krogal's Journal

Need some advice.
Aug 09 2009 21:41

i seem to have some trouble with constipation. I don't understand it. I eat pretty much nothing but lean protein and complex carbs. Lots and lots of vegetables and a good amount of fruits. I also add flaxseeds to my salads. I drink a lot of water and get plenty of exercise (maybe not as much as I'd like to right now, but this still holds true). Some how I get constipated ALL the time. I don't understand it.

Is there something wrong with me? Am i doing something wrong? Does anyone have any advice?

I've been gone.
Jul 31 2009 10:30

I am back now. I went through a couple weeks of really tough and stressful crap with school, so then i decided to take a quick get away to the mountains in North Carolina. I just got back last night. We went camping on Lake Fontana, ran into a whole lot of spiders, lots and lots of rain, and got bitten by a tick. However, we did a lot of hiking and that was great. it felt great when Jordan started whining that he couldn't go any further and I was still feeling spritely and able. He got upset and said "well, i'm not in shape like you are."   That felt good too. I may have put a couple pounds back on, but I'm able to climb up mountains like never before.

I picked and ate some widely blueberries. That was awesome.

Well now I am back and ready for creating a seriously awesome lifestyle.

I feel like i've lost myself.
Jul 23 2009 22:17

and i don't know how to get back.

I can't keep sweets out of my mouth and i cant get up off the couch.

I've lost my power.
Jul 15 2009 09:26

I've been working on school work constantly for like three days now. Yesterday I stayed at home to work all day so that I could eat my food here instead of having to worry about what I would eat at school and having to pay money for it.

Well I sat on my couch all day working on the computer.

(In the morning I did go rollerblading on the trail, at least that's a success.)

I don't wan to be a negative nancy, but I do need to do some complaining.

I started out fine. I had some kashi go lean cereal before rollerblading and then my omelette after I showered. But then I was working so hard that I didn't want to put forth the effort to make my salad for lunch. I had some more cereal instead. It didn't do enough to fill me up so I ended up pigging out. First I had some nuts, then I went for a piece of dark chocolate (50 cals). I could have stopped there and not been miserable. But then I decided on a popsicle. Then like 3 sheets of low-fat graham crackers. Then I settled on a sugar-free pudding before I finally felt angry. 

So at that point I had been so horrible (and so pissed that I'm working so hard and I'm so stressed out because my project is due tomorrow) that my friends came over to cook dinner and work on our projects, but we ended up ordering pizza. The pizza was really good, but I should have made the effort and cooked the damn chicken and veggies. 

I feel horrible today. I dont even want to eat. I gained another pound. I only got to sleep for 4 hours and the whole time I was dreaming about doing work. It will be another night of no sleep tonight. I wont get to hit-up the gym today. I just feel like crap. I hate this. I want to be outside. The sun is shining. It's calling my name.

So today I got up. I made myself some green tea. I moved my dining table to a place where i can see the tv so I can work on that instead of on my couch. My place is a big mess (and that keeps me from being strong and positive, but I don't have time to clean it). But I'm going to control myself today. And I'm going to get my work done. And soon this will all be over and I can go to the beach every day.

Calories
Jul 13 2009 17:57

I've been stuck at home all day today because I've been suffering from neck pain since early yesterday. It's a weird muscle pain in my back between my shoulders and leading up to neck. It's probably from working on the computer all day. I feel horrible. I didn't even make it to yoga class today.I do still need to try to make it to the gym at some point tonight though.

I think I'm going to start counting my calories again. I think i'm eating the right things, just maybe too much of it.

So....
Jul 12 2009 11:26

I'm trying to be really positive and not let my weight bother me. However, in doing so, I have failed to lose any more weight. I'm still stuck between 118 and 120 every day for the past like..... 2 weeks. I need to get back to whatever it was that I was doing when I was losing weight. I really want to see the scale get down to 115 by the 20th. That gives me 8 days to lose 4 pounds. Can I do that?

I know that the scale says that I'm 119. ( I was 128 at the start of this). That's 9 pounds. I'm only 5'1" tall. I don't know if this is a lot of a little. I really really really want to be 110 pounds before school starts back in August. I need to focus on losing weight but I also have a HUGE amount of work that I really need to get done.

I need a kick in the butt.

I'm great.
Jul 10 2009 01:10

I first typed the title as "I'm going to be great."

But then i decided that was wrong. I'm not going to live my life determined to be great, to have greatness, or to live a great life. I'm just doing it. I'm never going to wish for something. I'm going to have it. 

I'm already realizing all of my goals. I'm paving the way for my own greatness. I'm achieving what I set out to achieve. I'm working hard to get to where I always knew I could be. Realizing this, just now, I feel fulfilled. I'm putting my trust in the universe and in myself. 

I have strength. I have power. I have a good head on my shoulders and a strong background. I have creativity and motivation. I have everything.

Yoga practice.
Jul 08 2009 14:25

Today I achieved my personal best in my yoga practice. I pushed myself to new limits and it felt amazing. I'm so happy.

I've been really focusing on staying positive. I've left myself notes on the bathroom and in my planner. I repeat "I have willpower and strength" as a mantra to myself throughout the day. I'm feeling good.

I'm thinking about becoming a vegan, but I am a little afraid. Of what? I don't know.

Even though the scale read as even 0.2 pounds more than yesterday (and yesterday was up some more from the day before) I'm staying positive and staying on track. I know I will achieve my goals.

Headache.
Jul 07 2009 21:54

I've had a headache for most of the day. It's not a migraine, thank goodness, but it's just been bothering me the whole time. I wish I knew why I got them, it really keeps me from getting all of my work done because I need to stay up and do some work but I really just want to crawl into bed.

I had a pretty successful day. I worked hard at the gym in the morning and kept my diet in the good range. I decided to go to dinner with my friends after class. We went to Pho-Quyen, second day in a row. I love that place. I order the Chicken Vermicili but I took almost all of the rice noodle things out and gave them to a friend. It was so good. I think that's the one bad thing I had today and it was only bad because of the small amount of noodle. Other than that I had my organic yogurt before the gym, egg white omelette with feta, black beans and tomatoes for breakfast, a salad with tofu and kidney beans for lunch, and fifteen cashews and a sugar free pudding for a snack, and then that vietnamese dinner. I'd say... pretty good.

Now i'm going to TRY to get some work done. I probably shouldn't have left the studio.

This is so annoying.
Jul 06 2009 15:29

It's going down.

But it also goes up.

Aside from that, I've had a pretty successful day so far. I actually got right up out of bed, maybe it's a mental thing or maybe it's because I didn't have any carbs or sweets yesterday (except for a piece of dark chocolate). I made it out to the trail and rollerbladed the 11 miles, no problem. Felt great and didn't even get winded. It was also really exciting because on weekdays there's not many people out there so the animals come out. I saw a wild turkey cross the trail right in front of me. Then two miles later there was a little baby coyote! That was so exciting! Then I went straight to ab attack at the school gym and I kicked some butt. I actually held my planks no problem. I'm feeling good. 

I'm just a little frustrated because during the week I manage to lose 2-3 pounds, but then after the weekend I gain it all back. So I spend the week working my ass off just to put it back on during the weekend. It's a horrible cycle. I'm going to battle that this week by actually doing workouts on Friday AND Saturday. No more time off. I think that's what's messing with my brain and keeping me from being successful.

Happy Monday!