kpearson's Journal

Can you see your body?
Jun 21 2009 20:41

I'm watching this television program called "Bulging Brides" and there is this really adorable Bride to be who wants to cut down her dress size and get healthier over all before her big day. Now. I'm looking at her thinking. "She's pretty small as it is. I'm around her size." So they take her measurements...she's 42-40-42 (or something around there). My measurements are 34-27-37. Why can't I see what my actual size is? I was freaking out so much in Maine (I'm on a vacation for a week in Maryland right now) thinking I had gained sooo much weight since I haven't been riding my bike all around like I was when I was living in Austin. I only gained about 4 pounds (And this could be high considering I weighed myself in the middle of the day and on very little sleep). But regardless I'll tone up and that'll come right off once I start running/biking around Portland. There's a part of me that knows I'm a small lady. I eat healthy. I'm pretty hyper and usually really active. Why can't I see it when I look in the mirror?

Does anyone have any tips on seeing your body for what it really is? Does anyone else struggle with this?