kardio_queen's Journal

Clarity

Nov 06 2008 10:12

Some major changes I have brought to my life. I startyed to take care of my mentalhealth and I feel proud of being able to recognize that I need help.

I also meet a new guy and I like him. Maybe because that I know that we have no bad history together and we are writing a new story.

I started theraphy and I a finding myself able to brake down thing in a better way.

My communication has improved and on the same token I hae been spending time with James an dhe is beoming the same person that I fell in loe with, I know he is just working things to his advantage.

I spoke with a lady at the gym and she offer to be my accountability partner for the guym so that I can make it to the gym earlier and get my wrk ut on and effectively.

Zombbie

Oct 13 2008 15:12

Today, I fee emotinless,, I should walk like this and stay with out emotion a bit longer. That way I have the ability to think and take action with a much clearer mind. I feel like I am going crazy. The man that I have feelings for does not want to be with me in the level that I feel that I need him to. I had a very thought time yesterday having to face reality once more. he came around and I did not walk away the way I should off have. But for now,,its all done and I need to now face thos scraped emotions that took me 2 weeks to control and tamme. I need a clear prespective. I need to love myself and know that no one else would ldo that for me unless I start myself.

Another day in paradise!!!!

Sep 25 2008 16:37

Life can reallythrow curves at you they say..

Well today I feel very succeptive,, not to mention exhausted. I have been excersicing all week and my legs are tired. I teach bellydancing twice a week and excercise the rest of the week just because I have nothing better to do. everything else is just socializing and everyone just wants to drink alcohool.

I like that ,, but is starting to get old and I just want toeat healthy and be rested.. I am tired, I am afrtaid to weigh myself. I had smart lipo 6 months ago and I am going for my follow up check up on Monday. I am a bit displesed because the results are not completely the way i was expecting, however I still have 6 more months to hopefully see more results.

ANOTHER ATTEMPT.

Sep 22 2008 13:58

It is 3 days after my 36th birthday. I am re-tunning my goals for this year. Yes mine starts on my b-day not on new year's..

I want to be more concious about whatI eat and focus on my portion and calorie intake in order to achieve my goal that is 123. I want to look good in a mini skir and not be self-conscious about the extra love handle ..