meganr's Journal

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Nov 06 2009 08:53

I have somewhat of a more positive attitude this morning, but I wouldn't say my usual self.  I have a strong sense that a lot of this is based on the season and time changing, some weird hormonal/menopausal changes, and maybe even the fact that I just started a new workout routine, which often makes me hungry.  I was trying to pick through it all mentally last night and there is a lot of just wanting to eat because it's pleasurable, and for whatever reason, nothing else seems to be.  (Which isn't really my normal attitude.)  I think I just have to wait it out and also make sure to get outside tomorrow.   I've been stuck in this office without getting out and about much. 

My weight is up 3.2 lbs from two days ago - not eating over maintenance (though I want to), so that just is another pointer to hormones and water retention.  Yeah, the scale just wants to mess with me too, perhaps I'll have to threaten it with another disembowelment to get it to cooperate.

On a very positive note:  I kicked some major butt this morning on my weights workout.  Whoo, lifted 135 lb deadlift and 155 rack deadlift.  That's not bad for a start - the last time I did one of these Strength programs, I got up to 165 lb deadlift, and I want to get there again, and I'm pretty sure I can, if this is my starting point.  I guess I didn't lose as much strength as I thought I had with the surgery.

Gratitude of the Day:  I am grateful for the extravagant tail fur of the gray squirrels rascalling around the oak trees.