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Hard to believe it is Friday!

It is so beautiful and tranquil outside as I look out my back window.  The birds are waiting to be fed (by my beloved who actually cuts up old bread with scissors for them).

Weighed in at 470.8 this morning.  Making slow progress but it is good since it is the downward direction.  I would love to end this year in the 50's.

UPDATE - 10:55 AM

I'm glad to get back to my routine tomorrow.  I really saw how messed up my eating can be when I don't have a plan.  My daughter and I decided to eat what we wanted over thanksgiving and tonight when we went to Zumba I felt I could hardly move!  It's only been a week and I was sweating up a storm (but was moving more than I have in the past I believe)

So, tomorrow - we're back to the 1600 calorie thing.  It was so much easier and took the guess work out of things - also - I think my system is not handling all the extra sweets (pumpkin pie, cheesecake, blueberry yum yum, peanut butter cookies and mints)  yuk - I'm done!!   those things taste good at the time, but the stomach problems and pooties afterward are for the  birds!

I can say that I didn't have those problems when eating sensibly and not having sweets.  It took me all yesterday and today to recuperate - and I'm finally ready to get some things done while on vacation this week.

I look forward to the day that I can say no to those foods upfront, so I don't have to live with the consequences.   I'm still learning!

Weighed in at 472.0 this morning. Once again a yo-yoing month of 480.4 being my highest.  Need to make December a much better month!

I did my inside exercises.  Laying down I did 4 different kinds of exercises (10x), sitting I did 4 leg exercises and 7 arm exercises (10x), I pedal pushed with my arms for 4 minutes and only could do 10 rotations with my feet forward and back.  My knee and back pain have been around an 8.5 since Thanksgiving Sunday.  I went out and walked 8 houses until my back started pinching and felt I better return home - so a total of 16 houses.

My pulse went up to 124 and my oxygen was 95%.  After 2 minutes my pulse had come down to 99 with oxygen at 96%.

2:00 PM I finally was able to get the right medication and took 50 mg. Triamadol.  I could take up to 2 pills but I haven't taken this medication for over a year and just want to take it slowly.

The swelling in my feet are slowly going down.

Oh and my son just told me starting January he wants to try vegan for the month of January.  Any recommendations?

All I've done is relaxed (OK slept) most of the morning away.  Listening to my son and husband discuss the editing of the 4 papers my son has due tomorrow when he was on a holiday break.

I woke up and weighed myself at 474.6 - so I have dropped some water weight.

Congratulations to all of you who have steadily had a decrease in your weight!

I had to face the music this morning.  Over the last few days my back has been acting up and hurting real bad. 

For the umpteenth time, here I go again!  No surprise to see my weight has climbed back up from 480.0 (9.4 gain since November 16th).  The plus size is I'm moving and mobility is getting better as each day goes by.

This morning I have started with an apple, cereal and 1/2 glass non fat milk.

I woke up this morning with my back really aching - already called the doctor to get some relief since Tylenol is not working!

After yesterday, lack of praise, my husband came in from work this morning praising me for picking up the newspaper and cleaning up the kitchen.  When my Physical Therapist came this morning she was so proud of my accomplishment.  She said Dr. Kodama would be very happy and proud too!  I've come along way over the last 2 1/2 years.  She even told JM tough love is good but I still need praise.  Andy did come in this morning saying good job because I had picked up the papers before he arrived home from work.  My back is giving me "fits" so I called the Dr. and have asked for some pain medication.  Been putting heat and resting so I will not be on the computer much!

Amilea from the 300+ group gave me a suugestion to write down my "Wow" moments on a card.  What an excellent idea!  I will start marking down my "Wow" moments where I was keeping track of my exercise (PT meetings).

Today is Thanksgiving, and I want you take a new twist on it this year. Be thankful for YOU, and how far you've come so far in your journey. Give yourself some props! If you're like me, you spend so much time throughout the year struggling with the day-to-day stuff. Then, come holiday time, when you should be celebrating, we're so tired we can barely get through the day! Listen, you know how much I love pushing you guys to the max, but the whole reason I do what I do is so that people can realize their full potential and be the best that they can possibly be.

So I'm going to keep this holiday note short and sweet (well, to the point at least). Today, and for these next few hectic weeks, look past the calories and exercise for once and focus on the real stuff. This is your life...your life! How far are you really going to go with an amazing body but zero confidence? Start working on the attitude to match the effort you're putting into this.

Lack of self-worth is the through line that makes so many people unhealthy and unhappy. For once in your life, make a choice to NOT let yourself be part of that statistic. If you don't like the situation you're in, then change it! Head for a healthy vacation instead of a stressful family reunion if you know it will knock you down a couple rungs on your ladder. Opt for a night out dancing with friends instead of going to another holiday party, laden with temptation and obligation. Make it a point to surround yourself with positive, strong people instead of allowing the same old naysayers to continue to beat you down with their negative energies.

Look, I know this might seem like a lot but think about it this way: Holiday after holiday, people are STILL making and throwing away the same resolutions. Happens every year, time and time again. Isn't it time to finally step up to the plate and make a real difference for yourself? So, in honor of the holiday season, celebrate you for once. Work hard, love hard and be happy. Make it so that, at the end of your days, you have something incredible to look back on. You're the only one who can make that happen. And you can be mighty thankful for that.

(A Different Reason for the Season: You 

From LOSING IT! With Jillian Michaels http://www.jillianmichaels.com/meet-jillian/free-newsletter. aspx

Thursday, November 26, 2009)

All night I dreamed of getting up and fixing a "turkey" dinner.  This was going to be a big deal for me because I have not made a turkey for the last 3 years because of my health.  I set my alarm for 6 am.  I wanted Andy to walk in the door and smell the food cooking.  I wanted him to be proud of me to have got up on my own. I found the folding chair and set it up in the kitchen.  I proceed to pull out the 10 pound bird and wash it.  Pulling out pans, preheating the oven, standing as long as I could and then I would sit down.  I made him stuffing and me my sweet potatoes.  After I straightened up the kitchen I went outside and got the newspaper.  I then went back to bed and dozed off.

Andy came in and I awoke.  You know not one word was spoken.  Instead he started opening up the house because it was warm.  Then little rants about the dogs peeing, etc.  He fixed me some breakfast but still not word.  Then I came out to the kitchen to check the time on the turkey.  He said you know what happened to me last night at work?  I said no - what.  Well, they had a turkey dinner waiting for the employees.  First my husband does not care for turkey and we had actually bought a ham for him and John Michael.  Andy only bought the turkey because I begged him for 2 days.  So with him walking into the house and smelling the turkey upset him.  Then he started pushing me to go walk.

My back was aching from the up and down and short walks.  Unless someone has walked in my shoes they will not understand the pain I am enduring.

Still no praise for getting up and cooking by myself.  Well needless to sayI started crying ... OK sobbing ... with Andy asking me what are you crying for?  In the meantime our son, is still sleeping (or at least in his room).

I withdraw ... then Andy keeps coming in every few minutes about trivial things.  He is trying to make small talk but I am not buying it.  I am hurt.  Doesn't he get it?  It was not even so much about the food but that I got up and did it by myself?

When JM finally got up - I was making the gravy.  Andy told him to help me and serve me.  We prayed - JM first, Andy and I could not be audible because I was fighting back the tears.  Needless to say we were watching the tale end of the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade pretty much in silence.

Andy is now in bed because he works tonight.  JM just finished helping me with the dishes and putting the food away.

Please do not get me wrong, I am thankful - especially from how far I have come in my health and mobility.  I just wish I had some encouragement from the men in my life instead of telling me what I need to do more.  Am I expecting too much?

Greetings from "windy" Southern California.  PT was cancelled today but Andy dragged me outside to walk.  We actually went up the steep incline and walked the path behind our home!  Huffing and puffing (but not blowing the houses down) I made it - I stopped at the bus stop for a 3 minute rest.  Some people came to get on the bus and I felt uncomfortable - I just wanted to get back to my house and "hide".  I have to accept yes, I am huge, and get over what people think.  I am getting out there and moving ... something I have not done in such a long time.