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I hardly ate at all... I probably over did the greenbean cassarole in the middle of the night... eaten cold right out of the fridge!!!! ugh! Up 4 pounds!!!! Those yummy little fried onions get me ever time!!! It's only weight! Put it on, take it off! Right?  :)

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I have been 180 for a long long long time... so yesterday I saw 174 which was a nice surprise but I am so use to the up and down now that I did not get too excited. Now this morning I saw it again...174. I think a part of me is pretty happy about that... But, as I write this I can smell the two Ooooey Goooey Pumpkin Butter Cakes cooking in the oven... Yeah, they are called Ooooey Goooey Pumpkin Butter Cakes... Hello my old friend 180... I will be home soon!!!!

This morning I had a grapefruit, poached egg, rye toast, a small glass of low sodium V-8 and a one a day vitamin... While I was eating my breakfast I was thinking about the foods I use to eat. I was alone in my kitchen... no one looking and I was eating EXACTLY what I wanted for breakfast. I remembered the biscuits and gravy, slabs of bacon, stacks of pancakes, breakfast tacos, sugary cereals... The horrible choices I have made in the past. That just isn't me ANY MORE!

It was a proud moment!    Anyways.. Just my morning thoughts!

This is the first winter I have been thin and now I get colder quicker.  The one thing about loosing the weight is I don't have any extra insulation to keep me warm.  WOW...what a ride lol

okay... I am not doing well today. Or yesterday! I started the day with pad thai... moved on to deep fried pumpkin pie... then a pizza. Yeah... I said PIZZA! I pretty much ate a LARGE CHEESE PIZZA. I am depressed and I guess that is my trigger. My heart... When my heart hurts I guess I try to fix it with food. I don't know what is gonna pull me back up... I am not happy with much right now.

If you know me... you know I just want to be happy. I am not happy today... and I do not like honey buns, hot peppers or a certain man very much right now!

2 days ago I weighed 175, I finally dropped a couple pounds and today...183

I took a day off today. The whole day. I did not do one minute of 'formal' exercise... but I did plenty of stuff to keep my body moving even though I have been so sleepy all day (even with a 5 hour power nap!!!) Last night I took my son to stand in line for 2 hours to pick up our reserved copy of Modern Warfare 2 (anybody else?)  We got home around 2 am. That was just crazy!!! The game must be good... I see my sons GPA taking a nose-dive now that he has a new mission to conquer!

Now all I am is hungry... I made eggplant parm (except no parm :) but I need dessert now. Maybe some fruit will make this craving for anything yummy, and chocolaty washed down with some ice cold milk... GO AWAY!!! I am not giving in to this... NOPE!!!

Stupid XBOX!

So today I feel sooo much better! I had a lot of people (my very best cc friends) come to the rescue. I was feeling so down about everything... Once you let yourself get so far down it is hard to figure out how to get back up again. But here I am... Back on my feet. I started the day with a great walk... in the rain!!! Just a light sprinkle but it made me feel so determined and back in control of things. I am giving myself a fresh start today... Thanks to all of you! When you feel down just remember you are not alone... Everyone here has fought the same battle and will be happy to show you the way back up and help you get over the hard-times!!!

WOOO - HOOOO... thanks girls!!! I could not do this without you!!!

edit to add... YAAAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

I stopped counting my calories again... And my walks just are not the same these days. Sure I walk... but I dread it, and drag my feet... and yell at the dogs for being so happy about it! It just is not the same. I am trying so hard to snap out of it. I am still losing weight, sllloooowly... I think that is only because the foods I eat are still pretty healthy (except the strawberry milkshake oreo's, what was I thinking?) I quit eating meat a few months ago and honestly I would not TOUCH fast food for the life of me EVER again... NO THANK YOU! Anybody else see the movie Food Inc??? It is out on video now... everybody should see it!!! I needed to see it... it opened my eyes! If you still eat fast food you should check it out for sure... If you have children you should see it and even if you don't you should still watch it! It is pretty educational...