katie_baby's Journal

so its been a while
Jul 17 2009 16:25

since i got on here and really got into it. i dont know why but for a while now there has been something almost depressing about this site for me. and its soo funny because i used to feel like it gave me hope or something. i dont know. but anyways i've been just trying to log on occasionally to reply to some messages and see how the people who've been writing me are doing. today though, i got on and i really liked being on here again. i really couldn't tell you why. But suddenly there just arent enough messages in my inbox and i miss my groups and its a pretty decent feeling.

i am started to see, though, that i don't talk to the same people i did when i first started using this site. and i miss them. oh gosh and i just wish that my, as we so often call it "weight loss journey" was over. I feel like i'm never going to get there. and maybe i'm not. i mean not everyone who wants to lose weight does. I'm gonna keep trying though.. cuz what else could i possibly do? I'm not ok with myself and i'm not ok with self loathing, lol.

anyways, as usual, i could still use all of your support and i hope you'll message me.

and as always, good luck!!