m_c_85's Journal

MMM Sugar and Salt....

I just had to get that out. I have had a very bad craving for chocolate today, so I went out and bought a Coffee Crisp and I've got to say, it was amazing. Everything I wanted and more. What's more, it fits perfectly into my calorie count for the day. What ISN'T going to fit into my calorie count today is the 24 of beer I plan on drinking. (I am actually a wussy and will likely end up drinking 4 or 5 tops) but ATM I feel like I could drink a 24. My very boring job has come to a head with the week's end and I am pumped. I am going to make it my mission to walk all weekend. Walk everywhere. And when I have no where left to walk, I will go on the treadmill.

I have made a new mini-goal. It's not for reaching a certain weight, but a certain state of mind. When I feel comfortable with the way I look, I am going to go out and get professional head-shots of myself. Because I don't have any hot pics of myself to throw up on the Internet, or to send to relatives/ friends, etc. And I think the self done, holding the camera up while staring into it with the look of longing that so many people use is so tacky. Like pictures of people kissig their boyfriend/ girlfriend. I think the purpose of putting pictures on the Internet is to show people what you look like, not to show them how far you can stick your tongue down someone else's throat. I recently stumbled across a girl who couldn't have been much older than the age of consent, but she had pictures of herself and her very young boyfriend in their underwear rolling around like they were about to have sex. I was disgusted. It was like Child Porn posted on a website for calorie counting. Where is this girl's parents/ guardians? Where is this girl's decency? Messed up. Anyway, now that I've successfully gone down a completely unrelated tangeant, I am hopefully on track to weight loss. I can't wait for Tuesday, (may weigh in day). I want to see the numbers go DOWN! My motto for Day 12 is, "Restraint".