m_c_85's Journal

Back in the Game?
Jul 24 2008 13:21

Well here I am again. My slow and intermittent dieting has yielded a 27 lb loss, since May. Sounds good "on paper" but my impatience is peaking and I'm scared sh*tless that it will be the cause of a serious packing-on of pounds. Who knew trying to lose weight would literally be living second-to-second? I can't count how many times the warm, fuzzy thoughts have come of how quickly I could lose weight if I were bulimic, "just for a little while". I know, I know, that's a terrible way to think of it, and how could I be so cold when people are struggling to live, while fighting the addiction of weight loss. I tell you, 22 years of being fat and never having the self motivation to do anything about it, is how I can be so cold.

Not giving up.

Not going to the extreme.

Not going to have a heart attack about how much weight I haven't lost.

Not going to keep rambling.