jdubay1018's Journal

Hi - I wish I knew your name.  But, this is easier said than done, but you need to quit beating yourself up.  If that's you in the above picture - you're beautiful!

Every day is a new start for us - my mantra lately is - "Fat In - Fat On".  Just say it before you put anything in your mouth.  Nobody loves to eat more than I do.  We need to start anew every morning telling ourselves how beautiful we are now and how much more beautiful we can be.  And so lucky to have men in our lives that love us no matter what.

Hang in there - start every day anew - and keep yourself busy. TV watching is hard for me because I want to snack when I'm doing that - not just snacky stuff but food.  So, I have not been watching as much TV.

Take care and good luck this week.

You're so deep today! I'm not going to help you much as I find myself struggling lately. I've also been eating too much at one given time. It's like I have to be completely full. I've been depressed lately and I think I've been eating for comfort. Even though I'm not going crazy eating hamburgers and cakes, I've been snacking too much. And somehow it does make me feel better. I snack much less when I workout and get a good sweating, again endorphins at work making me feel good. Even though I'm quite fortunate myself and cannot complain of life, husband, etc I'm not that happy. And that makes me feel guilty and it fuels even more my need for comfort. Who knows, it might be your case too, you need comfort from food. Things are well for you but consciously or not you might have negative thoughts or  feelings that generate anxiety. Thank goodness your husband is in remission! Could it be that deep down you may worry that it may come back? It's hard to grasp how the mind works but it's very likely that the solution of our eating lies in our minds.

So I'm tackling this bad phase in two ways.

1. Win over my lazyness and exercise, because once I do, the day and eating seems to go more smoothly.

2. Acept myself the way I am now and stop feeling guilty because I'm not as happy as I should be, or that I've put back some pounds that were so hard to lose, or that my healthy weight might be mildly overweight. I don't like to read that you think your life would be perfect if you were not overweight. Be careful with that thought, it doesn't work that way and that's probably the source of many yo-yo dieting. Once you're thin you realize life is still not perfect. And it will never be! Some are more blessed than others but life is never perfect. I think that life is worthy of living because and despite life's difficulties.

Thank you for your questions, it made me think about my own behavior.  After all that I wrote (sorry for posting such a long comment) I still don't have an answer for you. But I believe that self-acceptance plays a very important role for changing our eating behavior. Think about it and hang in there, you're not alone! :-D 

PS: Read this great article on Unconditional self-love and self-acceptance article from livestrong.com

Im not so sure what to say. Everyone has already said so many great things ( which I have benefited from as well ). I guess I just want to say you are beautifully and wonderfully made by a Creator who loves you very much.

You sound like a strong person. With all you have gone through and are continuing to go through. Have you ever thought maybe you punish yourself? Like maybe because of things you have done or thought or wish. I just want to say stop. Give it all to God and know He wants the BEST for you. He wants you to take care of yourself for Him, for you, for your husband.

I know you dont know me and I hope this is encouraging. I speak as someone who feels condemened when i mess up and I can let that rule my life if Im not careful.

You and your husband will be in my prayers. Keep up the good work and know that more than anything the Maker of the universe loves you.