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i've been binging for like a straight week now, i'm up to 136 from 132.. laaaame. gotta stop this.

my main problem is that my mom has been away for a month, so i've been eating not-so-healthy, and it eats up all my calories, so i'll have hit my 1500 quota by 3 pm and will be starving by 10 pm and binge.. so i need to eat healthier stuff, and space it out more.

k trueee, that's the plan.. starting now.

..how much i HATE plateaus. i've weighed like 132 for sooo long now and i'm tired of it. my eating disorder is still in my head a little, and i feel horrible about myself for not losing weight everyday, and i feel like i can see my body becoming fatter every day. i'm down 1 pant size, and i'm in the healthy weight range, but i still see myself as a fat whale. my head keeps telling me to just not eat for a day or two to break the plateau, ugh.