irishmum's Journal

Staying the same, but thats okay!

Oct 26 2009 11:04

Still 146lbs, but it's the lowest weight I've been in over 25yrs (I'm only 36! LOL!) so I'm happy enough. I think I'll actively begin to try maintaining again for a few months. I've 'only' 6lbs to go to get to goal, and am happy enough to hopefully stay at this weight then try to get the last few lbs off when my system has had time to 'recover' from my weight loss efforts?

Update on my friends baby- she has an extra toe on each foot, and an extra (non-functioning) finger on her left hand. Her consultant has initially advised her to leave the feet as they are, as the toes/foot is perfectly formed- just with 6 toes instead of five. She will need wider shoes, but there is no real need to operate unless my friend & her hubby decide it's in her best interest. Her hand is another matter. Because the finger is in essence useless, they've been advised to proceed with surgery on it to remove it- and the earlier its done the better apparently. But again, they're being put under no pressure whatsoever to decide yet, so they're just enjoying time with their new angel at the minute.

I've a bit of a quandry- I've got a last-minute babysitter for Halloween night which means I can go to my Hubby's pub's Halloween party on Saturday night. My dilemma- I've NEVER dressed up and have no costume. Stores in my area have a very limited choice, and its too late to get something mail order! Ideally I'd like to look pretty/sort-of sexy rather than funny (ha-ha funny I mean!) so I guess I need to start googling to get some ideas for easy-to-do fairly original costumes....any ideas welcome!!

Relieved a bit.

Oct 16 2009 09:31

Well, an update from Monday- still bleeding, not as much, but it's still there. My doc said there was nothing he could do but keep an eye on me. He did a pg test which was negative (theoretically ruling out a miscarriage- thank God!) and gave me painkillers. If I'm still bleeding by Monday/Tuesday I have to go back and he'll do some blood tests to see if its hormonal.

On the plus side- I'm now 146lbs!!! My all-time lowest EVER, and I mean since I was 10yrs old!!! Mind you, my experience over the past week might have something to do with that (eurghh!! LOL!)

I'm awaiting news from my best friends husband- she's (at this very minute) undergoing her 3rd c-section, so if you're that way inclined, please spare a prayer for her & her new baby? Her baby will need surgery (nothing major) in the months after the birth, so we're praying that nothing else 'sinister' will become apparent after the birth?

UPDATE: It's a girl!!! 6lb 13oz and 'all is well'. I'm taking it that means that nothing 'else' has become obvious after delivery. Baby's after having her first feed and is snoozing- mummy's about to join her!

I don't know whats wrong, if anything?

Oct 12 2009 10:10

WARNING- Quite explicit/gross journal entry- if you're sensitive don't read any further?!

Yesterday I woke up and had terrible pains in my lower back. The only way I can describe it is like a really bad constipation pain? Or a little like the back contractions I had when I was induced for my last baby? It didn't ease after I used the bathroom (sorry if tmi?) and even painkillers and a hot water bottle didn't help. It got so bad at one stage i really was tempted to call the out-of-hours clinic for advice- all sorts of scenarios was going through my head- worse-case being bowel cancer! Anyway, it eased a little after the second dose of painkillers and I had an early night. This morning when I went to the bathroom I discovered quite a lot of blood. Dark red and 'gloopy'? I have quite bad 'crampy' pains at the minute, but no 'back' pain? I'm still bleeding, not an 'awful' lot, but enough to have changed the pad once already? I'm on birth control- and I don't have bleeds/periods on the pill I'm on (since my baby- now 2) so this is really out of the ordinary?

Is it a period- I've recently lost quite a bit of weight so my hormones could be out of whack a little? Or could it be more sinister?

I'm off to fill a hot water bottle.

(Sorry for the 'sorry for myself' post today. Will update later...)

UPDATE: Bleeding stopped. Still crampy...

So far, so good?

Oct 07 2009 12:46

I hadn't noticed how much I'd allowed 'nibbling' to creep back into my daily diet- that may go some way to explain the 'unexplained' weight gain I'd been experiencing! LOL!

I've been 'good' so far this week, and have seen a drop on the scales, but I'll wait until Friday before logging my weeks (hopeful) loss. After this period of trying to lose, I've decided I'm going to log religiously again for a few months. I'd really become blase about what I was eating. I was snacking on cr*p, and eating less 'proper' food to keep my cals down- wrong, wrong, wrong!!!! I know- no lectures/wrist-slapping needed! I intend to return to my 3 good meals & 2 healthy snacks (only if necessary!) that was working so good before.

I've also had a really bad cold that has affected my appetite. It was inevitable I'd get it- I spent last weekend in the emergency room with my 2yr old trying to get her temp. down after a mini febrile convulsion- that wasn't a nice experience, I felt sooo helpless.

Anyway, she's all better now. Her sister got a milder version, and now my Hubby & me are going through the 'swallowing razor blades/can't talk' phase of it. Lovely. LOL!

Enough feeling sorry for myself. All is good in my life so far, apart from the regular everyday worries everyone has. Theres no serious illness/debt problems like some of my friends (online & in real life!) are going through, and for that I AM grateful. Gotta stay focused & positive.

Starting again...

Oct 01 2009 15:46

Well, I've stayed at 150lbs, so I guess my 'finishing' weight wasn't my weight- if that makes sense? I now know to allow for a 3-4lb 'window' around my goal weight for everyday fluctuations. With that in mind it's time for phase 2. I've maintained for 3-odd months now, pretty much eating what I want (a little of everything in moderation, with the odd 'treat' day?) so I'm about to embark on a 3-4wk plan to try to get under 140lbs (my 'goal' is 133lbs, but I'm flexible on this!) It's a milder form of the diet I previously did, mainly a low-carb/fat high protein diet so I don't expect to lose as much as I did during it, but to get these last 10lbs off would be great?

So it's back to the drawing board for a while.

New unexplained weight gain?

Sep 16 2009 12:23

Okay, I'm fairly new to maintaining, but had remained at 147-148lbs for just over two months now eating 1200-1400cals. A few weeks ago I posted a worry that I hadn't lost a 3lb gain (weekend of a meal out & some beers). This was a 'normal' gain for me and it was usually gone a few days later. It took a week or so that time and I put it down to water & totm.

Over the last 4-5days, my weight has again jumped to 150lbs, for no obvious reason (not totm, no beers/meals out, drinking plenty of water but not too much?) I'm not exercising atm so it's not 'muscle' gain? It's not due to 'toilet' issues, and I haven't changed my 'foods' (i.e. I'm not eating 'heavier' foods that are slowing up my system?)

Any thoughts on this gain? I'm a bit annoyed now as I was doing so well, and the temptation is there to drop my cals to see if it'll help- even though I know that'd be a step back?

What happened?!?! :(

Aug 31 2009 15:25

I've been maintaining for 7-8wks now after a medically-supervised vlcd. I'm a bit off my goal weight, but wanted a 'break', and a chance to see if I could maintain before tackling the last lbs. I wasn't logging, just sort eating healthy, watching my carb intake (my problem!) and eating low/good fats with plenty of protein. I was guesstimating my cal intake (after years of logging I had a good idea) and know it was still on the low side (I'd say between 1200-1400cals a day) but was planning on increasing slowly as my body got used to being this weight, and to ready myself for losing again later on. All was going well. I was having good days, and the odd cheat day. Last weekend I had a night out where I had 7-8 Coors light beers. This has happened maybe twice since I started trying to maintain. Each time, I weigh 3-4lbs heavier the next morning, and it's gone again 3-4 days later after eating normally for a few days. This time its still there- 9 days later? What's happened? Why has it stayed on? It's the week before my totm, but it didn't happen last month, so I can't see that being a factor? Is there any other reason I've kept these lbs on? I've been drinking plenty of water- but not too much iykwim? I've been eating well, and have regular bm's (sorry if tmi?)

I'm just scared I'm going to start regaining my lost weight by eating 'normally'? I don't want to fall into the trap of cutting my cals way down to compensate, but its scary to see the gain there?

Still maintaining...and delighted! LOL!

Aug 21 2009 11:07

Six weeks today from I started my maintenence part of my journey, and I weight the exact same as I did six weeks ago!! WHo-hooO!!!!

I have of course had a few meals out, and a few nights out (I don't miss hangovers! LOL!) that have resulted in a few lbs up here & there, but a few days later its all gone again- proof that I can eat like a 'normal' person without any major damage- i.e. have a night out every so often, and a takeaway/meal out here & there, and remain the same size!! I used to look at my friends and think- I eat the same as them but I'm HUGE?? Now I've shifted (most) of the excess, I too can eat like them and stay the same. I never thought I'd see that happen. I was always good at maintaining though, it was losing I couldn't master!! It's early days yet though?

I intend to maintain for a few more weeks, then maybe try to lose the rest of my weight (7-14lbs...whichever? Not too bothered as long as it's in that range somewhere!) to get to between 133-140lbs. I'm 147lbs now, just overweight (no longer morbidly obese!! Who-hoo!)and in an ideal world would like to get (just) into the 'normal' weight range- if only to stun my Doctor at my next annual check-up (where I get my annual lecture on being obese, the medical dangers attached to that, etc. etc. ;P) That would be soooo cool!!

My 'good' deed for the day?

Aug 13 2009 13:00

I just got a member banned/deleted?! I came across some posts from an obviously younger girl that I felt were offensive, and making little of peoples struggles on here. She was posting replies like "You're just a fatass", and "Oh just go throw up!", and "you're all just fat, fat, fat!" etc. etc. so I reported her to the moderators. Fifteen minutes later I find all her posts have been deleted- Good Job Moderators!! Very quickly too- allowing for the time difference & all that! She was obviously just surfing and decided to pass her time on here making sh*t of all of us who have the misfortune to have battles with our weight and self-image. I wonder what'll happen when she notices all her little-minded posts have gone?....

I'm losing?! :)

Aug 10 2009 10:17

Well, I'm on week 4 of maintenence, and I'm down 2lbs from I started 'eating' again! I can't believe it! I'm not trying to lose, just to keep off what I've lost, so this really is a bonus!! (It's the 4th day at 146lbs so I feel comfortable logging it?)

I'm not counting, and I am consciously avoiding 'extra' carbs like bread, rice/pasta and potatoes- but thats not a big deal as the only ones I used to eat a lot of was the potatoes (well, I am Irish!)- and I do have them occasionally, just not as often (or in as big a quantity) as I used to! LOL! I do think they were part of the reason the weight wouldn't shift (and my Doc- after seeing my losses) would agree!

But like everything else- I don't intend to 'ban' them from my diet, just have them in moderation?

Today is a good day, despite the girls deciding it was 'morning' at 5.30am this morning....I'm still smiling!