kankan213's Journal

Nov. 9

Nov 09 2009 08:39

Helloo and goodmorning Monday!

I woke up very tired for some reason this morning. Anywho-

Yesterday's cals: 1,556
Yesterday's exercise: 4 miles/free weights

Not too shabby, although Halloween candy has already gotten the best of my today and it's not even noon (:-x) oh well, I have plenty of time to redeem myself.

So far I have 740 calories, but I have time to exercise and eat good! I also would thoroughly enjoy a NAP!!!!!

So it's only 5pm but I've (thanks to Halloween candy >:( ) already had my max. calories for the day. Maybe after the gym I can have something small with protein, but until then no more food. Total cal: 1,806 I think.

Going to the gym soon! Then Broncos game! :)

Have a great day everyone!

Ran 2 miles/Stair-stepper 20 min/ Upper body&abs. Made me super hungry so I ate again :-X

Total Cal: 2,155. It's okay because I was pretty active today and I woke up earlier than normal. I'll cut back a little tomorrow, or work out a little extra. Plus I lifted today, I'm kinda trying to build muscle. . .

November 7, 2009...it's been a while!

Nov 07 2009 23:09

Well it has been quite a while, hasn't it!

I sort of fell off the wagon 100%, then pulled myself back up and tried to get back to where I was before I fell. It's taken some time, and I haven't completely lost the weight I gained but I'm at 133, so I'm close. I look pretty good and healthy, I just want to be "fit" again.

This ^ is my and my boyfriend (it's been almost 7 months and over a year since me and Jerod broke up) and he makes me feel great. He's so fit and active, and he cooks me healthy meals! He is my inspiration to get back to where I was so that we can be physically healthy together!

All in all over the past 3 months I have worked 40 hours a week, two internships, and school full time. I found out I won't be graduating on time (blah) I will be returning in 2010 for one class. But I'm okay with that, just buyin myself more time before the realworld kicks in.

I'm back to waitressing, but I've been having a hard time getting motivated to work out, which is VERY unlike me.

I have set some new goals for the new happy me:)

Cut back on CRAP food; candy, pastries, desserts in general
Cut back on drinking (which I already have, but need to continue)
Get moving! Go to the gym!
Get shit done, school wise
Plan, be organized, keep my life in order
Be happy :)
Check in with CC!
1600 cal/day, try to make the most out of my intake- eat to live healthy!

I'm ready. Bring it on world!

Today's calories: 1,659
Today's exercise: 3 miles/calisthenics

7/9

Jul 09 2009 15:17

Ohhh how I LOVE summer!!!!

Although, I work too much. Yesterday was a FAB day! I slept in with my baby boy, went to lunch with my best friend, rode my bike all the way to the pool where I soaked up some sun and played sand vball (which apparently I SUCK at) but it was oh so fun! Then I took a nap and went out! Drank, but not too much (well.. maybe a little too much :) ) but no drinking for the next 6 days as I will be downtown dog-sitting for the rents. And working. Lots of working.

Losing weight and feeling fit. I worked out for 2 hours today and I can feel myself getting lean again. Hard again, not so soft and squishy!

Does anyone know any exercises to tone thighs? Mine are really big (thunder-thigh ish) and I know I can't spot reduce but maybe if I firm them up then they will not rub together!? lol. help me out here ladies

Umm............. now I am off to work at el restaurante. I work in the office at my internship the next 5 days in a row before a day off . sadface. but its good for me to keep me in line!

XO love ya ladies!

7/7

Jul 07 2009 19:43

Ok so obviously I CANNOT keep up with this journaling thing lol, but I have been doing good stll. Lost around 5lbs. Woop! And I have been working out very good also. Eating less, and more nutritious things. Still drinking but cut to 1 day a week/weekend ish. Which is much better than 5 or so lol gotta love college.

Still got some more to go- but mainly I'm happy with feeling healthy. Thats what really matters- not the number. The feeling of making good choices! The number is just a bonus.

Cheer on girls!

5 days later. 6/28

Jun 28 2009 18:00

I feel so busy. All the time.

I have ate TOO much in the past 5 days, but I refuse to reflect on it.

I will work out today really really good.

And move on.

Need to fit into my pants lol

6/23

Jun 23 2009 09:39

I didn't have time to write yesterday- and not to mention that I ate teriible. I had fried chinese food, and I binged the night of the 21st really bad.

Here's my trigger= weighing. As soon as I weigh myself if I don't see what I want to, I throw up my hands and stuff my face. Time to STOP that.

Worked out really hard yesterday. will today too.

Toast-45
Naturally more- 170
Small piece of choc cake (stupid roommates!!!!!!!)-250
some chicken nachos that I got for free. Stupid free food! But I didn't have that much so I'll round to like 300?
OK so that all lead to some CRAPPY eating.

grapes-150
M&M's- 440
Chex Mix- 1,080 AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! FML. Nooooooooooo!

Post work-out- Silk-156
Grapes- 120
Some extra cals that I am pretty sure I ate somehow-200?
total:2,911. FML. EFFFFFFFFFFF!

I need to get myself under control. I am going to assume that I overestimated, but that its pretty close to accurate. Luckily I ran 6 miles today and did 40 minutes on the elliptical. So I burned about 1,000 calories at the gym and I worked at a restaurant today for about 4 hours.

CONTROL KERRIE!!!!!!!!!!

I bought a lot of fruit today. :)

time for work at the restaurant!

6/21

Jun 21 2009 18:00

Another long day at (and around) the office. I actually was up and standing a majority of the day. So not only am I exhausted because it was FINALLY nice out, but I have a farmers tan because unfortunately employees cannot wear swimsuits to work :( lol.

Anywho, ate a lot less today because of the weather, but some accidentally high cal. stuff!

Dazbog- 200
Yogurt from sunflower market w/ peaches DELICIOUS!-140
plum-30
Fiber1bar-140
10oz of green tea frapp (I threw it out after I looked up the cals)-220 yikes
peanut M&Ms (I couldn't resist!)- 220
handful of nuts-150
carne azada & veggies-300
handful of cheese puffs (my mom is addicted to them so they are always in the house. ugh!)- 150
regular coffee w/s/f creamer-30?
total: 1,360 ish? Round to 1,400. And I am not eating anymore today I am absolutely not hungry. It's probably the weather.

But I won't work out either, I am going to go lay down and drink unsweetened Tea and watch Daisy of Love. ha!

oh and I ended up run/walking 5 miles last night :))

6/20

Jun 20 2009 22:18

Wooh long day at the office. Ate pretty bad.

PB substitute- (Naturally More)- 300
Crackers- 300
small piece of cake- 250
granola bar-130
chicken tenders (got them for free at work)-400
honey mustard dipping sauce- 50
caramel apple with peanuts (hey, i got it for free)-190
carne azada fajita (my dad made it for me) with lots of guac- 350?
total: 1,970. . . I think this is all that I ate, but I might have estimated wrong so anywhere between 1900-2100 is my GRAND TOTAL.

:((

i am very obviously out of shape looking. You cant see any definition in my stomach anymore and it sticks out like a potbelly. It is very VERY disheartening. I really wish that results came faster, but I know I didn't put 18lbs on over night. So I know that they won't come off over night.

But I need a way to speed this process up, because as of right now I think I am still going backwards.

It is 10:24 pm but I am debating walking on the treadmill for like an hour or something just to rev. the metabolism since I sat in an office all day. (10-9)

6/19

Jun 19 2009 18:45

Will be drinking tonight more than likely. Still didn't drink yesterday though. Foot still hurts A LOT.

Coffee (french vanilla creamer)-100
egg- 60
1 egg white- 20
Bread- 45
Jelly-50
fiber 1 bar- 140
yoplus vanilla-110
strawberries!- 70
Quiznos sub (turkey on wheat with cheddar and no mayo!)- 320
sunchips harvest cheddar- 210
naturally more (pb substitute)-200
crackers-200
funsize M&M's (woops)x2-180
total: 1,655
+500 alcohol. Maybe 600.

total- 2,255. I DID 60 75 MINUTES CARDIO.
I feel like I've eaten a TON! I want to go to the gym but I am not lifting today. Just cardio. I've lifted like 3 days in a row, so I'm not going to today. But I want to do at least 60 min. of cardio, then I won't feel so bad for drinking tonight. Maybe I'll just pretend to be super drunk so people won't peer pressure me into drinking a ton of calories :) I shouldn't have had the crackers/pb but oh well, mini-binge. At least I stopped myself. I might have had more cals than that, but one step at a time. Now its time to go kick my own butt at the gym.

:) Still up 18lbs. WOOPS!

6/18

Jun 18 2009 11:45

I need to be more careful of what I buy at the grocery store! No drinking tonight. Might head home (to the parents).

Woke up pretty early today so the boy could go play hockey. I don't want to work tonight :( boo!Better hit the gym soon.

subway oven roasted chx breast- 350
dark choc almonds- 310
wasabi mix- 500? Sort of binged the hell out of this. But I threw the rest away. (pre-workout food!)
soyjoy- 140 (post workout food!)

Now I have to get ready for work :( I didn't work out very hard but it is because I haven't taken a day off of the gym in over a week. But tomorrow will be my day off probably. And I have to go bust my ass at the restaurant I work at to make up for the slack job that I did Tuesday. :( I am a very hard worker so I have to bust it out so that they can see how good I am!

Who knows what tonight will bring. No drinking for me though.