mellissabee's Journal

I'm 12 weeks now and strange thing is that fat is going to my sides and back.  Not to the front where the baby is supposed to be growing.  Hmmmm.  Both of my girls popped out in my tummy, there was really no weight gain anywhere else.  I'm not liking the love handles and back flab.  I still fit into my regular jeans exept I'm starting to get that little bit that hangs over.  I've still been going to the gym Mon-Fri but I'm so pooped out!  I've been walking on the treadmill more often at an incline, I think If I stayed on the elliptical I may die.  I'm also hungry all the time, I'm still counting calories.  I eat around 2000 calories a day BUT it makes me feel so guilty.  I was eatting much lower then that prior to pregnancy and it's hard for me to escape that mindset.  It's quite depressing I feel like I should be eatting less and I feel mad at myself because I feel like I'm just letting myself get fat.