katie_baby's Journal
@%$&*^#&% HELP!! May 16 2009 20:35
HOLY SHIT. you dont even know. I just typed the LONGEST thing on here. Like a fucking desperate cry for help and just as i finished the page started messing up and then spontaniously closed on me! LOL.
dude i can't even feel sorry for myself! blah lol. Really guys it was like a novel. WEll actually it was only a few paragraphs.. but basically.
Let me attempt to sum it up. I've been eating nothing but horribly unhealthy food for like a week. and i cant stop. And I am SO sick of hating myself for getting this fat. I think it should be easy to lose this weight. because i want it SO much. but still i keep getting in my own way. Like I'm the only thing stopping myself from success in weight loss right? so i should just be able to buckle down and get out of my own way.. but i cant. or should i say i WONT. l I also had like a paragraph about how much it drives me crazy to get on the groups on here and read a post by a 13 year old 5'5 girl who thinks shes fat cause she weighs 95 pounds! please tell me you guys know the posts I'm talking about. when theres just these young girls who hate their bodies just because it seems to be what all women do these days. it just drives me crazy!
ok basically i just really neeed support from anyone willing to give it. and let me just say that it is very easy for me to feel completly empowered and think its totally possible for me to lose weight.. but usually only when i'm full LOL.
anyways, trust me the one i previously wrote was filled with alot more rambling and alot more self pitty.. but that one got deleted when i was seconds away from posting it! my head almost exploded lol. but this ones alot more calm. I know i just need to be rational right?
anyways.. If you took the time to read this THANK YOU very much! and if you actually have advice THANK YOU EVEN MORE!!
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I know the kind of girls you are talking about. ha. But yeah you can do it, I know its hard to start but once you quit eating the junk you will begin to feel so much better and that should drive you to continue. I am struggling with the same thing almost its just hard I know! But anyway good luck! |
those people that think they are fat and weigh 95lbs are the ones the guys date.......?............ill never get it |
u pretty |
i read that post by that girl and it reallllly pissed me off. They just do it to make themselves feel better because they know if they put that on here where people who are actually overweight see it and feel like shit it puts them on a 'bitch-high'. |
yeah i know those girls! pisses me off too! but anyway working out supposedly gets you inshape fast but the thing is you have to mach yourself get off your ass and go *lame* but really once you start going it becomes a habbit. you could try joining a gym but good luck with motivation. i'll be here for you xoxoxox |
I totally understand what you mean by you're the only thing in your own way of loosing the weight!! ME EXACTLY! LOL. I don't want anything at all in this world as bad as losing this weight but yet I stuff my face and wait for another day to eat healthy. I suck at life. but thanks for adding me as a buddy! Talk to me anytime! |
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