mariaphelps's Journal

Well this is my first entry.  Not sure if this will work.  Came home from grocery shopping and blew it.  Just ate uncontrollable and went over my calories.  Just so edgy and craving a smoke bad!  Justin is coming home for college and it will be nuts around here and not looking forward to that.  Looking even less forward to moving him to LaCrosse knowing he is probably gone for good.  Going to be tough seeing that empty room and really dreading it.  My mother in law is talking smack about me and that makes me angry.  Dont want to go to the company dinner tomorrow either.  Just not like them people and outside of work find it hard to pretend I am.  So all and all I ate because I am emotionally spent.  Have to find some way to stop the emotionally eating.  Just dont know what.  Ate all that sugar and now I feel aweful.  Gut hurts and will probably be sick to my stomach tomorrow.  Guess I will try and figure out how not to eat and eat until I know I have blown it and get it under control.