irishmum's Journal

For those who asked...

Dec 16 2009 14:27

Here she is, my little shepherd. Though to me, she's an angel!

It's really got me in the mood!

Merry Christmas!

Patience will get me there...I just need to get some!

Dec 14 2009 10:01

Stuck to the plan over the weekend & my reward- 4lb down from last Monday!!!

Now, before you all berate me for 'losing too quickly', at least 2lbs of that was leftover 'beer bloat' from a long Saturday night that weekend, so realistically a 1-2lb loss, but a loss is a loss!!! Yayyy!!!

So sticking at it now until after Christmas, with a few days 'relaxing' hopefully not doing much harm in the meantime?

I'm back down to 152lbs from 156lbs. I was 146lbs when I stopped my 'diet' phase so I'm getting back there...slowly but surely? 6lbs to go...

Off to construct a 'Shepherd'outfit out of one of Granda's old shirts, a tea-towel and a hairband for my 'angel's' stage debut on Wednesday...

Trying to keep positive...

Dec 10 2009 10:19

This is going to sound like one of my 'old' posts.

So far so good on the 'no snacking' front. Good fluid intake (2-3l a day at least). Eating all fresh food (no processed/ready meals).

Be warned- I am a compulsive weigher. This is not good I know, but I'm used to it, and I know what meals or totm will result in small temporary gains, so I'm okay with it.

On day 2 I was down 2lbs. On day 3 I was up a lb. Today I'm up another lb. So I'm back to where I started on Monday. I know my weight will fluctuate, but it would eventually drop a bit? Please God it'll drop soon??

I'm not eating enough- I know. I'm averaging 1100-1200 a day. I'm now 7lbs heavier than when I stopped my 'diet', and I'm not happy.

I'm afraid to eat more in case I gain more. It might sound shallow- but I was REALLY looking forward to celebrating the holidays as a 'slim' person (well, slim in my eyes! LOL!), now I feel like a failure? I don't want to jump my cals too much until after the partys are all over in case my new party clothes end up not fitting me- does that sound sad? But I can't get the lbs to go? I may try cutting back on my carbs a bit, but most of my carbs come from veg (strange as that might seem?) so I'm reluctant to do that?

Please keep me positive, tell me how to keep positive? I need to see a drop on the scales- even just a little one to keep me going through Christmas? Then the New Year will be me getting things back to where they should be cal wise. I may even throw a little exercise into the mix if I get motivated enough?....

Up a bit- time to knuckle down again!

Dec 07 2009 12:01

Right, time to stop messing around. I'm now out of my 'window' that I allocated myself, so it's time to knuckle down and get these extra lbs off before the holidays.
My picking/snacking on rubbish has gotten totally out of hand, and two weekends in a row of beer on a saturday night has bloated me right up! It usually takes me 4-5 days to get rid of beer bloat after a night out, and I was back down on Friday, but then was surprised with a night out on saturday night so I'm back to square one!

My Christmas party night is on the 19th, and I want to be in tip-top shape as a lot of people won't have seen me in months (and since I was 35-odd lbs heavier!) , and I've no other social events (that might involve alcohol anyway) planned until then.

So from today the rubbish stops. I'm off to stock up on fresh veg after so I have a supply for snacks. The chocolate/biscuits are strictly off-limits, with a few Options highlights Hot Chocs for a treat if I get really bad cravings, or if I'm having a bad day?

I've planned my meals for the next few days so I have everything to hand. I'd got into the bad habit of grabbing whatever was handy in the cupboard- not always a good idea. I need to up my water intake to get rid of this bloat.

I'm not worried about the holidays, I don't go into the whole food excess that others seem to? We're away for a few days between Christmas & New Years so I don't want a load of food that'll go to waste in the house anyway. My Dad-in-law usually gets the kids a tin of sweets (which are put into little bowls around the living area so visitors dip in too and get rid of them quickly!), and they've got choc coins for their stocking, but thats all the 'festive' food we'll have? No-one likes pudding in our house, so dessert will probably be fruit & ice-cream or maybe I'll push the boat out & make little mini pavlovas for us (meringue nests, squirty cream, a little icecream & fruit)The kids would love them!

Anyway...the tree is up, cards posted/emailed, pressies wrapped, all done except my wee one's Shepherd costume (daddy's shirt, tea-towel & rope belt as directed by her teacher! LOL!) Time to get into the Christmas Spirit!! Bring it on!!

Staying the same, but thats okay!

Oct 26 2009 11:04

Still 146lbs, but it's the lowest weight I've been in over 25yrs (I'm only 36! LOL!) so I'm happy enough. I think I'll actively begin to try maintaining again for a few months. I've 'only' 6lbs to go to get to goal, and am happy enough to hopefully stay at this weight then try to get the last few lbs off when my system has had time to 'recover' from my weight loss efforts?

Update on my friends baby- she has an extra toe on each foot, and an extra (non-functioning) finger on her left hand. Her consultant has initially advised her to leave the feet as they are, as the toes/foot is perfectly formed- just with 6 toes instead of five. She will need wider shoes, but there is no real need to operate unless my friend & her hubby decide it's in her best interest. Her hand is another matter. Because the finger is in essence useless, they've been advised to proceed with surgery on it to remove it- and the earlier its done the better apparently. But again, they're being put under no pressure whatsoever to decide yet, so they're just enjoying time with their new angel at the minute.

I've a bit of a quandry- I've got a last-minute babysitter for Halloween night which means I can go to my Hubby's pub's Halloween party on Saturday night. My dilemma- I've NEVER dressed up and have no costume. Stores in my area have a very limited choice, and its too late to get something mail order! Ideally I'd like to look pretty/sort-of sexy rather than funny (ha-ha funny I mean!) so I guess I need to start googling to get some ideas for easy-to-do fairly original costumes....any ideas welcome!!

Relieved a bit.

Oct 16 2009 09:31

Well, an update from Monday- still bleeding, not as much, but it's still there. My doc said there was nothing he could do but keep an eye on me. He did a pg test which was negative (theoretically ruling out a miscarriage- thank God!) and gave me painkillers. If I'm still bleeding by Monday/Tuesday I have to go back and he'll do some blood tests to see if its hormonal.

On the plus side- I'm now 146lbs!!! My all-time lowest EVER, and I mean since I was 10yrs old!!! Mind you, my experience over the past week might have something to do with that (eurghh!! LOL!)

I'm awaiting news from my best friends husband- she's (at this very minute) undergoing her 3rd c-section, so if you're that way inclined, please spare a prayer for her & her new baby? Her baby will need surgery (nothing major) in the months after the birth, so we're praying that nothing else 'sinister' will become apparent after the birth?

UPDATE: It's a girl!!! 6lb 13oz and 'all is well'. I'm taking it that means that nothing 'else' has become obvious after delivery. Baby's after having her first feed and is snoozing- mummy's about to join her!

I don't know whats wrong, if anything?

Oct 12 2009 10:10

WARNING- Quite explicit/gross journal entry- if you're sensitive don't read any further?!

Yesterday I woke up and had terrible pains in my lower back. The only way I can describe it is like a really bad constipation pain? Or a little like the back contractions I had when I was induced for my last baby? It didn't ease after I used the bathroom (sorry if tmi?) and even painkillers and a hot water bottle didn't help. It got so bad at one stage i really was tempted to call the out-of-hours clinic for advice- all sorts of scenarios was going through my head- worse-case being bowel cancer! Anyway, it eased a little after the second dose of painkillers and I had an early night. This morning when I went to the bathroom I discovered quite a lot of blood. Dark red and 'gloopy'? I have quite bad 'crampy' pains at the minute, but no 'back' pain? I'm still bleeding, not an 'awful' lot, but enough to have changed the pad once already? I'm on birth control- and I don't have bleeds/periods on the pill I'm on (since my baby- now 2) so this is really out of the ordinary?

Is it a period- I've recently lost quite a bit of weight so my hormones could be out of whack a little? Or could it be more sinister?

I'm off to fill a hot water bottle.

(Sorry for the 'sorry for myself' post today. Will update later...)

UPDATE: Bleeding stopped. Still crampy...

So far, so good?

Oct 07 2009 12:46

I hadn't noticed how much I'd allowed 'nibbling' to creep back into my daily diet- that may go some way to explain the 'unexplained' weight gain I'd been experiencing! LOL!

I've been 'good' so far this week, and have seen a drop on the scales, but I'll wait until Friday before logging my weeks (hopeful) loss. After this period of trying to lose, I've decided I'm going to log religiously again for a few months. I'd really become blase about what I was eating. I was snacking on cr*p, and eating less 'proper' food to keep my cals down- wrong, wrong, wrong!!!! I know- no lectures/wrist-slapping needed! I intend to return to my 3 good meals & 2 healthy snacks (only if necessary!) that was working so good before.

I've also had a really bad cold that has affected my appetite. It was inevitable I'd get it- I spent last weekend in the emergency room with my 2yr old trying to get her temp. down after a mini febrile convulsion- that wasn't a nice experience, I felt sooo helpless.

Anyway, she's all better now. Her sister got a milder version, and now my Hubby & me are going through the 'swallowing razor blades/can't talk' phase of it. Lovely. LOL!

Enough feeling sorry for myself. All is good in my life so far, apart from the regular everyday worries everyone has. Theres no serious illness/debt problems like some of my friends (online & in real life!) are going through, and for that I AM grateful. Gotta stay focused & positive.

Starting again...

Oct 01 2009 15:46

Well, I've stayed at 150lbs, so I guess my 'finishing' weight wasn't my weight- if that makes sense? I now know to allow for a 3-4lb 'window' around my goal weight for everyday fluctuations. With that in mind it's time for phase 2. I've maintained for 3-odd months now, pretty much eating what I want (a little of everything in moderation, with the odd 'treat' day?) so I'm about to embark on a 3-4wk plan to try to get under 140lbs (my 'goal' is 133lbs, but I'm flexible on this!) It's a milder form of the diet I previously did, mainly a low-carb/fat high protein diet so I don't expect to lose as much as I did during it, but to get these last 10lbs off would be great?

So it's back to the drawing board for a while.

New unexplained weight gain?

Sep 16 2009 12:23

Okay, I'm fairly new to maintaining, but had remained at 147-148lbs for just over two months now eating 1200-1400cals. A few weeks ago I posted a worry that I hadn't lost a 3lb gain (weekend of a meal out & some beers). This was a 'normal' gain for me and it was usually gone a few days later. It took a week or so that time and I put it down to water & totm.

Over the last 4-5days, my weight has again jumped to 150lbs, for no obvious reason (not totm, no beers/meals out, drinking plenty of water but not too much?) I'm not exercising atm so it's not 'muscle' gain? It's not due to 'toilet' issues, and I haven't changed my 'foods' (i.e. I'm not eating 'heavier' foods that are slowing up my system?)

Any thoughts on this gain? I'm a bit annoyed now as I was doing so well, and the temptation is there to drop my cals to see if it'll help- even though I know that'd be a step back?