melissa_bruce's Journal

Bummed
Dec 04 2009 15:32

As most of you know my husband fell in a grain elevator about 8 months ago. He fell 30 feet onto a concrete platform. He broke his L1-L5 vertebrae, crushed his sacrum and broke his pelvis all the way through. He has had two surgeries to repair his pelvis and his back. They had to put screws and rods in. He is doing better than he was but he is still unable to walk more than 15 minutes at a time. (because his back gets really really tired) after about 8 minutes he starts walking like the hunchback of notre dame. He complains almost every night about his pelvis hurting (mostly when we go to bed) and he is always tired. He gets these sweats that are horrible he can just be sitting there and his whole body starts sweating like crazy! It is weird. They say that is due to his RSD (nerve damage) It can take up to two years to heal...if they ever do. This may be TMI...but he is unable to get an erection...and when he does most times he is unable to do his deed. This accident really messed him up! I am unable to kiss his neck on his right side...because it hurts (due to the nerves being messed up) Also he can't really play with our kids. We went swimming for the first time yesterday and he said that he was unable to actually swim. It hurt his back! Poor guy. I don't really think about all of these things on a daily basis. Most of the time because it bothers me. He is my best friend. Sure we fight and things but I couldn't imagine life without him.

No diet pills
Dec 04 2009 10:54

I have lost weight before....lots of weight....63 pounds to be exact.  I know how to do it I just need to do it.  As tempting as trying the diet pills from the doctor I have opted not to do it.  (Thanks to my cc buddies!)  It wouldn't be worth losing it and gaining it all back.  At least when you lose the weight the healthy way it takes just as long to put it back on. lol that is the only thing that has saved me over the last couple of months.  I don't want to jinx myself but I have been doing great!  I feel like a new woman.  I have been eating right and doing more things and it is paying off.  :)  I was back in the 180's today.  woo-hoo!  I NEVER WANT TO BE IN THE 190'S AGAIN!!

With that being said TGIF!!  Thanks again everyone!  I could have made a BIG mistake. 

Sweet!
Dec 03 2009 15:42

Only 15 mintues more of work!  Woo-hoo!!  :) I get off early today!  I am going to go swimming at the rec center with my family when I get off.  That should be interesting!  Oh well Tegan will love it.  And Jensen is my water baby!

On to some more depressing issues...haha!  Yesterday a very well known equipment rep came in.  He is just goofy.  I mean like silly goofy.  He has his master degree in something I can't even remember what...but it is all about natural healing.  He did some "testing" on me and told me my thyroid was outta whack.  He said right in front of my face...it causes obesity.  UGGH!  What does he think that I am fat!?!?  lol I know I have gained some weight...but geesh! lol  I haven't felt really fat like this since I was over 200 pounds.  Him saying that has really motivated me to get back on track.  I was down to 179...I am back up in the 190's.  How could I let myself do this??  Gosh Mel get it together!!

The last two days I have done really good.  I hope I can keep this up!  I want to get down to a decent size by summer.  I am thinking about getting on some diet pills from the doctor.  Is that dumb?  My best friend is doing it.  She was weighing in at 178 and is down in the 150's now.  I am pretty jealous.  She has changed her eating patterns also with it...I am just wondering if she will gain it all back when she quits taking them?  I dunno.

Do not give into temptation
Dec 01 2009 12:46

Those are my words of wisdom for the day.  Now lets just see if I can follow them!

Poop
Nov 24 2009 09:29

I don't understand my weight!  I don't....it just jumps around all the time anymore!  Ugggh.  I haven't been doing good since Friday.  So I know I deserve some of this...but up seven pounds?  You have got to be kidding me!?!

Oh and to top it all off...I found my first grey hair!?!  25 years old...and I have a grey hair...lol :)

Humm
Nov 19 2009 12:44

I was suppose to get a call from Curves about joining but no call yet.  Oh well...since I haven't gone there the last two nights I have danced crazy with the kiddos and ran on the treadmill.  Maybe that is all I need for right now.  I know my babies sure love it when mama turns on the radio loud and just gets (for lack of a better word) "jiggy wit it" haha.  Honestly to tell you the truth I am a horrible dancer but gosh it was so much fun!  Jensen loved being tossed around and dipped...and Tegan thought it was neat to do the classic dirty dancing move jumping off of the chair into my arms.  :) (Although she is getting so big it was really hard to lift her up!  But hey I guess I can count that as lifting some weights.  lol

I have done great on my "healthy life-style" change.  (Yup no more calling it a diet...because it is forever!)  Weight was 189 today.  I am not sure why but I feel so much better when I can type in the 80's instead of the 90's.  I dunno they freak me out!  Maybe because I never want to be over 200 pounds ever again in my life and the 90's are close!  I just can't wait to see the 70's and maybe the 80's will freak me out then.

Have a great day ladies!  I am excited I get off work early today.  I am going to go home and clean out the hot tub and fill it up.  Hopefully it will be warm by Sunday.  :)

Curves
Nov 17 2009 11:33

I am thinking about joining curves.  Has anyone here done that?  I need something to get my motivation back on track.  I no longer have to pick up Tegan from daycare so I am thinking that I can go workout in that 30 mins that I was normally running to the daycare and picking up the kid. 

I think that it will give me more energy when I get home as well as make me a happier mom.  :)  I have a one week free trial....(well anyone can have it.)

So give me your feedback.  Is curves all that it is cracked up to be?

Mel

Slacker
Nov 13 2009 11:23

Yup it's true I am a slacker.  Enough said.  Now what are you going to do to work on it??!!

Creativity Test
Nov 09 2009 15:47

So I have a job interview tomorrow with a computer company.  Since I finished my degree last month I figured that it was time to try.  I am nervous though because they are wanting me to take a creativity test and practical tech test.  I am nervous because I am not for sure what they mean by creativity test.  I did a search for it on the internet and came up with more like brain teaser type things.  Has anyone ever had to complete a creativity test before for a job?  If so what was it like?  And do you have any examples?

Weekend.
Nov 09 2009 10:11

Okay so the eatting this weekend didn't go so well.  Friday night we went out to Jose Peppers for Sarah (my sis-in-law) b-day.  The food was horrible so I didn't eat too much.  Although the chips and salsa were good...so I probably ate 800 calories worth there.  Uggh.  But that is what I had left for the day.  When we made it home I was so tired that I just crashed.  I had a really hard day on Friday.  I was really missing my mom. 

So since Saturday marked the day that my mom passed away a year ago I decided to go out with friends.  We went to Old Town...and bar hopped.  It was fun!  I drank way too much...was dancing up on machines and everything. haha!  Great times. I will have to post pictures soon.

On Sunday only grease tasted good.  (I am guessing because of being hungover) So I ate like a pig that day too.  So it's Monday I am back at work up a pound and thinking about how I plan on eating healthy all day and exercising tonight.  It is a rainy day and I don't really feel like being motivated but I can't really afford not to.  I want this weight off!!  UGGHH!

I have decided that I want to stop breastfeeding.  I didn't nurse Jensen at all yesterday.  I pumped and tossed the milk just incase it was bad because of all the drinks on Saturday.  I also started him on a sippy cup yesterday.  He did great.  So maybe it is time.  I think I have enough frozen bm to last him until his first birthday.  So I guess we will see.  I am going to skip pumping at my 10 o'clock break.  Nurse him at 12:30 and skip my 3:00 break and feed him when I get home.  Then give him a bottle at 7 and nurse him before bed.  Guess we will see how it goes.

 I had to share a picture of my little dancer.  :) Isn't she goregous?!  She just had to have some make up on.  I love it!