jmg0237's Journal

Chinese Food, my one true weakness

Oct 07 2008 12:37

Well, that's not actually true. I do have a weakness for Chinese food, but I would have to say that french fries would probably be the one food that I am missing the most, and has always been the one that I seem to cheat on my diet with. I just love them. But today I had brought my lunch (leftovers from last night, well portioned with some veggies), but as usual, I started getting cravings. This time it was for chinese food. This was around 10AM, so naturally it starts to build when lunch time rolls around. I ate my snack, but an hour later, bam, there was the craving again. Not that I'm saying all Chinese food is bad for you, it's just that I happen to like large amounts of it. Luckily though, my sensible side kicked in and I went ahead and ate my leftovers, which weren't so bad. So not only did I eat my healthy meal which I already knew the calories for, I didn't spend money.

Money has been such an issue lately. Luckily things are easing up on that end, and if I continue to bring my lunch I end up saving a small chunk of change. It might not be a lot, but every little bit helps (my average meal is about $4.50 to $7.00, so I could end up spending anywhere from 25 to 35 dollars a week.)

I'm also beginning to feel calmer. Things aren't stressing me out as much as before. Hopefully I can relieve more stress with the exercise I am doing. I didn't feel like walking yesterday, so I just got on my stationary bike for a bit while I watched tv. However, today I am going to walk cause I kind of missed that freedom that comes with it. Being out in the open, the option to take a different path if I want. It's a nice feeling. I am a bit sleepy though, so I might take a nap beforehand. I really shouldn't though, cause my sleep hours are so messed up, but again, that is my fault for being stubborn and staying up so late. It's my next bad habit to change, and I know I can do it.

Well, that is all for now, but I'm sure I will have plenty more to say later.

Return to Myself

Oct 06 2008 09:35

Well what can I say. It has been such a battle these past few months, with work, fatigue, illness, depression, that I lost track of myself and my goals. But somehow through it all, I finally reached the 245 mark, which brings my total weight loss to 44lbs. My next goal is 225 (I am going in 20lb. increments). Right now, I fit comfortably in size 40 jeans, and I can actually close some of my size 38 pants without having too much of my stomach peel over. Some have agrued that means that I am actually a size 38, but I prefer my jeans and such to fit a little looser.

I also started my walking routine again. Every morning I park across the street from my building and walk to my office. This gives me about 700 steps going, and another 700 coming back. I'll admit that after lunch I park my car closer, but I do plan on going back to where I wouldn't do that so much. Then, in the evenings I walk about 2 to 2.5 miles. I want to get back into weight training and such, but I didn't want to jump into anything too soon. I wanted to just get into some routine again, so I figured I would start slow, then work my way up. This is especially because my personality has not been at it's most stable right now, and I knew if I began to see working out as a chore that I would totally stop before any results took place.

I also decided to stop reminding myself about how skinny I used to be and focus on how much I have progressed since I first saw the scale hit 289. It's difficult, because I do remember, but it won't help me in the long run. Instead, putting on clothes that didn't fit but now do actually helps me a lot more.

Well, enough of my rant.

Focus

Jun 11 2008 11:51

I am having a hard time focusing today. I was off for a couple of days from work, which was fantastic because I actually feel like I got the rest I needed. However, last night I had trouble sleeping again, and only got about maybe 4 to 5 hours. My mind tends to race too much, and I just want to get up and do something, which sometimes involves eating. Sometimes I'll just lay there, which doesn't help cause all I'm thinking about is why I can't sleep. Then I wonder why I just don't go on the computer or something, but I'm afraid to overstimulate myself and will stay awake longer. It is affecting my weigth loss, but only number wise. Size wise, I am fitting into pants that I haven't been able to button in two years. When I first posted something about this, I hadn't mentioned the pants caused I just figured if the number wasn't dropping, the waist probably wasn't either. How wrong I was. I find this all very strange, but will welcome the pants fitting over the scale dropping any day.

1 more pound

Jun 04 2008 11:15

I've lost another pound. I'm thrilled, but a little bummed that I really haven't been putting much of an effort with my working out. I was streched to the limit last week at work, and I got sick over the weekend. So my energy level wasn't necessarily where it could have been. Before that, I was on a road trip for work, and didn't get to my hotels till around 9 or 10, and would have to be up super early the next day, so I skipped on the walking or going to the fitness center. LOL, it's funny cause the one time I finally got to the hotel early, their center was under repairs. I didn't feel comfortable walking around outside since I didn't know the area, so I just kind of explored the hotel and such. I do plan on getting back to it, but I just having such a tough time. Luckily, my eating habits are getting better, so even if it's just a pound, I'm happy.

Finally, the plateau is over!!!

May 15 2008 11:06

I lost 2 pounds!!! After 3 weeks of nothing, the scale finally went in the right direction, lol. Well, I have noticed that my stomach is not sticking out as much, even with the stalling in weight, so maybe people are right. Maybe the number is what counts at all.

Gained a Pound

May 10 2008 13:56

After thinking I was doing well yesterday, I went to a get together where drinking was invovled. I'm not much of a drinker, so I politely refused all offers, knowing the calories involved. However, in order to do so, I hit the sandwhich and food trays pretty hard. When I woke up today, I was a pound heavier. I'm pretty sure it wasn't from just last night, but I can't say I was good all week. I guess I am just complaining to complain, because seeing how sill I sound in words is more eye opening than how I sound in my head. So now I will pick myself up and go back to losing!!!! Weight I mean.

Refusing to emotionally eat

May 09 2008 14:15

Today was a very dramatic day at work. Things happened, and someone quit over it. Even though I was on the sidelines of it, I was still completely taken aback. When that happens, I tend to want to over eat. A LOT. I can't help it sometimes, the food somehow distracts me from the things that are bothering me. The taste, smells, and sensations give me lots of happiness. I am happy to report that that while I did drive around in search of food, I didn't give in. I remembered that all my hard work worth something you can't control. So I went back to my office, ate my sandwhich, and had lunch at my desk.

At work

May 08 2008 12:53

Right now I am sitting here at work wondering if I selected the right activity level. I don't like to think of myself as sedentary, however it has occured to me that I do work in an office and although I do walk to get to places, I am still in my office. At home, I move around, but I also sit and watch tv a lot, and am always on my laptop. But I still get up to clean (not every second, but some of the time), plus I still have my nightly chores, which include feeding the dogs, taking out the trash, etc. I also try to exercise at least three times a week. So I figured that makes me a light activity. But the descriptions don't seem to mix and match, so I am utterly confused.