mabear32059's Journal
GRRR!Nov 08 2009 06:43
ok well its a whole lot more of the same. I put 9 pounds back on and am I feeling it. in my undies as I thought they were tightening but I didn't want to believe it in my shirts.... oh their just shrinking in the dryer. The painful realixation cam as I convinced myself to get back on the scale and verify what I already knew but couldn't stand to admit. Something is not working and I know a huge part is not making the me time to work out. Jess and I made a pact that after 50 pounds we go out and shop together for new clothes and hubby ok'd the plan... The sad truth is I don't think it would make a difference to me. I can't get over the feeling that I am not worth the time and effort. With my boys being outa control school is going south not feeling attractive no matter what I do or wear the sad truth is I fear I will die this way or worse. I just don't know what to do!
You can't give up when it leaves you unhappy! Besides, gotta' be somethin' Fishy to gain 9 in 10 days-- you'd kill yourself before you could eat enough calories to gain so fast, lol! Salt and bloating can wrench a scale and how you feel, so don't count on all of that being real, yet! I hate to see you quit-- I wanna' Celebrate your Victories!!! |
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