justice4me's Journal

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Nov 10 2009 18:45

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Nov 10 2009 18:45

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Aug 18 2009 00:58

dinner:  stir-fry melons w/ shrimps

              rice/  2 crab rangoons w/o the fried part as possible / some dates / half a banana

               milk tea w/ lots of jelly (konjac?)

so far...
Aug 12 2009 04:22

past sat and sun, no binges; a first since forever and yesterday went well, but today i had 12oz of frozen yogurt and then 2 rather large croissant sold by Costco, but had hula hoop for 2 hours tonight.

tomorrow will have to go on elliptical for at least an hour.

Hawaiian potato chips were so good too bad you couldn't try some because i ate it all
May 22 2009 22:24

i binged on the entire bag which was worth 1200 calories! and i had an earlier binge at lunch with croissant intertwined with ham and cheese, 3 cookies, more bread...i think i'm gaining a pound a day now...

what should i do about the chips, i can't purge if my life depended on it.  i can't work out long or hard enough.  I can under eat tomorrow though.

fucking horrible binge
May 04 2009 22:52

breakfast - papaya 3 slices

snack- banana

lunch - 2 cups of rice with veggies and chicken

BINGE from 12pm to 7 pm

-8 snickerdoodle cookies from fresh & esay (1280 calories)

-carl jr's chili cheese fries (990)

-3 subway cookies (500)

-twix (280)

total calories from binging = 3050 calories !

and plus papaya and lunch would be over 3500!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel like absolute shit, i'm supposed to be focusing on losing not gaining.  every time i've had like 3 cookies i feel so gross out, but like 3 hours later i see the cookies and want to eat it again , why?!

now i have to go for a walk, some jogging, and running while i'm so behind in reading and for sociology class.  this is what binge eating does, it kills the precious time that is suppose for productivity and healthy calories.

i didn't purge though, yesterday i did after ice cream, some rice, and cookies.  my stomach felt so sick and i want to purge now, but it's been so many hours i don't think i can.

mission fail: food plan
May 02 2009 20:06

breakfast - kiwi 50

lunch - chicken soup w/ veggies 150

          - small orange 60

snack - 2 chocolate bars (740 calories! I was starving, so...)

dinner - small orange 60

           -beef and chicken and mushrooms 150

           - cup of rice 250

lesson:  always bring a piece of fruit JIC. 

             -chocolate made me feel sick and dirty

MAY 1 FRIDAY
May 02 2009 02:26

BREAKFAST - OATMEAL W/ FLAXSEED

LUNCH- LETTUCE

           -2 OZ WHITE CHICKEN MEAT

           -SOUP WITH LOTUS

SNACK - 72% DRK CHOCOLATE (500 CALORIES)

DINNER - SMALL ORANGE

              - 7 SMALL SCALLOPS

              - VEGGIES

              - SOUPS WITH LOTUS

april 29 food log
Apr 30 2009 03:22

breakfast - oatmeal w/ flaxseed

snack - dried fruit candies

lunch - 9 shrimps w/ 1/2 c. of white rice

snack - nature valley bar (2)

dinner - 70 percent dark chocolate bar

           - grapes and veggies

no workout
Apr 29 2009 00:22

today was good in terms of eating.

b/f- oatmeal

lunch-3 cups of papaya

snack-large apple

dinner-shrimps, boiled veggies

but step aerobics was cancelled.  so there was no working out today.  i missed thurs also and we only have this class twice a week, so i basically missed a week of aerobics, but i was actually dreading it today even though i know it would be good for me, but had i known today was no class, i show up last week.

my test came back and i got an incredibly humiliating low score, i don't even think i pass it.  what's worse is that when i look back at the results, i knew the right answers to the ones i missed because of reading the assigned pages while i had to do my paper for the same class.  i should have started my paper early and counted my researching and reading for the paper as studying for the test and that would have saved me so many points.  too late now.