. My Mom & Aunt made our cake!

My mom & I before I walked down the aisle.

My Husband & I. Also one of the best men Steve.

Gary & I with our nephew Isaiah.

My room mate Irene, myself & my sister & Maid of Honor Ashley.

Feeding the cake to each other.

My sisters Brittany & Ashley. Both were my maid of honors.

Professional Photos

Groomsmen holding me *l0l*

Rehearsal Dinner

Feeling Much Better
Sep 14 2009 15:05

I weighed in today & just by getting back on track for two days I have already lost 5 pounds! I also got my period today. I am attributing some weight gain to retaining water and I'm sure my period. It made me feel AWESOME when I stepped on that scale & it said 207 pounds. I'm glad that I got my period too because I'm sure that was part of the reason my weight was so high. Having my period is bitter sweet though. Means there will be no baby growing this month. My husband & I have really been trying to get pregnant. We tried everyday on our honeymoon. Somtimes 3 or more times a day on our honeymoon *l0l*

He is so positive though! He said we'll just try harder next month. And that I should buy a ovulation test so we can be dead on. I'm hoping that we can get pregnant by Christmas. That would be the best gift of all. Just getting pregant would be incredible. My chances to get pregnant are harder because of the 6 months of Chemotherapy that I went through when I had Hodgkins Lymphoma. So everyone keep you're fingers crossed for us!

I will share some photo's with you all from my wedding in another entry. My Husband will be off of work at home around 4:30pm & I was off today. So I want to make sure that dinner is ready for him when he comes in the door. It's a chicken wrap night!

--[[ Nik ]]--

OH MY GOD!!
Sep 13 2009 12:40

I'm mortified. I got home from my honeymoon on Friday & weighed in Saturday. I gained 10 pounds on my honeymoon!! I don't understand how though. We went to Ocean City & literally walked 40 or more blocks a day! I did totally go off my diet but I did not think that I was going to have a major gain like that! I am so ashamed of myself. I am now back up to 212 pounds when I was down at 203! I now have to lose 22 pounds by November instead of just 12 pounds.

--[[Fat Ass]]--

S00n T0 Be Mrs!!
Sep 02 2009 15:48

In exactly 3 days I will be Mrs. Nicole Vogel. I am BEYOND excited! Basically everything is done, just the few odds & ends things here & there. The weather on Saturday is supposed to be beautiful with no rain. I will be going to Ocean City from the 7th-11th & I'm so worried about my weight! I have been stress eating the last week because of all the things we still had to do. I'm worried about eating badly while on my honeymoon. My fiance is really not that strict with his food intake because he works a physically rigorous job. I haven't been sticking to my diet really well this week. I was at 203 pounds & STRUGGLING to lose those 3 pounds. I wouldn't be shocked if I was at 210 now. This is bad though because I HAVE to be 190 pounds by November by my next doctors appointment.

I'm just going to have a great time at my wedding reception & a even greater time on my honeymoon. I'll do the best that I can & that's all I can offer to myself!!

--[NIK]]--

A Plateau This Soon?
Aug 28 2009 21:46

Well hello everyone! It's been quite some time since I wrote & I do apologize. I have been swamped with things lately! I get married in 8 days! Can you believe it? I am so nervous & excited that I can hardly stand it. We pretty much have everything done & ready to go. I am just so worried that something bad is going to happen. Either we will run out of alcohol/food or someone won't show up. I'm sure everything will work out & I'm worrying about nothing.

On the weight front I want to scream! I have only 3 pounds to lose until I am 200 pounds & I can not seem to get them off! It is beyond frustrating right now! I just don't see why I would be hitting a plateau when I still have so much weight to lose! I am so close to the 100's that I can reach out & grab it! I am worried about going on my honeymoon & gaining back the weight that I lost so far since joining CC. Since joining I have lose 24 pounds & I plan on staying here well after I hit my goal  weight. I never realized how much one website can influence & motivate you!

Here's to kicking those 3 pounds right to the curb!!!

--[[Nik]]--

RIP Momma Bear
Aug 14 2009 10:58

My doggie passed away last night around 4:00am. She was sick for a week with Parvo a deadly intestional dog disease. We tried everything to nurse her back to health but she just didn't make it. I knew in my heart last night that she wasn't going to make it because she started having mini seizures.

Though I knew she was suffering and is in a better place now it doesn't make her death any easier. My fiance and room mate buried her in the back yard & we have a large rock placed at the top of her grave. She was a good dog & will surely be missed. I love you Momma "JADA" Bear.

Completly. Overwhelmed. Period.
Aug 12 2009 19:56

What the H-E- double hockey sticks is wrong with me? It has been exactly 2 weeks since I went to my doctors & I still am not back on track with my diet! This is flippin ridiculous! When I went to the doctor on July 29th I weighed in at 209 pounds. Two weeks later & I'm only down to 207.2 pounds. Granted I didn't gain but 2 pounds in two weeks? That's just plain pathetic! I could of been down to 200 pounds if I would of kept to my diet regiously like I previously had. I just can't stick to it like I did those last 4 months! This is so sad. But this ALWAYS happens to me when he gives me a goal. It's fucking almost impossible for me to make it to his goal & it's so upsetting. Okay I take that back. It's NOT impossible. Losing 19 pounds in 4 months is WAY possible. I lost 32 pounds in four months so 19 pounds is nothing.

Then why can't I stick to it? I haven't even been really tracking my food intake! Sure I still go to Subway but now I'm getting meatball subs & steak instead of my normal veggie or grilled chicken! It's like I gave myself that one weekend to enjoy some foods & now I can't stop! I'm constantly eating past 8pm & have begun drinking alcohol again.

I guess that I could blame my going WAY off track on stress. I get married in 24 days. I'm scrambling to get the rest of the wedding things together. I have alot on my plate right now. I have all this last minute wedding shit going on & then my dog got sick on Saturday with Parvo. So she has literally been on her death bed for four days now. I'm not getting alot of rest because she needs her medicine every hour on the hour. So I'm practically awake all night to make sure she gets her meds. On top of that I'm trying to fit in my marriage classes that need to be done in order for Gary & I to become husband & wife. Oh & did I mention I still haven't gotten my period?

 On a better note I went for my dress fitting on the 8th. They had my dress in the store in a smaller size (size 16) so instead of paying to take my size 18 in I just exchanged it & got the size 16. I only had to pay for my bra which was a arm & a leg itself at $63.00. So I saved a bunch of money on my dress. Then had to turn around & spend close to $100.00 on my dogs medicine since she got sick. So it was a good thing I didn't need the alterations.

Well I'm once again at work until 10pm AGAIN. So I must get offline & do some type of work. I haven't weighed in a few days so I'll most definitly do it tomorrow.

--[[Nik]]--