klee11's Journal

word.
May 10 2009 07:52

Everybody has some word of advice to offer.  We have all experienced different things, therefore,  believe that we know how to deal/ not deal with certain situations.    Here is my word.....   and I hope, even if I dont change your actions,  that you take two minutes just to think about what Im saying.

And yes,  it is about all of our favorite topic:  FOOD.    (Im not in anyway way in the medical field,  this is just what I have learned,  and what has worked for me... )

Im sixteen years old,  I have my entire life ahead of me.   I have so many opportunities available and I work hard at everything I do.    But the second my little life wasnt 'perfect'  anymore,  it litterally spiraled out of control. 

I believe that it all started with an injury, one that took me out of crosscountry.  (very tramatic)     I was used to eating 3000+  a day because,  well,  I could.   Then it was court between my parents,  deciding where I was going to go to school.  (ended up switching).   

I'll skip alot of the other stuff that happened,  but as you can see,  my life was changing.... very quickly.   I am not one who couldnt really handle the idea of such a radical change in my life.   So I continued eating,  I couldnt exercise, and I became severly depressed.

I started to truely hate myself.   My mom saw this,  and tried to help.   We were going to try to lose weight together.   Neither of us really stuck to it,   even though she lost alot in the first week.    She apparently felt guilty.

So then she decided that she would take it a step farther,  and teach me about dietpills, laxatives, and how to fast.   I did plenty of research on the internet,  and I did everything in my power to lose weight.    

No matter what I tried,  it always ended in binges,  crying, and self hatred.      This cycle continued for 5 months (this past winter),   I ended up 14 pounds heavier with stretch marks all over my legs.

Then I finally had enough.  I was ready for change.   I started looking up ways for 'self-help' and reading books that changed my outlook on dieting and life.   

I realized that obsessing over food and eating till your sick isnt any way to live.   Its horribly mean, and unhealthy.  IT will eventually consume every fiber of your being.

This is how I changed.   I EXERCISED!!!!!!!   please, please, please,  stop starving and just exercise.    It improves you mood,  and outlook towards your diet and life.    And I get to eat anywhere from 1200-1800 calories a day,  and I have been loosing a pound about every three-seven days.  The main difference is that I've stopped eating all carbs, and have added soooo many fruits and vegetables into my diet.  Really,  it has changed my life... when I was restricting,  I wouldnt have enough energy to exercise.    Now,  I cant believe that I ever stopped.

Hopefully this little story didnt turn into a ramble,  and I really hope that it made a little sence to someone.