lilborykuamami's Journal

Venting about fiance!
Jul 04 2009 00:12

So, my fiance and I were TTC for 3 months before we got pregnant. We have been together for 4 1/2 years. It took me some time to convince him to start trying but he finally agreed! So how come he is acting like a dick now that I'm preggers!! When I 1st told him he wasn't very excited he seemed to be more worried about pending financial stress than the bundle of joy that would come. I guess maybe it is because he has a child from a previous relationship so he knows what it is to have a child and how it changes your life. This will be my first and I am over the moon! However he makes dumb ass comments like "I'm getting my balls cut off so I don't have anymore!" It drives me completely insane and honestly it is depressing! Sometimes I feel like he doesn't want this child! We were talking today about how we could save money and I suggested he sell his car and get a cheaper one and he told me "I wouldn't sell my car for you, my mother or this child!" I was like "Wow! Okay if that's how you fell no problem, I'll just sell mine then since you don't want to make any sacrifices!" I mean honestly if this were an unplanned pregnancy then maybe I would understand but this was planned!! WTF?!!! Ugh! I don't know if I'm just emotional from all the hormones or what but in the back of my mind I can't help but think that making a baby w/ HIM was a bad idea! I already knew he doesn't see his 1st child what makes me think things would be different w/ me!