medicinalmary's Journal

Look at what I can do!!
Nov 11 2009 14:27

SOooooooooooooo scale still hasn't budged.  But my size 18 pants are super lose now, like I shouldnt be wearing them anymore lose.  Anyways.... I did something during my yoga class that I never thought I would ever be able to do.  I did a foreward crane (with bent arms not straight) and a shoulderstand without the blanket.

SO I'm kind of this fuck the scale kick.  It just seems to disappoint me and never really shows my fitness progress.  Even though I've been at this weight since like last April or so, I know that I am way more fit and smaller than I was before.

For the first time in my life I don't feel depressed over my weight.  Yet recently everyone seems to think that they need to comment about my weight.  Wtf?  Maybe its because I don't complain about it, I don't put myself down, etc they just assume that I must let it consume my inner being.  FOr instance last night, this lady that I know said "oh i see so much of myself in you....." she was trying to turn me onto this writer "when I was in my late 20s - early 30s I was turned onto this author I am so excited to turn you onto him because I see so much of myself in you.....when I was your age I weighed 200 lbs and I was so depressed....don't worry you're going to be a very beautiful woman someday."

Lol - excuse me what?  and then she went on to say "oh I mean you're very beautiful now and if no man can see that then fuck them.  I hope I didn't offend you."

I have never discussed being depressed over not having a man or my weight with her.  I have never discussed those things period let alone being depressed over them.  I wanted to say "well I'm not in my late 20s-early 30s nor do I look like I am and I weigh 230, not 200." 

But  I didn't.  I just said "yeah I have to go now......"

Should I be offended?  Are these people trying to tell me something?  Is it like saying "so I noticed you don't put yourself down or seem depressed...... let me put my foot in my mouth a bunch because I think that maybe you should be self concious....."

I don't know.  What do you guys think?  Does this sort of thing happen to you a lot?