k192's Journal

tired and sad
Jul 16 2009 08:45

I haven't been sleeping now for about 3 weeks.  I can get a few hours on some nights.  Today my mood is down.  The dr. started me on medication that has the side effect of gaining weight.  I think I would rather not sleep then gain all my weight that I've lost back.  I've already gained 7 lbs. baack.  I promised my self that I would weigh less then 200 lb.s by oct..  That is my sons wedding.  My daughter got married last year and I looked terrible as the mother of the bride.  God I don't know what to do.  When I don't sleep I crash.  I don't want to crash and end up in the hospital again.  Since my daughters wedding I had lost 32 lbs before this weight gain.  Of course my self worth is worthless right now.