jess1979's Journal

10/5/09

Oct 05 2009 10:08

Good Morning everyone!

I made it back from Seattle Washington... I am seriously messed up with time, but will be OK.

You girls would be so proud of me - my first business trip that I ate relatively healthy & exercised during the trip. Maybe not as much as I would have liked but regardless, I did great! I actually lost 2 lbs during this trip.

Washington is AMAZING!!! It is so beautiful there! I could so see myself living there someday. I had such a great time during my trip. The dentists were all so nice, it has been by far the most successful ground campaign I've been on thus far. I wasn't even stressed and the sights were out of this world! During the evenings in an attempt to stay awake past 5 Pacific time, I would go to local parks & beaches and just walk along the beach. So amazing! If you have facebook, you can check out the pictures that I took there.

Then on Thursday last week, I found out that I have yet another trip to the West Coast that I have to take next week. So I leave for Los Angeles, California on Sunday - Yuck! I am not looking forward to going there nearly as much! Thankfully it's only for a few days. But still this East, West, East, West, East thing is really messing with a girls ability to sleep!!!! I didn't think it would affect me this much, but it truly is...

Well I gotta get back to work, just wanted to give you all a quick update. I miss you all! Tonight is Zumba class, I cannot wait!!!!

9/23/09

Sep 23 2009 12:59

Long week so far...

I am sitting here on a conference call & had a few minutes to give everyone an update.

Sunday afternoon my cousin passed away, may he finally Rest in Peace. Tonight I will be driving to meet my family & attend his funeral. It's going to be extremely difficult.

I also found out on Friday evening that I will be going to Seattle Washington next week for work. I am a little stressed trying to get everything in order for the boys & myself for next week. But I think I am starting to get things in order. Of course going out of town tonight & tomorrow will put me a little behind, but nonetheless, I will get it all straightened out.

Although everything is going on and things have been completely out of wack, I still found some time to go to the gym last night & completed 35 minutes on the Elliptical machine & 35 minutes on the treadmill. I am going to try and hit the gym again on Thursday, Friday & Saturday before shipping off to Washington on Sunday morning.

A good piece of news that I can share is that my grandma was finally able to speak, she said to my mom "I love you" <--- something that melted my mom's heart, especially after the nurses just said that she probably won't be talking for another few weeks. So this was GREAT news.

Well I will journal again really soon. Bye for now

9/18/09

Sep 18 2009 08:07

Well today I am definately feeling the effectives of the working out I've been doing. My body is hungry & I've already eaten. I will give it until 9:30 - 10 til I get something more to eat.

I took a pretty intense class last night at the gym, I remember looking at the clock only 20 minutes, with sweat pouring down, that I still had another 40 minutes left to go, would I even make it - but I gave it my all & stayed right on track & did it! So exciting!

Strangely, random people that I haven't heard from in a while have been in contact with me the past few days. Last night I was sitting there & a person I went to highschool started talking to me. It was nice to hear from him, but seemed very odd, then he asked me to hang out the next time I come back home. I don't think I even hung out with him in highschool, nor did we really talk much in highschool, so it really threw me off, but I thought it was nice & maybe I'll take him up on that. But I am not really sure. Thank goodness I have about a month til I go back home & the other good thing is that I don't have to even let him know I am coming - haha! So I could totally post-pone it for as long as I want.

Other than that, I'll be hitting the gym tonight & doing my own thing, then again tomorrow morning for the Power 60 class again. I have some house work to do this weekend & want to plan out my meals & get a jump start on next week. Tonight I am going to a football game, tomorrow I have a picnic to go to with the neighbor & she did ask me to go out with her tomorrow night, which I am a little hesitiant to do, because I don't want the added calories from beer, but maybe I'll go just for a little bit...I don't really know.

But I better get my butt back to work...

Once again it's been FOREVER since I've heard from Billy, I just don't even get him, guess his life has and always will be more important that the boys' life. So sad, but unfortunately it's true. The best part is WE are all doing perfectly fine without him! WHOOP WHOOP!!!!! And it continues to get easier and easier...

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!

9/17/09 2nd entry

Sep 17 2009 20:58

I just got home a little while from a Power 60's class, it was amazing, I had sweat pouring off of me - is is sick that something like that is making me smile at the moment??

I am really enjoying these classes, as it is such a rewarding challenge & I have everyone else that I am trying to keep up with, which is making me push myself SO much harder!!!!

9/17/09

Sep 17 2009 11:32

Hello Everyone!!!!

You girls would be so proud of me! I so badly wanted to journal yesterday but I was having some serious issues with my work computer that had me boggled down all day.

My exercise this week was as follows -

Monday - 30 minute lunchtime jog
Tuesday - 30 minute lunchtime jog, 10 minutes on the ellpitcal machine, 10 minute brisk walk on the treadmill, 15 minutes on the exercise bike & 20 minutes of weightlifting.
Wednesday - 45 minute lunchtime jog, 10 minutes on the ellpitcal machine at the gym & an hour long Zumba exercise/dance class.

I cannot wait to go to the gym again tonight. I am not going to do a lunchtime jog though, because I would like to have a little time to relax for a change.

My eating hasn't been horrible, but definately room for improvement, which is coming... Baby steps...

Regardless, I feel amazing with all the exercising & I want MORE!!!!

I just had a beautiful chicken salad for lunch, it was very yummy. Well gotta get back to work now...

9/15/09

Sep 15 2009 07:40

Good Morning everyone!

Yesterday was a beautiful day in Western Pennsylvania, the sun was shining, birds singing, Jess smiling...

Last night we had dinner with a few neighbors, it was a very good time. Although eating was all over the place & we didn't eat until after 7, still was worth it just to be around good friends!

I did learn that my neighbor is going to the same gym & we are going to start going together. That should be great, as she is just getting started with her weightloss journey & I am in need of some support. I am very excited to get over to the gym & check the place out & get my workout on. I think I really need to start some strength training, as this was something I haven't focused on since I lost the weight I have. All I have ever really done is cardio.

My doggie got all groomed up last night, finally! She was a mess & had an appointment on Monday, but that had to be cancelled due to an anxiety attack. Which found out was due to the trama from being attacked by a great dane on our way to get Brody from the school bus - what a mess that was, talk about scary. That was a huge dog....

Anyway, this week I am feeling SO much better about everything. I text'd Billy yesterday asking him if he was still alive, considering the fact that we didn't hear from him at all. He responded stating that yes, he will call me later, his phone is just about dead, well needless to say I never got the call, which I am OK with, just thankful that he is just being his normal butthead self.

Other than that I am getting really focused on losing this remaining weight, looking great for the holidays, and just loving life! Doing my best to not let others bring me down. Everything will be great!!!!

Talk to you ladies soon, I have a meeting at 9.... Happy Tuesday!!!!

9/14/09 Happy Monday!

Sep 14 2009 09:24

Hello everyone reading my journal! I hope you all had a great weekend!!!

Lets see, this weekend was very laid back and nice. Billy did NOT come see the boys which is sad, but made things a little easier for me, so in a sense I am a little relieved. What makes it most sad is that he didn't even call them to see how they are doing, nor did he answer a call from his son or return a message that Brody left him. I am not going to let it bother me though because it doesn't appear to bother them.

Moving on - the Eagles won yesterday WOOHOO!!!!!

My eating was all over the place, probably stayed within my calories though, just not with healthy choices. My weight is slightly up today, again mostly due to the salt contents that I consumed over the weekend. All is good! Back on track today for sure. Hard to resist chips & dip during a football game, just as long as I didn't over do it, which I don't feel as though I did that too badly.

I found out that the work trip to Washington has been postponed a week, which means I will still be home next week. I am a little happy about that, but to be honest a little bummed too. Wouldn't mind going out that way for the week, considering I had all the details worked out, but am more than happy to stay here with the boys.

Received an update on my cousin today, he is in pretty bad condition, back in the hospital in ICU, apparently they cannot get his tempature stablized, they are afraid that the infection is going to get into his blood stream, it hasn't this far. He is a fighter, they have made the decision not to do any further resusciation, because he has already been through so much in this short period of time since the accident - they are going to leave it up to his body & the good lord now. One way or another, poor guy has been through alot, he weighed around 175 and is now down to 98 lbs, since being in the hospital. This is not how he would want to live his life. At this point, we will just keep praying!!!

Well I best get back to work...

9/12/09

Sep 12 2009 07:46

Good Morning!!!

Today I am feeling a bit better.

Yesterday, food wise was pretty good. Didn't have a chance to go on my wog, but it's OK.

What I did do, is take the time to remember 9/11/01. I actually had Brody son sit down with me and I explained to him what happened on this day a few years before he was born. We watched several vidoes on the internet, so he could actually see and understand why the day was a sad day in history. He was really interested in watching and I do believe that he truly understands, maybe not exactly the way we as adults do.

But afterwards, we took the time to buy a cup of joe for a troop overseas & show our appreciation for everything they do. We added a note that said thanks & that we are behind them 100%, they are always on our minds.

So with all that being said, I think that really helped me feel a little better. Sure it's a small jesture, but just knowing that someone overseas knows that we are all behind them & support them, makes a world of difference.

Anyway, other than that nothing too exciting happened yesterday.

Today the dog is being groomed at 10, she needs a hair/furcut really bad.

Talk to you guys soon!!!!

9/11/09

Sep 11 2009 07:47

Good Morning!

Lets start off with information on my weight - lets see, it's been a pretty good week eating/exercising wise.

I haven't lost anymore weight yet, but patiences is important in this just as everything else in life.

So yesterday during my lunchtime jog, I almost stepped right on a snake, I freaked out, sure it was a small snake & I didn't even realize what it was until it curled up to attack me, but I still freaked out & ran faster - this is a good thing I presume.

Then when the boys got home, we all ate a nice dinner & they went to the neighbors to have a bond fire. I really wasn't up to it, so I decided to stay home, I jumped on the trampoline for additional exercise & also did some ab exercises. I feel a little sore today, but that's only because I haven't done any sort of consistant exercises in a little while.

Anyway, I am still in a funk... I am not sure how to break out of it, normally I only have these types of feelings during PMS, but that can't be it this time, it's gotta be something else. I know I'll shake it. Hopefully, I'll have a great weekend & everything will be better by Monday, but we'll have to see.

I think I am going to work on organizing my house & maybe rent a few movies from the Red box with the boys. That should be fun!

OK I must get back to work, I am a little behind with everything that's been going on this week... Talk to you soon!!!!

Oh & really quick, as far as the facebook thing goes, I normally have a hard time declining friend requests, I feel bad. But yesterday I went through & deleted several friends from facebook & also deleted some phone numbers out of my phone. I am even thinking about changing my phone number, but not too sure I want to take this funk quite that far.

9/10/09

Sep 10 2009 07:45

Thank you for reading my last night entry. Honestly, somedays I feel so overwhelmed and sometimes my reasoning doesn't even make sense to me.

Anyway, today is a new day - a fresh start.

"If you can't change your fate, change your attitude"

So last night being in the funk that I was, I really started deleting people from my life. Deleted phone numbers of people I don't want to hear from & if I do hear from them, even though I wont know which person is calling, I will know enough not to answer since their phone number is no longer in my phone. I will also be deleting people from my facebook. You know the one person I'd like to erase most is Billy, too bad that is one person I can't delete - Ugh!!!

I think part of my problem this week is that I haven't been able to sleep, so I am extremely sleepy.

Yesterday's meeting with the boss & the University of Pitt went rather well. I am so glad I have a boss who understands everything that I am doing. She is an amazing boss to have and I am very fortunate.

My weight is holding steady at the lower number, which leaves me to believe that it is a number that is here to stay - Hooray!!!! Now to make it even lower. I will have the opportunity to go for a wog at lunch, which I plan on doing & I have decided that I am going to be hitting the gym starting tomorrow 3 days a week. Monday, Wednesdays & Fridays will be gym days working on strength, with a daily lunch wog - as long as it isn't a travel week.

In 2 weeks, I am getting ready to head to Washington State for work, leaving Sunday night & not returning until Friday night. It's going to be a rough week - especially since the boys will be staying with the neighbor - although I know that I have the best neighbor in the world, who also happens to be a certified childcare provider, it's still rough leaving your children for an entire week. But I have to do it to be able to provide for them. This will be the first time I will be traveling during the school year.

That will also provide a new challenge, with being able to work-out during my trip so I can stay focused. Although most hotels have a gym - I won't be able do my outside wog during lunch. Things will work out, as long as I am determined not to mess up while I am away & just eat whatever. Haha!!!!

I think I just need to refocus on myself for a little while & things will work out, once I feel better about myself, I won't feel so bad about everything else. Does that make sense?